Has your idea of what makes a good friend changed as you have gotten older? Honestly my assessment of making a good friend has changed tremendously since I have God and Jesus Christ in my personal life because I had negative experiences making friends while I was in active addiction during that time.

  I want to inform everyone that God and Jesus Christ constantly make all of my decisions.   I am guilty of making friends with lewd women.  This is simply because I used to be addicted to sex in the past as well as buying sex from women who were street prostitutes rather than establishing a relationship with an actual woman. 

Next, I want to inform everyone worldwide that my life have changed tremendously because I had invested a great amount of money in women in the past, as I wanted to get married according to God and Jesus Christ’s terms only 🙏.  Currently I am very transparent about sharing what I am dealing with right now because God and Jesus Christ are doing more for me than I am doing for myself. 

I can not ask for anything else because I am not perfect.  I do classify myself as a Work in Progress because God and Jesus Christ are monitoring me very carefully due to my tendency to travel to the other side of town and spend a considerable amount of money at Diamonds Nightclub in southeast Dayton, Ohio, and spend half of my money on sexual gratification.  

Throughout my sobriety, I have allowed God and Jesus Christ to completely structure my life because I am much more responsible than ever before.  I will admit to being complacent in the past when it comes to my relationships with women 🙏.

 I want to inform everyone that my overall behavior has changed tremendously because I am paying my bills first and Foremost right now and taking full responsibility and accountability for all of my actions.  At least I have to take care of all of my personal responsibilities for maintaining a place to live as well as paying all of my bills long before I can engage in any extracurricular activities of my own choosing. 

Furthermore, I want everyone to know that I am currently living in an assisted living facility because I am suffering from multiple health problems.  My overall well-being and health is very poor right now.  I know that I am still gaining weight simply because of taking psychotropic medications as well as other medications for health problems that have interfered with my ability to become independent. 

In addition I have to stay at the assisted living facility until my overall health improves or deteriorates due to the severity of my health problems.  I want to inform everyone that my family members particularly my siblings and I are estranged from each other due to miscommunication and our ability to relate well as family members. I know that my family members and I were reared in a dysfunctional family dynamic, and we tend to argue more than learning better ways to communicate effectively with each other as a family unit.

 This is why I am staying here right now, as it is a very safe place for me 🙏. Finally I want everyone to know that my current residence is a controlled environment and this alters my behavior in various ways because of my inability to maintain full maximum independence by sharing myself with my relatives and friends. 

I admit that my current setting changes how I establish relationships with other people. However I have to say that I have restrictions on my behavior as well as how I deal with others. Therefore my behavior has completely changed because I have to give thanks to God and Jesus Christ for fully changing my behavior and my environment simultaneously just to preserve my sanity.

  At least I have more respect for myself than I ever had before.  Thank you, God and Jesus Christ, for protecting me.