My year consisted of ups and downs from the past 9 years until now.
Good Morning Everyone!! How are all of you doing today? I hope and pray that everyone is doing fine. I would like to inform all of you that my year consisted of ups and downs. The reason why is because I lost my sister and my mother within 48 days. My sister died on June 2, 2017. My mother died on July 20, 2017. During the first half of the year, I was working at Walgreens Pharmacy in Dayton, Ohio. The job was not too bad. I ended up getting fired because of a disability. I ended up getting fired on July 9, 2017.
I had laryngitis as well as an infection inside of my throat. I also had a lot of other issues that I was dealing with that I had expressed it on my Facebook Page. I want to inform all of you that I have been listening to music such as Steely Dan, Isley Brothers, The Jones Girls, and Zro. I want to inform all of you that I have to listen to music just to drown out the voices that I have been hearing. The voices have been minimized to the point that I do not allow them to get the best of me anymore. I want to inform all of you that I have had an up and down year. I also suffer from glaucoma and acute acid reflux disease.
I want to inform all of you that I suffer from schizoid affective disorder and bipolar 1. It is not very easy having a mental illness. I know for me, I have to continue to take my medication for the rest of my life. Even though I hear voices, I have to continue to do constructive things just to drown them out. The voices have been listening to all sorts of music. I also read the Bible every single day. I pray and meditate all of the time. I want to tell everyone that I was not diagnosed with a mental illness until I was 32 years old. This was during the time I was living in Charlotte, NC. What people do not realize is that I do not like to argue with anyone. I will say that I am not perfect. I will say that I have a problem looking at porn because I have been lonely. I have not been involved in a relationship in almost 9 years.
I want to inform all of you that I have been going through the blues when it comes to relationships. I also have to make amends with my family members. I want to inform all of you that I have been returning back to the vomit in a literal sense. I want to inform all of you that the voices have been very agonizing. I have been trying to keep it together. I know that I am taking 25 prescription medications every day of the week. I really do not need to take all of the medications that I am prescribed. This is very excessive, and it does not make sense for a grown person to take this amount of medicine each day.
I know that it is a necessity for me to take all of my medications for mental illness as well as my seizure medications. I want to inform everyone that I need all of you to please pray for me. It is not very easy dealing with a mental illness and a substance abuse problem at the same time. I have been clean and sober for 36 years now. My clean date is May 2, 1990. I gave up the dope and alcohol on Wednesday May 2, 1990. This was exactly 2 days before my hernia operation. I know that I am taking so much medication that I am having a very hard time trying to sleep at night.
I want to inform all of you that my brothers and sisters do not talk to me because I have a mental illness. My nieces and nephews love me a whole lot. I do not know what is really wrong with my brothers and sisters. My cousins and the rest of my family members love me a whole lot. It is pitiful that I cannot make direct amends to one of my brothers that I have hardly spoken to him in over 36 years now. This is not my fault. I am the type of person who will not grab bitterness like a rope. This is a very serious problem because some people usually pass away over some ……. Secrets from their past. Tell God and Jesus Christ to help you handle your problems. It is very sad because the voices know more about me than I know about myself. These voices that I hear are not the Holy Spirit.
These voices that I hear came into existence on Thursday November 8, 2009 at 11:30PM. I was a patient at Broughton Hospital in Morganton, NC from November 5, 2009 until December 5, 2009. I stayed in the psychiatric hospital for only 5 weeks. During my release from the hospital, I was placed at a residence in Southeast Charlotte, NC.
I was only at the residence for only 2 weeks. Afterwards, I went back into the Center for Behavior Health in Charlotte, NC. This took place because I had an issue with my medications as well as the voices. I had to go to court on December 23, 2009 at 9:00AM in Charlotte, NC for inducing panic. I was housed for another 2 weeks inside the hospital until January 5, 2010.
I was released from the hospital at 4:00PM. I was transported to the Greyhound Bus Station on West Trade ST in Uptown Charlotte by the hospital staff. Therefore, I was sent back to Dayton, Ohio. I arrived home at 9:50AM the next day. As soon as I arrived home in Dayton, Ohio from Charlotte, NC; it was a snow blizzard. There was 17 inches of snow on the ground. I have been home ever since. As of January 6, 2018 it will be 7 years since I left Charlotte, NC.
This year has been dismal because I have been hearing voices throughout the entire time. I am depressed at the moment because my mother and sister are not here with me. I also lost a very close friend this year on March 27, 2017 name Eric. He had a heart attack. I went to his funeral and I also spoke at his funeral because he literally saved my life. He saved me, even when I did not care about myself. He told me to stay in school and make my parents proud.
What he did not know is that I have not seen my own biological father in 47 years. I have not seen my own biological father in 47 years. To conclude everything, I want to inform all of you that I have been feeling sad and depressed because my mother and sister are not here with me right now. The Vitamin D is making my bones and muscles cramp and feel stiff. My doctor prescribed me too much Vitamin D.
I was taking 500mg and 600mg. Do you know that I can file a lawsuit against the hospital for prescribing me too much medication in the first place? The year 2017 has been good and bad for me. I love all of you very much. I am very serious when I say that I love you. I love you because God is love. Please take care of yourselves. God Bless You All!!
Currently in the 2026 right now,
I want all of you to know that my life up to this point is questionable because my living arrangements have changed since 2025. I was living with my family for almost a year. My family members and I had differences especially when it comes to paying bills. I want to inform everyone that I was paying my family members a total of $600.00 per month to live with them. I will admit that I really enjoyed staying with my family members because it had given me an opportunity to save for a little while until I got physically and mentally sick from being prescribed too much medication by multiple doctors. I got evicted out of Wentworth Hi Rise Apartments located on 2765 Wentworth Avenue Dayton, Ohio 45406 because I got into a fist fight with a dope fiend. I will admit that WE WENT COAST 2 COAST WITH EACH OTHER. I ended up going to jail for over a week and a half. I also caught COVID-19 inside of the MONTGOMERY COUNTY JAIL. I BECAME FURIOUS BECAUSE I WAS NEVER TREATED FOR COVID-19 WHILE I WAS AN INMATE.
In Addition, I want to inform everyone that I had been admitted to the hospital for a total of 9 times right now. I will also admit that I am currently living at the Cottages of Clayton Assisted Living Facility for a total of going on 10 months right now. I want everyone to know that I had eye surgery twice this year. I also had an endoscopy last year before Christmas of last year. I also had another sinus surgery on August 21, 2025. Therefore, I want all of you to know that the physical address to the Cottages of Clayton is 8212 North Main Street Aspen Building Room #4 Dayton, Ohio 45415. I want all of you to know that I am the youngest resident at the facility. I want you to know that I am still taking excessive medication by multiple doctors as well.
Moreover, I want all of you to know that it has been a very long road to recovery this year in 2026 because I had gained a total of 89 pounds this year from taking a psychotropic medication called Invega. This is an anti-psychotic medication for people who hear voices or suffer from both visual and auditory hallucinations. This medication increases a person’s appetite by causing anyone to eat and drink excessively. My urges to eat and drink a whole lot occur after 6:00pm each day of the week. I want you to know that I am still 71 inches tall and I weigh 319 pounds right now. I had been admitted to the hospital twice this month of October of 2026.
Also, I want to inform all of you that I had beef with the Assisting Facility Staff over my personal finances and this doesn’t make sense. I had been constantly been telling these M/F people that I am a grown man and I am handling my own personal finances as well as all of my personal affairs. I have been handling my own business since the year I had graduated from Paul Laurence Dunbar High School in the year 1986. I will admit that I might have fallen quite a few times, but I want to inform all of you that God Is Still in My Mix!!!! This is F/R for real!!! I have been clean and sober since Wednesday May 2, 1990. Even though people do not believe it, but it is true! My AA Chips do not keep me clean and sober, but they mark my clean time.
Finally, on the flipside of things,
I have managed to get my criminal record expunged with God’s help. I am very happy that I no longer have a criminal history anymore; even though it is inside of the archives at the moment. I want to inform everyone that I have been keeping to myself and consulting with God on a daily basis. Please continue to keep me & my family members in your prayers because of the irreconcilable differences that we have with each other at the moment. I am content with myself at the moment. Even though my family members and I have a difference of opinion on a daily basis, but I still love all of my family members. This is my dysfunctional family circus. I want to inform everyone that I am very transparent!!! As long as God and Jesus Christ love me; I am not asking for anything else. My daily bread is being served to me on a daily basis. I have accomplished a whole lot with God and Jesus Christ Divine Assistance. It is through God and Jesus Christ Grace and Mercy that I still exist today. Thanks!!!
Faithfully Submitted,
Anthony Hopkins
