Lamentations 3:39 says: Why does a living man complain, a man for the punishment of his sins?  First, I would already know that everything that I have done; while in this body will be under a very close review.  This means that if I have done something as a child or adult and will be reviewed.

Second, I will have an opportunity to Repent and discuss everything with God.  This means all of the things that I have done throughout my existence.  I w that I have done something bad all of my life right now.  I know that I have to apologize to all of my family members and friends for the good and bad in my life.

Third, I wouldn’t complain after all.  I will break down and cry because I have been wrong every single time.
Some of the things that I have done are not worthy of me going to heaven.  I do not have anything to say for myself.  I will admit that I would not be happy if I get sent to hell.  I would complain about my final outcome.

Fourth, I would like to make consessions with everyone that I have done wrong to.  This is if they’re willing to speak with me about everything that happened in their life.  I know that I have done so much wrong in my life right now.  For Instance, I didn’t answer my phone call from one of my friends.  I have to get a lesson on manners.

Finally, I am very sorry for all of the wrong things that I have done to hurt other people as well as myself.  I have been up since yesterday morning.  However, I have been drinking coffee without sugar today.  I have to be honest with myself right now.  I have to be honest with God, Jesus Christ, other people, and myself.  Like they say hurt people hurt people.  I need to stop interfering with myself.  I have to get real serious about life and tend to myself.

In Conclusion, I have been acting like a child.  Other people haeve taken advantage of me and I have taken advantage of myself.  I really need to get a reality check immediately.  I have already received it.  The only friend that I need in my life is Jesus Christ.  An average person would not deal with me.  If I am not able to rest and relax, I would end up passing away without anyone knowing my whereabouts.  I am suffering right now.  My family members do not check on me physically, mentally, psychologically and spiritually.  My family members are working very hard in the community.  I really need a job.  I need to pay $30,000 dollars for my student loans.

In Summary, I have to allow God to do His job when it comes to me as a person.  I will admit that I really need to see Jesus Christ for myself.  My faith tends to waver from time to time.  That explains why I am having memory lapses on a daily basis.  Therefore, I have early stages of Alzheimer’s right now.  I have to write everything down on paper and my journal.  I have Diabetes Full Blown Type 2 very bad.  It is affecting my vision.  God and Jesus Christ, I need to consult with both of you immediately.  Please evaluate me right now.  I really need Your Help!!