I want to start things off by saying that I have full blown Diabetes.  I know that Jesus Christ will help me to cope with the disease.  I have to really watch what I eat and drink on a daily basis.  It really hurts me so much �. I also know that I have Peripheral Artery Disease.  I  suffer from Grandmal Seizures, Gastric Ulcers, and Schizoid Affective Disorder.  I suffer from other physical problems that I am taking medication at the moment.

I know that I have to change everything in my life right now.  I have to allow God to help me out.  I have to go to the hospital on a regular basis.  I have to check my blood sugar levels on a daily basis.  I have to watch my stress levels on a daily basis.  I have to take my Medfordman on a daily basis before eating breakfast. I have to attend church on a regular basis.  I have to keep my emotions in check for the rest of my life.  As long as I am living with a terminal disease, I have to become humble and meek because I am not trying to leave here foolishly.  I also have to change my environment.  My family members use vulgarity towards me because I am only telling them that marijuana and other drugs are inside of my building.  Lord Jesus, I am asking you to please lead me and guide me along in this process.

Next, I have to consult with an endocrinologist and a podiatrist on a regular basis.  I have to maintain a personal relationship with God.  I have to lose weight really bad.  I also have to take my other medications on a daily basis as well.  I have to get a grip of this problem in order for me to maintain my sanity.  This is not a very easy topic to talk about because I tend to blame my own self for this problem.  I know that I have placed this problem inside of God’s Hands right now.  I have been overweight for a very long time right now.  I want to inform all of you that I am going to continue to share my personal feelings about Diabetes.  Perhaps, I can become an ambassador for this disease.

Finally, I have to go to the library on a regular basis in order to get out of my apartment building each day.  I also have to stop using vulgarity and have a positive attitude about life in general.  I have to see my therapist and psychiatrist on a regular basis.  have never been through anything like this before.  This is the first time for everything.  I realize that I have been anemic for 25 years now.  I have noticed when it gets cold outside, I tend to shiver really bad.  Therefore, cool weather and environments are not my best friend.  I tend to get cold while I am at home with the A/C is on.  I do not have enough red blood inside of my body.  I will admit that I have been taking over 25 medications per day for at least 27 years now.  Sometimes taking too much medication can take a complete toll on your body.  I have to question all of my current physicians right now because I really need to know how I ended up with Diabetes at an early age.  I know that I had taken Depakote for a mood stabilizer and seizure medication in the past.  I know that I had gained 85 pounds in one year in the year 1998.  There are times when doctors prescribe too much medication.  Especially when you are a Psychiatric Patient just to stabilize you within a short period of time.