The King Saul Effect and how it relates to my Personal Life!

        I would like to start off by saying that the King Saul Effect has a whole lot to do with disobedience.  Frankly, I will admit that I am guilty of disobeying God’s word myself.  For example, I am solely responsible for looking at porn in the past.  However, I have been consulting with psychics and numerologists on a daily basis.

 The reason why I am expressing about this particular topic is simply because I have made a whole lot of mistakes throughout my personal life.  An example of my disobedience consists of having sexual relationships with harlots from 1986-2010.  Currently, I am no longer engaging in sexual intercourse with harlots. 

Let’s look at King Saul right now, he is responsible for disobeying God by not destroying Amalek.  Next, I want to say that the King Saul Effect applies to my personal life right now.  The reason why I am saying this is because I have been hearing voices for the past 9 years.  I suffer from schizophrenia right now.  I feel at this time that my spirit has been broken because of my disobedience and my mental illness.

Further, I want to inform everyone that this can happen to anyone anytime.  Right now, I have been rendered powerless because I am hearing voices that are not the Holy Spirit.  Moreover, I want to say that my physical and mental problem cannot be cured right now.  The voices have really changed my whole life.

In Conclusion, I also feel that God is punishing me for all of my wrong doings.  Even though I have been baptized on Sunday February 15, 2015; I feel that God is still mad at me for wasting my seed numerous of times within the past 39 years.  In Summary, the King Saul Effect applies to me personally because I have been disobedient all of my entire life.

Finally, I would like to say that I feel that my Holy Spirit has been removed from me.  I am losing my memory right now because I hear voices.  I will also admit that I have sent $16,977 dollars to people that I did not know.  I will admit that I am hearing voices because I have been behaving terribly during the past 21 years.  I also admit that have put people’s names on my report in vain.  I will admit to having numerous of pictures of women in my past.  I also have a chemical imbalance inside of my brain right now.  I feel that having a mental illness have made me a very strong person.  I have casted all of my burdens on the Lord.  Thank you for reading my essay.