Dear God, it is easy to have days when we do not want to do anything, but we know having this attitude can have long-term effects. Help us to seek you rather than grow stagnant or complacent about you. Forgive us for the times when our slothfulness has kept us from doing as we should and prevented us from growing in our spiritual lives. Thank you for your forgiveness and for renewing our spirits. Help me to be motivated to give my best to my job, studies and spiritual life in order to serve you. In Jesus’ name, amen.

Proverbs 20:20 says If one curses his father or his mother, his lamp will be put out in utter darkness.  This is pertaining to children and adults, who curse out their father or mother, their lamp will be put out in deep darkness.  I will admit that I did cussed out my stepfather and mother before.  I will admit that I also had stolen money from my mother before.  Everytime I read this information I have to reflect on my own past with my parents.  I will also say that I have not had any success in my life.  I am admitting all of this because my niece’s and nephews are doing the same exact thing.  I have to confess because I done the same thing myself.  When I was a child, I disobeyed my parents for real.  This is the reason why I have not succeeded in life.  I will admit that I waited until I received my stimulus money in order to write a book. . Frankly I needed God’s Help to write my books.  To be honest with all of you, I have not worked in 4 years now.  The reason why I am not able to get a job is because I have a mental illness conviction on my record.  I have to try and get a job working for the RTA in Dayton, Ohio.

This Bible verse is true.  This is because God will deal with you by Himself.  God will punish you in ways that I cannot mention online.  This is the truth because something bad will happen to you and ih is because of the things that you have done to your parents.  This is so serious because it has happened to me personally.  I almost died on three different occasions.  On Saturday February 13, 2010, I almost killed myself by taking all of my medicine at one time.  I stayed in Miami Valley Hospital in Dayton, Ohio for almost a week.  The only reason why I did it is because I got scammed out of $16,977 dollars in Western Union Funds.  I had been shot at in Charlotte, NC on Tuesday October 13, 2009 in Downtown Charlotte NC.  I almost got shot at by a hitman that night.

I had a lot of problems from 2009-2015.  I got into trouble while in the hospital because a Church called the police on me for communicating threats.  This is the reason why I ended up staying in the hospital for a total of 60 days.  I was sent to Summit Behavior Hospital for 60 days.  After I got home from the hospital, I had to appear in Court on March 21, 2012.  It was a Tuesday morning when I went to, Mental Health Court.  The Judge was David White.  He put me on probation for Three years.  I had to go to Court once a year for three years.  I learned a valuable lesson because I could have went back to Summit Hospital for one year.  

The Spirit of a man is the lamp of the Lord, searching all the inner depths of his heart.  This is the truth because if our Spirit leaves our body, we will not be alive anymore.  This is the reason why I am very careful at all times.  God loves me and I love Him.

I really love all of you.  My family members think that I am having a tantrum. My own family members do not know me.  God loves me because I have repented of all of my sins.