Matthew 15:18-20 says: But those things which proceed out of the mouth comes from the heart, and they defile a man.  For out of the heart proceed evil thoughts, murder, adulteries, fornications, thefts false witness, blasphemies.  These are the things which defile a man, but to eat with unwashed hands does not defile a man.  It really has a lot to do with what we are thinking about each day.  That is what it takes is a lot of negative thoughts that are inside of our minds.  Afterwards, I want to say that if those thoughts are inside of our hearts defiled a man, woman, and children.  You know something, nonverbal communication that we use each day is capable of defiling anyone including a beast of the field.  Some animals cannot be tamed by man.  This is the reason why the spirit of an animal goes down.  I want to change my way of thinking on a daily basis.  We are supposed to live like Jesus Christ died by sharing the Gospel of Peace with everyone.

Good Evening Everyone!!  My name is Anthony Joseph Hopkins and I am a 57 year old man, who has a very long way in my life.  I used to be an angry person growing up in Dayton, Ohio from 1972-1990.  I was mentally and emotionally abused as a child.  My stepfather tried to kill me on three occasions.  He put my head inside of a hot stove.  My hair and face was on fire.  I smelled like burnt hair for one week.  I was born on Thursday June 24, 1965 at 7:30pm.  This is the reason why I stayed up all night for days at a time.  I really didn’t use vulgarity until I was 9 years old.  I heard my parents using vulgarity on a daily basis.  My stepfather punched on everyone except my mother.  When I was 8 years old, I saw my mother shoot my stepfather with a gun.  He stayed in the hospital for six weeks.  This is because he lost a lot of blood in his own body.  I will admit that I held everything inside of me.

I am very guilty of stuffing all of my angry feelings because I was scared of men and women.  I guess I didn’t have enough courage in me.  For nine years, I used to get beaten up all of the time.  I used to fear other children at school because they were beating me up all of the time.  I was a very smart person in school.  The only class that I have a problem with is math.  I was a C average student.  I love History, English, and Political Science and Government.  I did well in Spelling and Military Science.  I was afraid to go home.  I remember sleeping inside of garbage cans because I was scared to go inside of my mother’s house.  My stepfather was a tyrant.  I remember on Sunday November 25, 1985, my stepfather stabbed me with a hook knife.  My stepfather tried to kill my brother because he lost his money in a dice game.  If I would not have put my arms up, my brother would have perished.  My brother called The police and I didn’t press charges against my stepfather because I told the police that he was too old to go to jail.  I forgave him.

I am a person who knows how to forgive other people.  I have come a very long way in my personal life.  I have been clean and sober for 32 years now.  Finally, I have been hearing voices for 13 years now. I hear women laughing at me.  This is the reason why I prefer Pastoral Counseling over psychotherapy.  A pastor can help me better than a therapist.  I have been defiled since birth.