Numbers 6:25 Interpretation and Discussion

The Lord make His face shine upon thee and be gracious unto thee:. The Lord will show Himself worthy to those who serve Him with a sincere heart.  The Lord will seek Him in truth.  I really love this Bible verse because it gives me confidence.  The Lord’s face will shine on those who are righteous.  If you repent of your sins, iniquities, and transgressions. I try my very best to show myself worthy and be honest with my Lord.  I know that I have had a rough childhood growing up in Dayton, Ohio.  For 18 years, I used to drink alcohol and smoking marijuana on a daily basis.  My mother was very angry with me.  This is because I was a bad influence on my siblings.  I have to make direct amends with my family members.  I wasn’t a good role model for all of my family members and friends.  God has changed me 32 years ago.  I had a negative attitude and negative ways.  I love all people right now, more than I did years ago.

The Lord sure did change me from the inside out.  The Lord has been gracious unto thee because I had to read God’s Word on a daily basis. Since I am hearing voices that are not the HOLY SPIRIT, I have to read the Bible each day and pray that God would give me an attitude adjustment.  God does exactly what He say He would do.  On Wednesday May 2, 1990 at 7:00pm, I asked God to remove the taste of alcohol and marijuana from my body.  On Friday May 4, 1990, I went inside of St. Elizabeth Medical Center for my surgery on my inguinal hernia.  The surgery had taken 90 minutes to install a hernia mesh on my groin.  The hospital had to admit me as a patient because my main bowel was severed.  Therefore, I was not able to urinate.  I had to get catherized immediately.  I remember the urinary catheter because it hurt going in and out of my penis.  I was in a whole lot of pain.  I had to endure a lot of criticism and abuse from my parents.

The Bible verse speaks volumes.  It is the truth because God takes care of the righteous.  I had to repent of my sins for cutting my sister’s hair and slapping my grandmother.  I was already a juvenile delinquent.  I graduated from high school three years late.  I also used to buy beer for children.  I remember taking my nephew to the Montgomery County Jail for a total of two hours.  As soon as we entered the Jail, we spent time with a close friend.  My nephew was screaming and yelling out loud.  I calmed him down because we were in the visitors area.  I told my nephew that if he acts up again, he was going to become an inmate.  One of my nephews is serving 25 years for selling an excessive amount of drugs.  He had a total of $10,000,000 dollars on the table.  He had weapons of all types all over the house.  I told him that his own children will be grown as soon as he gets home from prison.  I told my other nephew to keep his head up because he has to serve 15 years for a parole violation.  I told him to go to school and graduate.  The point that I am trying to make is that if you do the crime, you must do the time.  During the time I got into trouble on Friday June 21, 1985.  I was responsible for stealing clothes and jewelry.  I pleaded guilty in court on August 21, 1985.  Right now, I am talking to my niece and nephews about getting into trouble.  Please keep me in your prayers and thoughts because I suffer from Schizoid Affective Disorder and Schizophrenia. My medications do not work for me anymore.  I have to go back to the hospital for another few weeks.  What I am trying to say is that I have a mental Illness.  I have been suffering for the past 25 years now.  I am hearing voices that are not the HOLY SPIRIT.  This is very serious.  Please keep me in your prayers.  God Bless You and Have a Wonderful Day Everyone.