What does it mean to Test the Lord God?

          Good Day Everyone!! I would like to start this essay off by asking everyone a very important question.  What does it mean to test the Lord God?  First, I would like to say that it is the smallest things that we do wrong that goes against God.  For example, if a person continues to confess for his or her sins over to God, and constantly repeats them.  You are putting God to the test.  For me personally, I am guilty of looking at porn in the past, and dealing with harlots.  I had spent over $100,000 dollars on sex. 

          Next, I want to inform everyone that it is our actions, deeds, and trials that we go through that put God to the test.  Like they say in Isaiah 59:2 that your sins have separated you from God.  As I recall, I was only testing the waters so to speak.  I know that being involved in carnal activities is a sin.  I remember dealing with female prostitutes during a 24 year period.  From June 22, 1986 to July 3, 2010; I was solely responsible for spending my money buying pornographic magazines and buying sex from prostitutes; while living in Toledo, and Dayton, Ohio.  The reason why I preferred these women is simply because they were looking for money to get a fix.  I was involved in relationships with women, but at that time, I was not satisfied. 

        I will also admit that I was involved in a monogamous relationship with my wife in 1989.  She ended up giving me a STD twice.  I had to report her to the Dayton, Ohio Montgomery County Health Department on October 21, 1989.  She had given me chlamydia and later I had gonorrhea inside of my mouth.  I was devastated because my wife at that time was a prostitute.  I did not know it until the very last minute.  She ended up suffering from pelvis inflammatory disease.  You see one thing, whenever, a woman contract a disease of some sort, their bodies contain an acidic environment that is capable of getting rid of things that are inside of the vagina.  However, she accused me of giving her a disease and I was faithful throughout our marriage.  I had caught her cheating on me with another man. 

        Afterwards, I divorce my wife because she told me in my face that she did not love me.  I cried and cried for a long time.  I moved to Toledo, Ohio on September 1, 1990.  I lived in the Toledo, Ohio Area for a total of almost 6 years.  While living in the Toledo, Ohio Area, I had continue to deal with the wrong women.  I was not able to find anyone who would love me for the person that I am.  My life at that moment changed for the better.  I graduated from the University of Toledo in Toledo, Ohio on June 12, 1993 and again on June 17, 1995.  I ended up working a total of 3 jobs and living on my own. 

        In Addition, I want to inform all of you that I continued to pay for sex with money.  I also worked my fingers to the bone and God had changed me for the better as of February 15, 2015.  I know that what I am saying is that I became a slave for Satan for a very long time.  I will also admit that I really need a lot of prayer because I am not involved in another relationship with anyone at the moment because I am still trying to get myself together with God.

        Finally, I want to say that I had been dwelling and sleeping inside of the streets for a very long time.  Whenever my mother used to put me out of the house, I used to sleep at Riverview Park in Dayton, Ohio.  This was during the time that I was in active addiction.  I used to drink beer and wine for 18 years.  I used to smoke marijuana and deal with lewd women for over 24 years.  I want all of you to please keep me in your prayers because I am still startling the fence.  I am trapped between social media and porn.  My phone has been inundated with porn images.  I need everyone to please keep me in your prayers because the Internet is Satan’s Playhouse.  I am literally ready to change for the better.  I have stopped looking at porn and dealing with my sinful nature.  Thank you for reading my essay.  God Bless All of You!!