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What is an Outcast?

This is a special report on a very important issue that is going on worldwide. The definition of an outcast is when one who is banished from a community, city, or society. A person is an outcast when they are oppressed and treated unfairly by members of a community, city, state, country, or society. A person is an outcast if they have been banished or kicked out of their own country. There are times when people usually leave their own country due to war, conflict, or dictatorship. When a person is an outcast, he or she is classified as a dissident either living in another country, or are in exile.

Exile on the other hand is when an individual goes into hiding. For instance from the things that he or she has done. Whenever a person is an outcast, they are living in complete total isolation. This means that a person will have to conceal or hide themselves from the general public. A person in many cases can feel this way; whenever they are being constrained. For example, if a person is released from prison or an institution, they are treated unfairly compared to their own peers. An example of this is when a person is released from an institution; there are times, when they need an advocate.
This means a person need a case manager or someone from the courts or agency to address all of their concerns. Another example of this is when a person has been assigned to probate court. This particular court is for individuals who suffer from a mental illness, guardianship, and dealing with divorce. When a person feels like an outcast, they feel completely left out and completely depressed. Jeremiah 30:17 says; But; I will restore you to health and heal your wounds declares the Lord because you are called an outcast, Zion for whom no one cares. This is a problem that only God will have to resolve.

Individuals who are trapped inside of the social system are literally slaves to the system. This means that individuals who feel like an outcast are exist in a world without any friends, family, or resources. An outcast is someone who has been banished from society in some cases due to exhibiting behaviors that are a risk to the personal safety of others and themselves. Outcasts only have God to rely on rather than other people. There are times when a person would even feel condemned because of unfair treatment that they are receiving inside of a city, state, country, or society as a whole.

Outcast members usually are more than likely to commit crimes or in most cases, get incarcerated. A person can live inside of the United States and feel like an outcast. The money that they receive from the Government is all that they have to rely on. An outcast member of society are denied jobs; simply because of their behavior or their status inside of the social system. A person who has a disability, sometimes feel like an outcast because of discrimination.

If a person is released from prison, jail, or an institution; they are still classified as a case number in society. This is an indication that a person is going through involuntary servitude. This means that a person’s civil rights and liberties have been stripped from them. This is due to surveillance that is burdensome. A person can still live inside of your neighborhood and still be deemed as an outcast. They experience a great deal of apathy from others. Modern day involuntary servitude still exist today

In House Operations

This is a blog that pertains to organize crime. Why does organized crime exist? This is simply because there are issues that still exist in the criminal justice system that are still unresolved. For example, in my case that I have had with the individuals who have scammed me out of money, these criminals are still committing the same crimes. I have been victimized for the past 18 months without any resolution with law enforcement. There are simulation exercises that are used to intimidate others as well.
Next, the in house operations that I am talking about have something to do with taking advantage of honest people online. I have lost almost $17,000 dollars in money to men and women who have not been apprehended. The operation that I am talking about consists of men using women’s profiles online and pretending to be the women themselves. I have been victimized in various ways. I have been online searching for a specific female to marry or to become friends with. It didn’t work out because the men themselves had already been involved in relationships with women.
Further, I have also been victimized by the men who have taken advantage of me by scare tactics and devices that are used to intimidate people. The scare tactics themselves are computerized and they are used to mess up the lives of other people. There are organized criminals that use other tactics such as following others without their common knowledge. The in house operations that I am talking about usually happen inside of the home of criminals or in other areas that are unfamiliar to their victims.

Moreover, the scare tactics that criminals that have taken advantage of me have used tracking devices and computer related software that are used to intimidate their victims or having them jumping to conclusions. This is very dangerous and it can intimidate someone to death. The scare tactic that is used in the movie True Lies. There are criminals that are very sophisticated. It becomes so high tech that it really surprises me as a person.

Finally, I am making the public aware of this problem because I have been victimized for quite sometime. I know that law enforcement is doing their best to make arrest in most cases, but my personal accounts have been hacked while I have been online recently. Criminals are so dangerous that I classify them as silent killers. These are organized criminals that use certain scare tactics to try making it as if they are with you when they are really not. The operations that I am talking about are in secret. The criminals in my case are still out there trying to damage my reputation and creditability as a person. I have nothing left but the possessions that I have for myself. There are times when criminals can communicate with you without your common knowledge. It makes me frighten if there are criminals who are out there doing these things to honest people. Thank you for reading my personal essay.

Online Scamming and Human Behavior

Online scamming and human behavior is a very serious problem. The definition of online scamming is when a criminal who is online and takes advantage of another person with the use of a computer, cell phone, P.D.A., or telecommunications device. Online scamming has a lot to do with the use of money. Western Union and Money-gram are the best methods of receiving money from their victims. Banks such as Fifth-Third, Chase Manhattan, and Bank of America is examples of banks that receive Western Union Wire Funds transactions.

Further, over half of the online scammers who are online taking advantage of others are men. The online scammers themselves are men and women who are using email addresses, physical addresses, and telephone numbers that do not belong to them. These online scammers usually use cell phone numbers from other countries or other cities that are cloned and copied onto their own cell phone or their own personal computer. Over 80% of the victims who are online who are scammed are men who are on websites that are hacked and utilized by online scammers each day. The online scammers themselves are men who are using women’s profiles on websites such as Yahoo, Black planet, Face book, MySpace, and Moco Space, and MySpace. Among the 80% of the victims who are scammed were using certain websites and were actively searching for a date or an online friend. For example, Blackplanet.Com has received the most complaints from their victims besides face book, MySpace, and Moco Space

Next, online scamming and human behavior are not intertwined. This is because this is classified as a crime that is in progress. This is a consumer fraud investigation. This is because mostly men who have been using women’s profiles on social networking websites such are classified as cyber-criminals. These men use the websites for the sole purpose of perpetrating crimes such as wire fraud, forgery, identity theft, identity fraud, and computer hacking. There are over 100,000 social networking websites that mostly men are accusers of the crimes themselves. There are crimes such as romance scams that men and women are involved in each day. There is a crime that exists when it pertains to social networking websites. This crime is called a romance scam. Romance scams are up in the United States by as high as 70% within the past 10 years. The victims themselves do not realize until the last minute that they have been completely fooled by the online scammers.

Moreover, when it comes to human behavior; men and women are solely responsible for engaging in behaviors that are appropriate or inappropriate. Human behavior indicates that most of our human behavior is learned. 80% of our behavior is learned or is observed through the use of imitating it. This means that we learn our behavior by watching someone else do it.

The men who scammed me out of $16,977 dollars are responsible for meeting me on Black Planet.Com from July 21, 2007 until February 26, 2010. These men were responsible for meeting me online and using the profiles of women that they did not know. The profiles that they have used were from women on Black planet.com who are still living inside of the United States. They lied throughout the whole entire time.

The men pretended to be from Accra, Ghana the whole entire time. Another thing that I have noticed is that my phone calls themselves came from phone numbers that were cloned and copied from the United States and other countries. From March 15, 2008 until February 26, 2010, the phone calls that I had received came from unavailable phone numbers or from Accra, Ghana. However, the crimes occurred in both Charlotte, NC and Dayton, Ohio. The men had pretended to be in Accra, Ghana but they were literally inside of the United States.

This is classified as a crime in progress because these suspects have not been apprehended. They operate out of 24 hour internet cafes inside of the United States. They are responsible for using women’s profiles and the women who the profiles belong to are totally unaware of it. I lost a lot of money simply because of men that are dishonest and incapable of giving another person a chance at happiness. I rely on God and close friends that support me in spite of what I have went through. I am sharing my story because I do not want anyone else to get hurt by the use of romance scams and online scammers. Thank you for your understanding and cooperation.

Most of your computer hackers and scammers ask questions to others when they are online. For instance, if a computer hacker or scammer ask you what time is it in the day, this means that they are located in another city, state, or country. It is very important for everyone to pay attention to what the computer hackers and scammers are asking you. This is because they are trying to devise a scheme or plan to obtain some information or money from you. What most hackers and scammers are using right now are credit cards from other victims. What they usually asked another person or victim to do is for their credit card information and they will take advantage of you. In most cases, the victim will be charged with credit card fraud. This is because the hacker or scammer has gained someone else’s information illegally and without their consent or knowledge. It is very important not to give another person that you are online with your personal information. Never leave your phone number, physical address, and anything that a computer hacker, scammer, or data thief can gain access to it. Never give your personal information to someone that you do not know. A computer hacker asked me this afternoon 1/25/2013 what time is it where I was located. It baffled me because most of your hackers and scammers are overseas. They also greeted me Good Morning and they also asked me whether or not it was morning where I lived. I told them no!! This is extremely unusual because most computer hackers and scammers that are on certain websites know exactly what time it is. Another thing that computer hackers, scammers, and data thieves can do is change information while a person is on the website. This is also very suspicious as well. Whenever a person’s profile changes while you are examining it, this means that there is a likelihood that the profile is hacked. Another thing is that a computer hacker, scammer, or data thief can revise your profile without you even knowing it. They can add or delete information without you even knowing it. It is extremely important for everyone to please examine their profile very carefully. It is important that you know the person that you are talking to; so that you can be reassured. Always examine and check your profile each day that you are online to make sure that everything is right where you left it. Accuracy is important!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Characteristics of the Mocospace Computer Hacker

The characteristics of the Mocospace Computer Hacker consist of a man or a group of men who are using women’s profiles as a disguise and literally get away with the crimes. This is an enterprise because the men or group of people work 24 hours per day. At first, they start off as a group of men who are starting a group conversation with the intended victim. How do they obtain the victim’s information is simple. This is obtained through photographs and cell phone numbers that are left online by men who are looking for a good time with a decent woman. At least the victims themselves tend to be single men who are actively looking for a relationship with a younger woman.

The Mocospace Computer Hacker is a person who lies and waits like a snake. He in some cases, there are women who are using computers and laptops as well as I-phones to communicate with their victims. At first, it starts off with a conversation from a female’s profile that is already hacked. Obviously, her information is illegally transferred into an account that the female is not aware of. This starts off by a cutting and pasting of the woman’s photo, particularly, if it is a sexy woman wearing their underwear or something provocative/stimulating.

The locations of these hackers as well as scammers are worldwide. Most of the scams usually take place overseas. Their locations are private as well as their profiles. Whenever a man has a private profile, this means that he has something to hide. There is also a group of hackers who operate as a couple. This is mainly done overseas; particularly in the Continent of Africa. Western Africa to be exact has more MocoSpace Computer Hackers as well as hackers from other websites. They usually start off by gaining information from the victim. This is a process of establishing rapport with the victim. To gain his or her trust is paramount for a computer hacker or scammer. The Mocospace Hacker is a very intelligent individual who has a lot of confidence about himself.

What his primary intentions are is to gain a lot of female friendships with women as much as he can. Then in some cases, there are men who are using a woman’s picture to obtain information from men. This happens quite a lot. There are a lot of men who have their pictures posted onto a female’s profile. Please watch out for this because this means trouble for the victim. This hacker or men using the women’s pictures are operating in the same way as a computer hacker and scammer. The Mocospace Computer Hacker usually leaves a trail behind himself.

If a person who is intelligent and knows what is going on will know how to counter his moves. Women are primary targets especially younger women because the men look for sexy poses and looks. The Mocospace Computer Hacker is a very computer savvy and excellent when it comes to using a computer. They also have their own set of equipment such as a satellite, computers, laptops, I-phones, and Smart-phones that they use on a daily basis. Most of their direct communications always go undetected. They are located inside of warehouses, a private residence, and internet cafes worldwide. These hackers have their own private bank accounts and they use Western Union a whole lot especially when it comes to collecting money.

This money is received in Western Union Funds because most of your scammers and hackers are located overseas. The money itself is collected on a weekly to bi-weekly basis, based on whenever the victim gets paid. In some cases, there are couples who operate as scammers because they are likely to receive more money from men who are not aware of their devious schemes. The MocoSpace Computer Hacker is a person or a group of people who collect women’s photos and pictures on a daily basis. They also have a separate account that is cloned or duplicated. They usually do not pick up their money from the bank. Most of their funds are collected on their cellular phones. They can make deposits and check on their bank accounts as well as online transactions through their smart phones. If these hackers were inside of the United States, they would have been captured by now. However, most of the criminals are located in countries such as Africa, United Kingdom, India, Asia, Russia, Italy, Japan, and Canada. They are located in countries that the United States officials cannot catch them. It is always best to check your accounts very carefully to make sure that no one did not tamper with your account.

The Potter

This is one special blog that talks about God’s very important masterpiece. It is the creation of man and woman. In Isaiah 64:8 it says; Yet you Lord are our Father. We are the clay, you are the potter; all we are the works of your hand. This means that we are very special to God. In spite of what has happen between Adam and Eve; we are very special. I love this because I know that in my 46 years of existence is that God still loves me. In Genesis, God created man from the dust of the ground blew breath inside of his nostrils and man became a living soul.

When a potter uses its clay, he/she is creating something that is meaningful to them. A potter uses his own hands to work out their own masterpiece. I remember when I was in high school; which was a very long time ago; I was enrolled in an art class. I have created a real nice looking cranberry vase. At first, when I started using the pottery wheel, I will admit, I felt nervous at first. This is because the clay splattered all over the place. Everyone in class was laughing at me; especially the art teacher. As soon as I got used to the pottery itself, it became very simple. I created my vase and I gave it to my grandmother. I also made ashtrays and other things as well.

Next, when it comes to God, He was never nervous as I was in high school. He had intentions for mankind. God wanted the earth populated with all of its creations. God also created woman from the womb of man; by virtue of a deep sleep. A rib was removed from man to create woman. I love what I see on earth myself. I see people, places, animals of all kinds, and I am very satisfied. I have to say that when it comes to the potter and the clay, this has a lot of meaning. This bible verse; when I read it made me cry. This is because of the significance of the verse itself. This bible verse pertains to the creation of man, woman, and every living creature that walks on the face of the earth

Further, whenever I think of the potter and the clay; I will always know that it has a lot to do with the existence of life itself. God is watching us each day of our lives. I will always know that one day in the Holy Bible is 1,000 years. It might mean 24 hours to us in contemporary times, but one day is very significant to all of us. I will know that life itself is only a vapor when it comes to God. The air that we breathe does not belong to us. In Jeremiah 1:5 says that before I formed you in the womb, I knew you, before you were born, I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations. This means that before we are born, God knew us while we were inside of the womb of our mother. At least I will always know my mother. Although, I do not know my father, but I know that my father is God and Jesus Christ.

Finally, when it comes to life itself, it begins inside of the womb. There are others that think that life begins when a child is expelled from the womb of its own mother. This is a small percentage that thinks this way. However, life itself is based on existence, choices, decisions, values, and our personality. When it comes to the human existence, it is important to know that it is based on the principles that God has implemented in the first place. My life right now has changed dramatically. I have been living it through trail and error. I have based my life upon my experiences as well as the choices that I have made. I have a lot of respect and appreciation for life right now. When it comes to the potter and the clay, this is very serious to me as well as all of us. This means that God is still with us throughout our journey.

Is it True That God knows How Long We Will Live?

        This is an essay that will focus on the importance of how long man will live.  I would like to start things off by asking a question.  Is it true that God knows how long we will live?  The answer to this question is not very easy to respond.  However, according to Psalms 139:16 it says your eyes saw my substance being yet unformed. And in your book, they all were written, the days fashioned for me, when as yet there were none of them.

        Next, I did not know that God knows how long we are going to live according to His word.  This is very unusual because I thought that if we take care of ourselves and modify our lifestyle, we can live long on earth. Jeremiah 29:11 says for I know the plans that I have toward you. Plans to prosper and a purpose.  Some translations states that for I knows the thoughts that I have towards you, plans to prosper and a purpose.  I really did not take things seriously regarding my life until May 2, 1990.  I started praying to God for a complete change in my personal life.

        Further, I want to inform all of you that it was not very easy for me growing up in Dayton, Ohio.  This is because I used to get beaten up by my sister, and other kids in school.  I know that I fought everyone for 28 years.  I even fought myself.  I just did not realize that the Bible has over 6,000 promises that are very true.  Anyway, I did not even know that God knows when we are going to see Him personally.

Psalms 56:8 says; You number my wanderings, put my tears into Your bottle; are they not in your book?  This means that God knows exactly what we are doing at all times.  This also means that God knows where we are going and when we rise in the morning.  He even knows the people that we are going to be with today.  God even knows so much about us that we cannot even understand it.  Job 27:3 says; As long as my breath is in me, and the breath of God in my nostrils.  Honestly, the things that we have as far as possessions are concerned, are worldly.  The air that we breathe does not belong to us. God Bless You!!  Thank You for reading my essay.

Romans 14:12 And What It Means To All People?

By: Anthony Joseph Hopkins

          Good Day Everyone!! How are all of you doing today?  Fine, I hope.  I have a very important question.  What does Romans 14:12 and what it means to all people?  The answer is; everything in God’s creation will be judged honestly and righteously.  I want to say that every human being and animal must give an account to God. 

I know for me that it has not been very easy growing up in my own hometown of Dayton, Ohio.  I grew up very poor.  This is simply because my mother had given birth to six boys and three girls.  One thing that I can say about my mother is that she took care of all of us.  My mother worked just to take care of her household.  However, as the Bible verse states is that every one of us shall give account of himself to God.

Next, I want to also say that I had been a very mischievous child growing up.  I used to smoke marijuana and cigarettes at an early age.  I was a follower rather than a leader.  I did what everyone else was doing.  My mother told me the meaning of my name.  She stated to me that I am a leader instead of a follower.  She told me that I was named after Joseph in the Old Testament.  She also indicated that I am a leader.  I did not know at the time, but she was absolutely right. 

          Moreover, I want to mention that my mother, grandmothers, and aunt told me the truth inside of my face.  Each time they talk, I would get intimidated.  This is simply because I either done something wrong, or they were correcting me for an injustice.  This is the same thing that the Lord Jesus Christ is going to do.  He is watching us all of the time.  I realize that the Righteous Judge is Jesus Christ.  Colossians 3:25 states that: But he that doeth wrong shall receive for the wrong which he hath done: and there is no respect of persons.  This means that every human being living and dead will be accountable for what they have done while inside of their body. 

          Further, I want to inform all of you that God and Jesus Christ are one.  John 10:30 says I and my father are one.  This means that I do not want to hurt the heart of God.  I am doing my very best to conduct myself like a person who has good common sense.  Seek ye first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all of these things shall be added unto you.  I really need to know what my assignment from God.  I am doing my part to make the Kingdom grow.  I am a person who loves the Lord Jesus Christ.  I am living to do the glory of God. 

          In Addition, I am called according to His purpose.  I would rather live in God’s Will.  I am a person who strives to make God smile every day of the week.  Prior to that, I was engaging in bad activities simply just to appease my friends.  I tend to be all by myself right now.  I am chasing God right now.  I am running to God.  Doing the Will of God is not always easy.  For me personally, I have to still make amends to my siblings.  One of my baby sisters is not talking to me anymore.  I know that I have wronged her in the past, but I tried to make amends to her; during my mother’s funeral, and she refused to acknowledge me as a person.

          Grace is not an excuse to live a sloppy life.  I have tried to make amends to all of my family members that I have wronged in my life.  My siblings and I really have not spoken face to face since my mother’s funeral.  I am in need of spiritual strength.  I am in need of all of my siblings to make amends with me.  I have forgiven each, and every person that have wronged me personally.  I will not live with a heart full of hatred.  Lead me not into temptation, but deliver me from all evil.  I am working with God to fix all of my problems.  Help me God to know who my friend is or not. 

          Finally, I want to let everyone know that my whole behavior and outlook on life has changed.  I do not sin whenever I get angry.  I will admit that I do not use vulgarity anymore.  I will admit that I still have character defects to deal with each day.  You cannot help how you feel, but you do not have to act on the behavior of our emotions.  I used to be a person who would use vulgarity as a defensive mechanism just to cover up my fears.  We cannot let our fleshly emotions dictate us behaviorally.  I have grown in Christ.  Jesus Christ has changed me behaviorally.  You do have a free will, and you have a choice.

Is It True That We Are Supposed To Test The Spirits?

By: Anthony Joseph Hopkins

        Praise The Lord Everyone!! I have a very important question to ask all of you.  What does it mean to test the spirits?  I understand that we are supposed to evaluate the things that people say and do.  I really understand that we are supposed to open up our eyes to see the salvation of the Lord.  I want to say Happy New Year to all of you.  I hope and pray that 2020 will be a very great year for all of you. 

I really love all of you very much.  I am praying for all of you.  I know that I am asking a lot of questions regarding Bible Verses because I would like to receive a complete summary of the Bible Verses that I read each day of the week.  I love all of you very much!!  I really need all of your prayers because I have been feeling very sick inside of my stomach lately.  This is simply because I have stomach ulcers.  I have not been under a lot of stress in any way.  I have a question to ask all of you.  How exactly do you test the Spirits?  Do you really analyze every statement inside of the Bible as well as the sermons that I hear each day? 

        Next, whosoever shall confess that Jesus is the Son of God, God dwelleth in him, and he in God.  I am reciting this Bible Verse because I want everyone to know that I have the Holy Spirit inside of me.  We have the Spirit inside of all of us.  Anyway, I want to ask another question.  What does Spiritual Discernment mean?  I know that the definition of the word Discernment means to distinguish the truth from error.  How are we supposed to test something that we do not know about?  All of this is new to me personally.  I have to really read the Bible, and ask God to talk to me.  I want to say that I have never heard God’s voice before in my entire life.  I am a Christian Man, who has never heard the Voice of The Lord.  I am 54 years old.  I read the Bible cover to cover, over and over again.  I want to admit that I hear voices that are not the Holy Spirit.  In spite of it all, I have managed to receive prayer from everyone that I know.

        Further, I want to inform everyone that I have been rebuking Satan for the past 10 years now.  I have been hearing voices of both males and females who have scammed me in the past.  I have been listening to Worship Music and Church Sermons on a daily basis.  I am doing my very best to override these troubling voices.  These voices have been using vulgarity every single day.  You know something, last night, I prayed to the Lord to ask Him to please guide me, and teach me how to be a better Christian Man.  How do you really test something that is very hard to understand?  I am seeking your help!!  I want to inform all of you that I hear voices; while I am sleeping.  I have been talking while sleeping as well.  I really need all of your prayers throughout this entire year because there are unknown spirits talking to me in my sleep.

        Finally, I want to ask someone to please teach me how to test the Spirits.  I really need help in this matter because I hear voices.  I am listening to a Church Sermon right now.  This is simply because I am trying to allow God to resolve this problem for me.  Please teach me how to test the Spirits.  This is because I am not living in sin.  It is that I am literally scared right now.  I need all of your prayers.  I need someone to teach me how to test the Spirits literally!!  I want to say that I need God’s help right now.  This is because I am really scared of these voices.  I have asked God to remove these voices for me.  I also will admit that I had a stroke back on November 8, 2008. 

The stroke itself had caused me to have numbness on my right side of my body for a few days.  On September 17, 2019: I have suffered from a Breakthrough Seizure while at Church.  I was not able to walk for 18 hours.  My left side of my body was numb during that time.  Perhaps, this is the reason why I am suffering from auditory hallucinations.  I really need all of your prayers because I hear voices on a daily basis.

 I know that I am devastated and fearful because I am dealing with things that I do not have any control.  I have a lot of faith in God.  It is that I have been tested for 10 years now.  2^nd Timothy 1:7 states that: For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of love, power, and of a sound mind.  Please help me to test the Spirits to determine whether they are from God. 

The King Saul Effect and how it relates to my Personal Life!

        I would like to start off by saying that the King Saul Effect has a whole lot to do with disobedience.  Frankly, I will admit that I am guilty of disobeying God’s word myself.  For example, I am solely responsible for looking at porn in the past.  However, I have been consulting with psychics and numerologists on a daily basis.

 The reason why I am expressing about this particular topic is simply because I have made a whole lot of mistakes throughout my personal life.  An example of my disobedience consists of having sexual relationships with harlots from 1986-2010.  Currently, I am no longer engaging in sexual intercourse with harlots. 

Let’s look at King Saul right now, he is responsible for disobeying God by not destroying Amalek.  Next, I want to say that the King Saul Effect applies to my personal life right now.  The reason why I am saying this is because I have been hearing voices for the past 9 years.  I suffer from schizophrenia right now.  I feel at this time that my spirit has been broken because of my disobedience and my mental illness.

Further, I want to inform everyone that this can happen to anyone anytime.  Right now, I have been rendered powerless because I am hearing voices that are not the Holy Spirit.  Moreover, I want to say that my physical and mental problem cannot be cured right now.  The voices have really changed my whole life.

In Conclusion, I also feel that God is punishing me for all of my wrong doings.  Even though I have been baptized on Sunday February 15, 2015; I feel that God is still mad at me for wasting my seed numerous of times within the past 39 years.  In Summary, the King Saul Effect applies to me personally because I have been disobedient all of my entire life.

Finally, I would like to say that I feel that my Holy Spirit has been removed from me.  I am losing my memory right now because I hear voices.  I will also admit that I have sent $16,977 dollars to people that I did not know.  I will admit that I am hearing voices because I have been behaving terribly during the past 21 years.  I also admit that have put people’s names on my report in vain.  I will admit to having numerous of pictures of women in my past.  I also have a chemical imbalance inside of my brain right now.  I feel that having a mental illness have made me a very strong person.  I have casted all of my burdens on the Lord.  Thank you for reading my essay.