Dear God, I pray that I will always be a pointer to you in every situation I find myself in. May this light that you have placed in me shine brightly and may it help more and more people come to you. In Jesus’ name, I pray. Amen.

Proverbs 15:1 says: A gentle answer turns away wrath; But a harsh word stirs up anger.  This is the truth about a gentle answer turns away wrath.  If you are always humble and gentle in your approach to other people, you are practicing a non violent approach to all people.  God will reward you if you are humble and meek with everyone.  But a harsh word stirs up anger.  It is a different way to talk to talk to everyone.  I am going to say this but an elderly person knows how to respect others without getting upset.  I have changed the way that I communicate with all people.  I have learned this from listening to Church sermons throughout the years.  I need to be kind and assertive. If I am this way, God will reward me in due time.

I remember when I used to be very angry at people all of the time. I was suppressing my angry feelings. I really was not shown the right way to speak with everyone, until I was around my grandparents because they showed me a better way to talk to other people without getting upset and aggressive. My grandmothers we’re open and kind towards other people. Whenever I was around my mother and stepfather, I learned aggression and anger. My stepfather was very aggressive and my mother was gentle and kind. I knew my friends were smoking marijuana and drinking alcohol. I guess at that time that is all that I have known to do was drinking beer and smoking marijuana

Matthew 15:18-20 says: But those things which proceed out of the mouth comes from the heart, and they defile a man.  For out of the heart proceed evil thoughts, murder, adulteries, fornications, thefts false witness, blasphemies.  These are the things which defile a man, but to eat with unwashed hands does not defile a man.  It really has a lot to do with what we are thinking about each day.  That is what it takes is a lot of negative thoughts that are inside of our minds.  Afterwards, I want to say that if those thoughts are inside of our hearts defiled a man, woman, and children.  You know something, nonverbal communication that we use each day is capable of defiling anyone including a beast of the field.  Some animals cannot be tamed by man.  This is the reason why the spirit of an animal goes down.  I want to change my way of thinking on a daily basis.  We are supposed to live like Jesus Christ died by sharing the Gospel of Peace with everyone.

Good Evening Everyone!!  My name is Anthony Joseph Hopkins and I am a 57 year old man, who has a very long way in my life.  I used to be an angry person growing up in Dayton, Ohio from 1972-1990.  I was mentally and emotionally abused as a child.  My stepfather tried to kill me on three occasions.  He put my head inside of a hot stove.  My hair and face was on fire.  I smelled like burnt hair for one week.  I was born on Thursday June 24, 1965 at 7:30pm.  This is the reason why I stayed up all night for days at a time.  I really didn’t use vulgarity until I was 9 years old.  I heard my parents using vulgarity on a daily basis.  My stepfather punched on everyone except my mother.  When I was 8 years old, I saw my mother shoot my stepfather with a gun.  He stayed in the hospital for six weeks.  This is because he lost a lot of blood in his own body.  I will admit that I held everything inside of me.

I am very guilty of stuffing all of my angry feelings because I was scared of men and women.  I guess I didn’t have enough courage in me.  For nine years, I used to get beaten up all of the time.  I used to fear other children at school because they were beating me up all of the time.  I was a very smart person in school.  The only class that I have a problem with is math.  I was a C average student.  I love History, English, and Political Science and Government.  I did well in Spelling and Military Science.  I was afraid to go home.  I remember sleeping inside of garbage cans because I was scared to go inside of my mother’s house.  My stepfather was a tyrant.  I remember on Sunday November 25, 1985, my stepfather stabbed me with a hook knife.  My stepfather tried to kill my brother because he lost his money in a dice game.  If I would not have put my arms up, my brother would have perished.  My brother called The police and I didn’t press charges against my stepfather because I told the police that he was too old to go to jail.  I forgave him.

I am a person who knows how to forgive other people.  I have come a very long way in my personal life.  I have been clean and sober for 32 years now.  Finally, I have been hearing voices for 13 years now. I hear women laughing at me.  This is the reason why I prefer Pastoral Counseling over psychotherapy.  A pastor can help me better than a therapist.  I have been defiled since birth.

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Is It True That We Should Not Oppress One Another?

        By: Anthony Joseph Hopkins

        Praise The Lord!! Praise The Lord Saints!!  How are you doing today?  Fine, I hope.  Happy New Year Jesus, and all of the Saints of the world.  Let me start things off by asking everyone a question.  Is it true that we should not oppress one another?  The answer to this question is yes.  The Lord will pray for you through all storms, trials, and tribulations.  What is the definition of the word oppress?

        The definition of the word oppress means to take advantage of: Or to gain an advantage over another financially, mentally, physically, or psychologically.  Another definition of the word oppress is keep (someone) in subservience and hardship, especially by the unjust exercise of authority. Causes (someone) to feel distressed, anxious, or uncomfortable. “He was oppressed by some secret worry”.  Oppression leads to depression and suppression.

Next, I want to say that oppression leads to jealousy and envy.  The word oppress means to gain an advantage, or an opportunity to do so.  The factors of being oppressed are as follows: For Example, one of the most important feelings of being oppressed is fear, trepidation, and apprehension that we have never been through before.  Another factor of being oppressed is a complete sense of embarrassment and shame.  It also leads to pain and sadness.  For Instance, I got taken advantage of by a 19 year old female that I met on Mocospace Websites.  I got scammed because I thought that the young lady was going to sell me some pictures of herself.  She advertised that she was selling 60 nude pictures for $15.00 dollars.  This same young lady is selling nude videos of herself for $20.00 dollars.

        Another Example is when I got scammed by a British National Female who wanted to marry me, but it was a scam.  This young lady scammed me for $1,550 dollars.  I got scammed yesterday January 3, 2020, while I was paying my bills online at the Dayton Metro Library.  Another thing is that I have downloaded 3 cash apps on my phone.  They are called Cashapp, PayPal, and another Cashapp.  I was downtown paying my bills online and suddenly, I received a phone call from my Bank stating that I have been scammed by a couple.  This is an unknown man and woman that I sent money to using Cashapps. 

        Further, one of the reasons why I have bought up this very important topic is simply because I got scammed for the first time in over two and a half years.  Yesterday, this young lady scammed me for only $30.00 dollars.  There are women who are selling themselves sexually on Mocospace, Facebook, and WhatsApp.  Therefore, this young lady lied to me and said that she did not get the money.  I am not at the liberty of mentioning her name because I do not want to accuse her without Just Cause.  Right now, I have a specific case because I am a victim of wire fraud.  Mocospace is a non- secure Social Networking Website.  Any person who use this website is using this website at their own risk.

        Moreover, anytime a woman who sells herself online for money is a harlot.  Anytime a female who sells her pictures and videos of herself being nude for personal financial gain is a prostitute.  This applies to men as well.  My main objective for being online is to spread the Gospel of Peace with everyone worldwide.  I am supposed to lead lost souls to Jesus Christ.  I have started a ministry to save people for themselves.  The internet is the devil’s playground because it consists of sexual images and lust.  These images are online, and these images are retained inside of the subconscious mind.  There are millions of people who have a platform to deceive many people.

        Also, I want to say that I got scammed out of $16,977 dollars by several people while online from March 8, 2008 to February 21, 2010.  I met these women on Black planet, Yahoo, and Hangout Websites. One of the reasons why I am not mentioning these individual’s names is because I got into trouble by my Bank again.  Currently, I am writing about my personal experiences because I do not want anyone else to get scammed like I did recently, and in the past.

        Finally, when it comes to the topic of being oppressed is a very sinking feeling.  Leviticus 19:11 says: You shall not steal, nor deal falsely, nor lie to another.  I am the type of person who has been lonely and without companionship for the past 12 years now.  This is because I got scammed and hurt by people that I did not know.  From henceforth, I am going to serve the Lord!! My household and I are going to serve the Lord.  My money belongs to God.  I am having an intimate relationship with Jesus Christ.  My mission from here on out; is to win people to Jesus Christ.  Even though I am hurting right now, but God is with me in Spirit and in Truth.  God Bless You All!!  May the Lord God be with your Spirit?  Thank You for reading my essay.

        In Conclusion, I want to say that not every woman is out there selling themselves sexually online.  Please let me set the record straight.  There are some very honest people out there who have common sense.  There are people who really want to do God’s Work!!  I am going to be very careful online for the rest of my entire life.  Before my mother died, she told me to my face that I should be married with children.  I am not able to have children because of an injury to my testes; that I have sustained while playing sports.  Please keep me in your prayers because I am mortally wounded because my lack of trust in women.  I have a desire to hear God’s Voice for the rest of my entire life.

1st Corinthians 6:18-20 says: Run from sexual sin!  No other sin so clearly affects the body as this one does.  For sexual immorality is a sin against your own body.  When I examine this topic, it has a whole lot to do with the way that we handle our own body.  Sexual immorality is anything that defiled the body.  However, sexual immorality is a sin against your own body. Some sins are clearly evident. Such as fornication, masterbation, and people who have an intense sexual desire for the opposite sex.  In Addition to what has been mentioned so far this is a sin that goes against one’s own body.  For a total of 18 consecutive years, I was dealing with female prostitutes and masterbation myself.  I have spent over a total of $100,000 dollars in 18 years of walking the streets of Dayton, Ohio Toledo, Ohio Detroit Michigan, and Charlotte, NC.  Frankly, I started buying sex at the age of 21 year’s old.  I remember when my birthday was on a Tuesday in 1986.  I was working at the YMCA in Downtown Dayton, Ohio.  I literally worked 2 jobs and I still was buying sex from females.  I started masterbation at the age of 14 because I was scared of women.  I remember when my parents used to take me to the bootleg joints in town.  I started drinking beer and coffee at the age of 7 years old.  My stepfather used to buy sex for me.  This was during the time when my mother was separated from her husband. I

I guess my stepfather had plans for me.  From age 21 to 45 years old, I was in the streets buying sex from female prostitutes.  I have not had sex in 
12 years now.  I do recall dealing with multiple women at one time.  I asked God to help me with all of my personal problems.  God has helped me when it came to alcohol and smoking marijuana and Crack Cocaine.  I have been clean and sober for 32 years now.  My clean date is Wednesday May 2, 1990.  I stopped drinking beer and smoking marijuana Crack altogether.  I went to treatment at the Salvation Army Adult Rehabilitation Center in Downtown Dayton, Ohio.  I started treatment on June 1, 1990-Friday September 1st 1990.  I was working at the King Cole Restaurant on Main Street and Second Street in Downtown Dayton Ohio . I also worked part time at Arby’s Restaurant on Ludlow Street and Second Street in Dayton Ohio.  I worked at Arby’s Restaurant for only three months.

I worked at the King Cole Restaurant for Two years and three months.  I went to Toledo, Ohio on Friday evening and 7:30pm catching the Greyhound Bus going to Toledo, Ohio.  I lived in Toledo, Ohio for almost 6 years.  I graduated from College two times at the University of Toledo.  I had a lot of work to do at the Library.  The University really challenge me and they changed me within five years.  All of my instructors were praying for me throughout my College Career.  I graduated from the University of Toledo with earning 235 College Education Credits.  I then relocated to Charlotte NC for 12 years.  My very first place that I lived at the Men’s Uptown Shelter for 8 months.  I had to walk everywhere I went to for 5 months.  Afterwards, I have moved inside of my first apartment in Charlotte NC.  It was called Charlottetown Terrace Apartments.  I got a job working at the US Census Bureau.  I worked that job for 8 months until the Census was completed. 

After that I got a job working at UPS located on North Graham Street in Charlotte NC.  I worked there until I got a job working at UNC-CHARLOTTE.  I worked at the J Murray Atkins Library on the Campus at the University of North Carolina at Charlotte.  I worked Two jobs in 8 years.  I worked at Circle K stores located on Plaza Road and W.T. Harris Boulevard.  I had to give up the high cost of low living.  As soon as I got home, I stayed in the hospital for a while because of seizures and I collapsed at Wright Plaza during the 4:10 pm line up.  It was on a Sunday when I had a seizure.  I stayed in the hospital for a few days.  I had to go back to the hospital for an attempted suicide.  It was because I got scammed by people that I really didn’t know.  I ended up getting fired from my job for looking at pornography on the computer at work.  I had crashed two computers at home and at work.  Therefore, my life has completely changed for the better.  I got baptized at Shiloh Baptist Church on February 21, 2010.  I also got baptized at Fort McKinley United Methodist Church on Sunday February 15, 2015.  It was very cold that day.  I continue to live in my apartment at Wentworth HiRise Apartments in the Northwest side of Dayton, Ohio.  I have not had sex since Saturday July 3, 2010.  I do not have any desire to have sex because I suffer from low testosterone. And low libido.

You have an amazing sense of curiosity

Well done!! You passed this basic common sense test!

You got all the answers correct which means you have an extremely healthy sense of curiosty. You are extremely observant and you love knowing what’s going on around you. Not only do you love to be aware of the things that affect you, but you also like to be informed about what is going on around the world. You thrive off of gaining new information and you believe there is always something new to learn!

Emotional Pain: How do you respond?

Think of a situation that has caused you a great deal of emotional pain. It could be from a situation created from your own choices and decisions, or the actions of someone else whom you had no control over. How did you respond?

• People generally respond to emotional pain by altering (changing) their thinking, feelings and acting in one of three ways.

Moving—Towards, Away, or Against

You can react in one of three ways, TOWARDS, AWAY, or AGAINST, and you react in these three ways with regard to YOURSELF, OTHER PEOPLE, and GOD (or your own understanding of spirituality).

Towards

When you hurt, and move towards the hurt, it is working through your problems in an attempt to solve them. It is reflecting on your problems yourself in an attempt to arrive at a solution. It is talking over your problems with another person or people and obtaining outside support, and it is letting go of your fears and pride and reaching out to the eternal, the spiritual or God (for those who believe in God).

Towards yourself is thinking about the situation, trying to figure out a solution, acknowledging that you hurt, and are unhappy.

Towards others is reaching out to someone else. It is also talking about your problems with a friend or someone else that you trust. It is sharing your pain and there by reducing it, modifying it and letting it go.

Moving towards God is praying that some how and in some way things will get better. It is finding that faith and hope from deep within that you will be ok, because you are worthy as a person and deserve to be loved and to have a good life. Being happy is not the absence of emotional pain in your life, it is learning to grow from it. Because I have hurt deeply in my life, I truly appreciate my life when it is really good.

Away

This is moving away from yourself – by drug use or trying to run away from or hide from your problems. You cannot run away from yourself – even someone who gets drunk or high eventually wakes up or comes down.

Moving away from others, is not dealing with the person or people who are causing you pain. It is allowing someone else to hurt you, and possibly hurt others. It is also moving away from your support system or people who can help you. Ultimately most substance users – end up alone, in their own little world, or feeling like no one can ever understand what you are going through. Sometimes people need to be confronted with the fact that their behavior is hurting other people. So, talking to those who have caused you pain – and telling them how you feel, can only be a good thing. You cannot guarantee how they will respond, but at least you are standing up for yourself.

Moving away from God, is hiding from your own spiritual nature. It is trying to hide from that place where your poetry flows, and you can find peace in your life. Reach out to the eternal – that which is greater than all of us, which we do not understand, but believe that “one day,” we will. 

Against

These are the things that you do to hurt yourself, other people or your relationship with God (your sense of spirituality). Such as: drug use, self-abuse, putting yourself down in your own thoughts, the taking on the lies that someone else might say and believing them. Reject the lies! Believe that you have worth, and that you life is special. Use all the crap that you have been through to turn around and help others. Moving against others, is doing or saying things to hurt others, like stealing, vandalism, etc. Moving against God, is just blaming God or other people for what is going on is your life. No one said life was fair, but that is no reason to feel sorry for yourself for the rest of your life. Do not let your problems hold you back from being the best you can be!

So how do you respond?

Once you have thought about how you tend to respond now… Have you always responded to painful situations in your life this way? Or has you strategy and ability to respond to painful situations changed?

Why is it unhealthy to block out (not deal with) your emotional pain?

The people who can mentally burry things and NOT have it bother them, are often called psychopaths. I worked with one teen boy for nine months, who brutally axe murdered both his parents. Fairly early on, I asked him how he could live with himself – knowing what he had done. With a smile on his face he said: “Simple, I just choose not to think about it.” Guess what I got him to do for the next nine months? Think about it!

If he was to ever rejoin society (even after 11 years. He is out now), he needed to feel remorse for what he had done. He needed to experience the emotional pain in a deep and personal way almost to the level that he had caused his parents (their death). He also needed to get in touch with the earliest pain in his life that drove him to act as he did – and work through that pain.

We are all capable of Helping and Harm

Finally, he needed to see himself as both a victim, and killer, and learn to forgive both himself and others. I believe that he left jail as a sincere born again Christian – dedicating the rest of his life to service work.

The two years I spent specializing in working with teen murders (over a dozen of them), was one of the toughest periods of my life. It was also one of the times where my own spiritual life was most challenged—yet was at its best.

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Who am I?

Who am I?  My name is Anthony Hopkins and I am originally from Dayton, Ohio.  Although this is my hometown, but I have to recite that I have lived here for a period of time.  I lived in the Charlotte, NC area for over 12 years.  Although I am only visiting here trying to resolve issues with my own family, but it appears that these issues will never get resolved.  It is time to move on!!!  It is time for me to get the hell out of this town and move somewhere where people appreciate me for the person that I am.  Anyway, back to the subject at hand, who am I?  I am an honest, truthful, peaceful, kind, respectful, nature loving, and I am concerned about family.  Family is very important to me, especially if you have one of your own.  In my own family of origin, there is a dysfunctional form of behavior that I have to give directly to God.  The so called friends as well as those women that I had been involved in relationships with, I have given all of this to God.  It is God and Jesus Christ that I am totally giving all of these issues to.  It is the Power of Prayer that changes things each day.  Prayer can directly change things for anyone who is willing to give all to God.  I am also intelligent, studious, giving, an animal lover, and one who believe that animals and nature heals people.  Just by spending time outside and allowing the rays of the sun to touch you each day, it has healing benefits.  The environment itself as well as the animals inside of it, has a great deal of benefits.  This is true because it is a whole lot better than relying on medication.  This in itself will heal you to the point that it will sooth your soul.  For those who refuse to understand me personally, nor take the time to fully understand me for the person that I am, it is your fault.  This means that you had an agenda that was already different than mine.  This means that you and I were never on a level playing field anyway.  This applies to anyone as well as those who are literally player haters.  This is the real truth!!!  I am the type of the person who will tell you directly to your face how I feel about you.  No matter whether you like it or not, it is your choice.  If another person’s opinion offends you, then I am really sorry.  I am going to keep it totally real!!!!  I am action minded and concerned about civil rights and liberties.  I am also all about diversity and equality for everyone.  I am also a person who is for women’s rights and the issues that they are concerned about.  This is the truth because if a man respects his parents, then he will respect his female spouse or significant other.  If a man is concerned about children as well as his own siblings, nieces, and nephews, then he is totally concerned about family.  I am very sorry that I have been underestimated as a person, but this is not my fault.  This means that others had been jealous, discontent, and emotionally suppressed themselves.  I am a person that will let everything out of my mouth.  I will tell you how I feel no matter whether others like it or not.  I have always been outspoken, opinionated, but not loquacious.  I am a person who enjoys religious services.  I am also a person who loves and respects culture.  I respect diversity to the utmost!!!  I enjoy reading, writing, using the computer, traveling, and spending time with the one’s that appreciates me fully.  If anyone has a problem with me, I will listen to you directly in your face.  I will also respect your opinion.  I do not like to argue!!!!  I will debate with you in a peaceful manner.  If a debate gets to out of hand, I will shake your hand, and tell you to have a nice day.  I just find that people have never taken the time out to listen to me anyway.  This is not my fault.

 This is the fault of the other person.  This means that you are bearing emotional baggage from your past and present that you are not dealing with in a constructive manner.  This applies to those who live inside of their own deceit.  If you are deceptive and enjoy telling lies all of the time, then I will pray for you, but I have to leave.  I cannot allow a person who has a corrupt way of living to disrupt my lifestyle and my way of living.  I am a private person.  I am also a person who does not take any mess from anyone.  This means that your life is completely disrupted with chaos and disasters.  Your chaos and disasters is something that I am trying to avoid right now.  I am a direct person who will go directly to the source as well as the horse’s mouth to deal with the problem.  Therefore, it is time to keep it real because I am going to tell you how I truly feel.  If women have a problem dealing with someone like me who is direct and straight to the point, then please stay your corrupt self away from me.  I am keeping it real!!!  This is who I am as a real person.  This applies to both men and women who have a tendency to player hate and live inside of the past.  I cannot live your life and mine simultaneously.  Stay true to yourself and learn how to remove your head out of you, body and smell reality!!!!  I am also a very bold person.

Sincerely,

Anthony Hopkins
 

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Is It True That We Cannot Be Wise In Your Own Opinions?

By: Anthony Joseph Hopkins

                       Praise The Lord Everyone!! How are all of you doing today?  Fine, I hope.  I want to inform everyone that I have a very important question to ask all of you.  Is it true that we cannot be wise in our own opinions?  This is a very good question because it makes me think about my life itself.  God is good!! All the Time; God is Good!!  I want to tell everyone that we are supposed to be not wise in our own conceit.  What is the definition of the word conceit? 

The definition of the word conceit is excessive pride in oneself.  Expression in writing or speech; an elaborate metaphor.  The word conceit has a whole lot to do with our sense of pride in ourselves.  To be perfectly honest with you, this is the reason why I have to watch my tone of voice that I use towards others.

Next, I want to inform everyone that I have changed my behavior because I know that know that God is watching me every single day of the week.  I know that I have to continue to seek the Lord at all times.  I realize that this year 2019 has been good to me.  Even though, there were a lot of things that have occurred inside of my community, I want to say that God has been with me. 

Finally, I want to inform everyone that I am very content with myself right now.  I am being very careful when it comes to expressing myself to others.  I know that I am still a Work in Progress.  It is that I have to be more humble in speech and in my behavior.  What is the definition of the word humble?  The definition of the word humble is having a having or showing a modest or low estimate of one’s own importance.  This means that I am submitting to a higher authority.  The higher authority that I am referring to is Jesus Christ.  Proverbs 11:12; when pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with the humble is wisdom.  1 Peter 5:5; Likewise, you who are younger, be subject to the elders. Clothe yourselves, all of you, with humility toward one another, for God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble.