Today is a holiday and I am at home feeling discouraged and depressed. This is the fifth time this year that I didn’t spend the holiday with my family. I know that I have to sharpen up my academic skills right now. I know that I have been prescribed too much medication for years now. I am beginning to lose my memory and I am experiencing brain fog. Next, I have to rely on God as my source. All 33 medications have taken its toll on me. My family members and friends are spending time with each other right now. Whereas for me, I am at home pondering my plans for the next day. I know that some of the residents have left the building and are spending time with their own family members and friends. Further, I went to the store to make a purchase this evening. The prices at the Grocery Store were extremely high. Frankly, I usually shop at Walmart. The prices at Walmart are reasonable for me. I am really thankful just to be here on Planet Earth. If the Lord’s Will, I will go to Bible Study at my church tomorrow evening. It seems like I have been Court ordered to take medicine for absolutely nothing. I know that I have been suffering from Schizoid Affective Disorder for 27 years now. I am very sorry for writing this essay, but I have to tell the truth. Moreover, I know that I have spent most of my time at the Library throughout the year; I have to really give God more of my time. I know that my family members have been working very hard just to take care of their own families. I know that I have been going to the hospital entirely too much. My family members and friends have been right in their own personal assessments about me.In Addition, I have to start praying every single day. I am always praying in silent because there are water leaks inside of the apartment right now. The Property Manager indicated that it was all in my mind. Therefore I consider his assessment of my situation as a complete insult. Although I do not have any recent towards him personally, but I should move out of here by the end of this year from Wentworth HI Rise Apartments. I have been here for a total of 13 years now. Finally, I have been silent while I am inside of my apartment for a change. It will improve my state of mind. At least, I know that God is doing for me more than I am doing for myself. It appears to me that I have some form of negativity that has engulfed me personally. Anytime that you are hearing things that you have never heard before: It will affect you in some sort of way.In Conclusion, I really feel exonerated by God Himself. Even though, mankind has a negative connotation about me. At least, a very small percentage of people tend to act like Satan has bombarded their minds completely. I will admit that I used to react to negative stimuli. Just like my Therapist told me to more than several times not to give this negative stimuli the glory, power, and victory over me. I know that we are going through our own trials and tribulations in our personal lives. God Loves Me and He is protecting me. My emotional status has changed from negative to positive because God is merciful and gracious. God is watching all of us, and He is taking notes every single day regarding our overall behavior. Negative influences are a thing of the past for me. Thank you for reading my essay concerning my personal feelings about today. God and Jesus Christ as well as myself are with me each day. For as long as I live, I have Him and my Earthly Angel’s to thank each day.
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