The first thing that I think about is my personal relationship with God.   I am saying this because I am very concerned about my overall behavior at the age that I am.  I have made a whole lot of mistakes in my life right now.   I have been clean and sober for 33 years now.  My AA Birthday is coming up in two weeks from now.   The first thing that comes directly to my mind is one question.  Lord Jesus, am I worthy to be a member of your Kingdom?  Lord Jesus, please teach me how to behave like a real Christian Man.   I know that I have a lot of sin and iniquity that is hidden inside of my heart.   Lord Jesus, I am very sorry for being a backbiter and a liar in front of your eyes.  The second thing that I am thinking about is my family members and friends.   I do not want to be a blasphemous person.  My life at this time consists of my physical and mental sluggishness that is going on right now with me.  Mankind itself has mixed emotions and comments about me personally.   On Thursday May 2, 2024: If the Lord’s Will, I will be clean and sober for 34 years.   My stomach has been messed up for almost 30 years now.  Lord Jesus: I am asking you one thing.  Lord Jesus, please teach me how to appreciate your Creation.  Lord Jesus, I can only change my behavior with your help.  Lord Jesus you are in charge of my life and actions right now.  Lord Jesus, please give me wisdom, knowledge, and understanding that I need to officially become a child of God.   Please monitor all of my steps physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually for me because I am living inside of an environment that is not conducive towards my personal needs.  Lord Jesus, please allow me to attend church on a regular basis.  Please allow me to remain clean and sober for years to come.   Thank you Lord Jesus for reading my essay this morning.  Thank you for making me aware of my surroundings.  Finally; I really thank you for your Holy Spirit that bears with my spirit.  Lord Jesus, please pray for all of the people who are currently living inside of Wentworth HI Rise Apartments located in Dayton, Ohio.  Amen  🙏 🙏 🙏