What is Drug Abuse?

Drug abuse is something that is done in excess due to issues that affect people personally.   When I think of Drug abuse,  I have to look and closely examine my overall behavior inside of the community.  I remember when I was hanging around my Drug smoking peers and friends, I had smoked marijuana and drink beer on a daily basis for a total of 18 years.  I am only addressing the issues that affected my behavior.  I really love being around my family members and friends because they help me to cope with my mental illness related issues.

Next, I have to learn how to accept constructive criticism from people who are trying to help me.  During the time that I was drinking and smoking marijuana,  I was under a lot of pressure that I was putting on myself.   I will admit that I am co-dependent.  I also will admit that I had been going to the hospital just to get treated for my mental health issues and dependency on prescription drugs.  This is very serious because I had been addicted to the drug called Ativan.

I no longer take Ativan because I had became accustomed to the medication, and I had been prescribed this medication because it have made me sleep excessively for a number of years now.   In a way, I am happy that I do not take this medication.  My doctor, therapist, and friends have observed my demise.  My family members were saying that I was just like them.  This is the reason why I have to physically go back to my AA Meetings on a daily basis. I am in contact with my AA Sponsor on a daily basis. 

Finally, I want to say that I have to resolve this issue because these doctors do not care about me.   I  know that once an addict; is always an addict!  Currently,  I am praying for other people as well as myself.   Some people use their own medicine as a crutch.  This is the truth because I was sleeping for a large number of hours per week. I became physically and mentally numb!  I also have Diabetes and Degenerative Bone Disease. The Pain Management Doctors told me to my face that I have this disease.  I had received a MRI of my entire vertebrae.   I had told everyone that I have twisted my spine in two places back in the year of 1995.  This is because I was carrying a lot of books and supplies to school each day for 5 years. 

I am grateful that God is actually helping me each day and night.  I have a problem and my name is Anthony H!