Good Morning Everyone 🙏  How are you doing today?  I hope that you are doing well!  Anyway, drug addiction has affected my life in a number of ways.  First, I want to say that drug abuse has really messed me up for the rest of my life.   I was really born addicted because my parents were alcoholics.  I had Fetal Alcohol Syndrome because my grandparents told me.  My mother early on was going through an issue that affected her because she was not able to take care me when I was born.  Therefore, my oldest grandmother took care of me for the first seven years of my life.

Second, I was introduced to my siblings because I have a different father from my siblings.  My grandparents told me as a child that I have a different father.  I always wanted to meet my biological father on my own.  When I was a child, I was abused by my  mother’s husband for a few years.  My mother changed my last name because she wanted me to assimilate with a growing family.  My mother had taken me through a lot of changes.  Although I have loved my mother, but she was addicted to alcohol for a number of years.   My siblings and I went through the same abuse as children.  My mother’s husband had went through the same issues. 

Third, I had started drinking alcohol at an early age.  I used to go to houses and other places where alcohol was served to the people who have requested it.  I was hurt physically and emotionally by my mother’s husband for a total of nine years.   As a teenager,  I  was a follower more than a leader because I wanted to be accepted by everyone that I had known personally.   I want to inform everyone that we are narrators of our own lives.

Also, I had been spending a lot of time with my siblings and extended family members because my mother’s husband was abusive towards me and my siblings.  When I comes to addiction, I had become the Captain of my own ship.  Therefore my recovery is my own responsibility.  I have managed my addiction related issues by staying with my extended family members house.  Even though, I was sheltered for a period of time.  I was not able to avoid drug problems because my elders were alcoholics.

Finally, I really understand all of my family members because we have one thing in common.  It is that we had accepted each other for the persons that they were.  I want to inform all of you that I really love all of my family members as human beings.  I know that I had isolated myself from other people for a period of time.  I was able to conquer my own addiction related issues by being accountable for all of my actions and sins.  Accountability is all of our responsibility because we are human beings and we are prone to make mistakes in our personal lives.  We were born in sin!  This is because Adam, the first man and Eve his wife had committed sin by eating from the forbidden fruit that was inside of the Garden of Eden.  My addiction had lasted for a period of time.  It is that I had acquired another addiction to replace the addiction to drugs and alcohol.

I am getting the impression that another person is using all of my personal email addresses and other social media networks as well.  I am saying this because someone from another country was using my accounts as well.  Therefore, I have made direct amends to everyone that I have offended in any way.  I will admit that I had been going to the hospital just to address my mental health issues and problems for a number of years now.  Although it does not shield me from all of my sins and problems.  I rely on Jesus Christ, who is my personal Savior, God, and Friend.  I want to inform all of you that I have all of my AA Meetings online right now because I have physical and mental problems that still plague me to this day.

In Conclusion, I am only doing my required homework just to address all of my issues in my life right now.   I have been Court ordered to the AA Fellowship as well as my therapy appointments.  I also see the Psychiatrist on a regular basis.  I am responsible for all of my sins and actions.  Mankind can become a benefit or a Stumbling Block itself.  God is doing for me more than I am doing for myself!