Good Evening Everyone 🙏 I would like to admit to my role as it relates to this topic.   I would like to inform all of you that I have been behaving like a newcomer in the AA/NA Fellowship.   I want to share that I have been going to the doctor or hospital just to get all of my active issues resolved.   I have been prescribed over 30 pills per day to treat several physical and mental health problems.

Next,  I have been taking medication just to heal from my physical pain.   I know that I have to be very careful about the things that I am doing at the moment.   For Instance,  I have been going to the doctor each month for the past 9 years now.   I am in direct communication with my AA Sponsor each day for the past 9 years.   I will admit that I have been talking with my fellow AA members about my concerns.   I am apologizing to Jesus Christ for all of my actions and behaviors.   I am very sorry for taking on too much responsibility for other people.  

Further,  I have been putting pressure on myself or excessive demands as well.   Therefore, I have been suffering from Schizoid Affective Disorder and Alzheimers as well.  I have been suffering from these problems for years now.   I am a very transparent person.   I can verify all of my problems by conferring with my doctors.   I know that I do not have to justify myself to man.  I am responsible for my recovery in the AA Fellowship.   I can see why my family members do not talk to me anymore.

Finally, I am responsible for neglecting myself,  but I do pay all of my bills each month for the past 13 years now.  There was a period of time that I have allowed other people to take advantaged of me.  I have connected with people whom I had to forgive each person for hurting me.   I love all of you and God Bless You.   I am still a Work in Progress!  I am tapering myself off of half of my medications.  I would like for all of you to please keep me in your prayers and thoughts.   Although I have not taken a drink in years now.  I have not smoked marijuana in 34 years now.   Thank you for reading my essay on What is Codependency!