Peace I leave with you, My peace I gives to you; not as the world gives do I give to you ; Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.  This means that Jesus Christ is responsible for giving us true peace and not as the world gives to you.  Let not your hearts be troubled.  This means that we should not worry and become stressful over needful things.  I know that for me Jesus Christ is responsible for giving me the right peace that I am talking about.  I will admit that I used to cry out and be stressful over small things and not of matters of the heart.  

Next, I used to be a person who would demand things from other people.  What really changed my overall behavior tremendously is that I got into a car accident with my best male friend in Dayton, Ohio on the Corner of East Third Street and Keowee back on April 9, 1984.  I was going on 19 years old during that time.  I will also admit that I was intoxicated due to drinking alcohol and smoking marijuana two hours earlier that day. I was rushed to Miami Valley Hospital for 72 hours of observation.  Three months later, I had  broken my left hand playing basketball intoxicated due to drinking alcohol and smoking marijuana earlier that day.  I had hand surgery on my entire left hand.  I remember when I was playing basketball with some friends and suddenly I got faked out by one of my friends on the basketball court at Edison Elementary School in Dayton, Ohio.  I was not able to play basketball for almost two years.  I had to go through Physical and Occupational Therapy for two years.  Afterwards, I started having seizures in public.  I have had seizures more than several times during a three year period.

Further, whenever I think of this Bible verse, it reminds me of Jesus Christ walking on the water, and the Disciples thought He was a ghost.  Jesus Christ said to them be of good cheer, it is I do not be afraid.  That is in Matthew 14:27.  This is the truth about the disciples on the boat and Peter asked Him can he walk on the water with Him, He said Come! This reminded me of all of my fair weather friends who used to use and abuse me in the process.  It has taken me a long time, but I forgave everyone who had used me and abused me physically and mentally.

Moreover, I consider myself a very good person for forgiving all of my accusers.  There are people who are still angry with me over their foolish deeds that were done by them to me.  I am very happy that God has spared my life right now.  I am very happy for being among the living right now.  My life up to this point is based on my ups and downs behaviorally for the past 28 years now.  Although I was seeking help for my behavior issues.  I have been through a lot of adversity during the past 14 years now.

Finally, I am better right now.  I do not argue with anyone else anymore.  I pray and read the Bible every day of the week.  I have to admit that I am suffering from Alzheimer’s and Schizophrenia right now.  I also suffer from Type 2 Diabetes Full Blown.  I have a lot of pills to take each day of the week for a long number of ailments physically and mentally.  The Lord God has been right by my side.  I am losing my memory right now.  I love all of you for your friendship, prayers, and support.  I am trying to complete my fourth book.  Authorhouse Publications in Bloomington Indiana is my Publishers.  Thank you for keeping me and my family members in your prayers and thoughts.  Lord Jesus, please teach me how to cope with my mental illness called Schizoid Affective Disorder and Schizophrenia.  Thank all of you understanding my situation and praying for me and my family members.  Thank you for reading my essay.