Today is my Uncle Johnnie Funeral.  I did not attend the funeral because the funeral was out of state.  I didn’t have any money so I decided to stay home.  My Uncle Johnnie and I really did not get along with each other.  I am very happy that Uncle Johnnie lived 80 years on earth.  I guess when you do not get along, it is best for me to avoid trouble by staying away from everyone right now.

Next, I didn’t feel like arguing with anyone over our family issues.  When I looked at Uncle Johnnie picture people think that I looked exactly like him.  I would rather keep this to myself.  My father and I didn’t know each other anyway.  Frankly, I am a Biracial child.    I just recently found out that my father was a Caucasian male.  It has taken me 58 years to find this out.  I am not able to show my Uncle Johnnie picture because it would upset the entire family.

Further, I want to inform all of you that my Grandfather did not want to respect my grandmother because she told the truth about him.  I actually thought and believed that another man was my father.  The person whom I thought was my father told me that he was not my father.  You see something, that has been the story of my entire life.  My 58 years has been filled with ups and downs behaviorally.  Perhaps, I was thinking in advance because I didn’t want to trouble anyone else with my problems that are inside of my apartment building.  The apartment building is infested with bedbugs and other insects.  There are even bats inside of the building.  I have presented pictures of the entire building last year.

In Addition, I want to inform all of you that I have children of my own.  However, my children know all about me.  It is that I was making a lot of mistakes in my personal life.  My own family members do not know that I have children.  I have to go out of state just to resolve this matter.  My Chinese Zodiac sign is the Snake.  You see, snake children are highly intelligent and gifted academically.  I know exactly where my children are located right now.  My grandparents told me in my face that I was wise before my time.  My grandparents raised me as one of their own children.

Moreover, I want to say that I made children that I did not raise on my own.  I will admit that I was a sperm donor that is the term that these Millennium Children today use as a means of disrespect.  I supposed that if you are a product of infidelity, your life tend to change either for the better or negatively.  I was not at my Uncle Johnnie Funeral, but my presence is felt everywhere.  I even have relatives that look exactly like me.  I guess whenever a child grows up without a father it has a real impact on their own lives.  Uncle Johnnie is going to be missed forever by me.

Finally, I did not resolve anything with him.  My Uncle Johnnie told me in my face that I was nothing to him.  He also told me that I was not going to be successful in life.  It really hurts a child when they hear sarcasm coming from the mouth of their own relatives.  My Uncle Johnnie was good to his own children.  Anytime there is infidelity inside of the family, it affects everyone else in the family.  My relatives do not accept each other.  I cannot share something that I do not have.  Anytime that there are issues in the family, it hurts everyone.

In Conclusion, I am a very honest and truthful person.  I am very sorry that I didn’t have a personal relationship with my Uncle Johnnie.  I remember when I was mailing invitations to my college graduation and I mailed him an invitation but I didn’t see him in 1993 or 1995 when I graduated from the University of Toledo.  I cannot dwell on the past, I have to live in the here and now.  Whatever is in front of me, I will address it.  I cannot reflect on the former things nor of the things of old.  This is a Bible verse from Isaiah.  I have to listen to Jesus Christ because He has all of the answers to all of our questions.  God Bless All of You 🙏🙏🙏