Good Day Everyone!!  I want to inform all of you that my heart is hurting right now.  You see, I have relatives who I have not seen in over 40 years.  My West Coast relatives waited 40 years to attend our family members funeral.  I guess these people are picking and choosing where to go and who to see.  My Grandfather’s relatives are very funny.  I do not have a relationship with people who I do not know.  This is a shame!  Frankly, I would prefer to have a selected group of people attending my own funeral.  Honestly, what do I look like going somewhere that I have never been before.

Next, I want to say that this is not very easy to talk about.  I want to inform all of you that my relatives who live West of the Mississippi River, I’m very angry because these are the same people who are my Grandfather’s relatives.  I really did not know that my Grandfather had children by other women.  You see, I have lost respect for my own family members right now.  They are in the same situation as myself.  Fatherless is the term that I can use to describe my personal situation.  Lord Jesus, You knows what is inside of my heart right now.

Further, I would like to apologize for maintaining bad behavior again.  My Uncle Johnnie was raised in Dayton, Ohio.  Sometimes we make decisions based on our emotion’s and desires.  I really felt that his funeral should have been in Dayton, Ohio.  You see something, my Uncle Johnnie Lee Hopkins wanted to impress his relatives who live in the West Coast.  I am very frank in saying that our family members should have taken control over Uncle Johnnie Lee Hopkins Funeral Arrangements.  This is very sad to me that people who I do not know are handling my Uncle Johnnie Funeral.  It hurts me because I will never see him again.  I have a lot of emotions that are inside of me.  Uncle Johnnie Lee Hopkins did things to impress other people who are not in his own family.

Moreover, I want to say that my Uncle Johnnie Lee Hopkins and I did not speak to each other in a kind manner.  This is something that I should have resolved with my Uncle Johnnie in advance.  You see, it hurts me because I am carrying a lot of anger with me.  My own family members do not understand me personally.  I am furious because Uncle Johnnie should have resolved his beef that he had with me personally.  My own family members do not know how to resolve things like this before death comes.  I have other relatives and children who I have not seen in over 30 years now. My own children give me more respect than my own family members.  This is the truth because my children are different than my nieces and nephews.  My children lives in Toledo, Ohio right now.  My Uncle Johnnie Lee Hopkins r I did not speak to each other anymore.  I am very sorry to see him go like this.

Your mouth speaks what is inside of your heart.  This is the truth because I have resentments towards my own family members.  We are not really related to each other.   If I were there in Chicago, Illinois I would be angry at everyone at the funeral.  Uncle Johnnie Lee Hopkins and I will meet again in Judgement Day.  This will not be easy to deal with.  Uncle Johnnie Lee Hopkins died with secrets just like Mom.  I didn’t know that my father was Caucasian male.  This is the truth.  It hurts me to mention something like this.  I guess I was a bastard child. It is better to tell the truth than a lie.  Please keep me and my family members in your prayers and thoughts because I have Life decisions that I must make for myself.  The hospital wants me to fill out paperwork for Power of Attorney.  I refuse to fill out paperwork of that magnitude.  Lord Jesus Christ please listen to me.  I might be angry right now, but I am very content with myself and others family members.  Please resolve my discrepancy that I have with certain people who are in my personal life right now.  These are the same people who bring up the past.  Whatever happens in the past, it is dead and stinking to me.  Remember not the former things nor mention the things of old.  This is because you cannot take it with you when you die.