On Wednesday January 10, 2024; I went to see the Urologist at 7:00am at Miami Valley South Hospital in Centerville Ohio.  My urine test results were normal.  My PSA levels were 1.38 and my testosterone levels dropped 74 points to 229 this year.  My doctor told me that my testosterone levels last year were 303.  The Urologist told me that I was not eligible for Hormone Replacement Therapy anymore.  This is because the hormone medicine makes me manic in my overall behavior.  Dr. Vandegrift told me that I will be in trouble right now.  I am not eligible for Progestin which is a male and female hormone mixture.  Right Now, I feel very tired physically, mentally, psychologically, and emotionally drained.  

Next, I have been feeling sluggish and tired physically and mentally.  I am losing my memory as well as muscle mass and strength.  I weigh 292 pounds right now.  I have lost four pounds in two days now.  I will admit that some of these symptoms mimic diabetes.  This is because I have been suffering from Diabetes right now for eight years.  This is not very easy to deal with.  I am a 58 year old man who has a lot of common sense.  My Blood Sugar has been normal at this time.  

Further, I have been gaining weight during the past eight years now.  I have too much fat around my mid section of my body.  My moods have been mixed as of late.  I do have a lot of physical weaknesses in my body right now.  I have been suffering hair loss during the past 14 years now.  My sex drive is nothing now.  I am in poor health.   I have been clean and sober for 33 years now.  Due to my past, it is now 24 years Sobriety.  I feel emotionally drained.  There are times when I experience brain shrinkage and fog right now.  Perhaps, this is the reason why I am experiencing memory lapses and loss of memory.  I tend to lose concentration and focus at certain times of the year.  I have not had sex since Friday July 2, 2010 at 10:00am.  I have not had any sex since then.

Moreover, I have been feeling guilty of myself for spending money on things that I do not need.  I am losing my teeth right now.  I have been feeling tired each day of the week.  Every time I take my vitamins, they do not work for me anymore.  My energy comes in spurts.  I can complete a simple tasks and I feel exhausted. My mother told me before she died that I was losing memory and energy as well.  My eyesight is very weak right now.  My overall life and behavior is very slow tremendously because I have too many physical and mental ailments.

Finally, I am not accepted by my family members and friends because I do not have any energy and money to support myself.  I do have a real low blood count right now.  I am consulting with a Gerontologist on a regular basis.  I am trying very hard to lose weight and gain employment at a place of my choice.  I know that I am very old now.  Women do not talk to me because I have too much grey hair on my head.  I thought an average person consults with a Gerontologist at the age of 65.  I want to inform all of you that my bones hurt very bad.  Please keep me and my family members in your prayers because our own Uncle died last month.

In Conclusion, I want to inform all of you that my personal Journey has been hindered by a stumbling block.  There are people who have intentions of putting a stumbling block in my life right now.  There are people who have been using my accounts simultaneously with me.  Both of my Phones are cloned, copied, pasted, and illegally transferred to a phone number that I am not familiar with.  My personal accounts have been compromised by Organized Criminals Worldwide right now.  I do not have any energy to complete my daily tasks.  My whole body hurts me on a daily basis.  Therefore, my manhood has been depleted and threatened by people who do not know me. My sense of vitality is depleted.  Thank you for reading my essay and keeping me in your prayers and thoughts.  God Loves You and So Do I.