Proverbs 23:20 says: Be not winebibbers, among riotous eaters of flesh.  First of All, I want to say that I have been clean and sober for 32 years now.  I used to drink Wild Irish Rose Wine and Night train wine for a total of 18 years.  I really didn’t know that the Bible says that we cannot be among riotous eaters of flesh.  I know that we are not supposed to be gluttonous.  I will admit that I weigh 306 pounds right now.  I have been eating more at night than during the day.  At night, I have been hearing voices for a total of 13 years now.  The voices that I hear are females laughing at me all night long.  There are times when I hear voices of men.  I guess that Valentine Day coming up next month.  This is the reason why I hear voices during this time of year.  I want everyone to please pray for me and my family members.  I love all of my family members very much.  I love them; more than they love me.

Next, I want to say that I have changed my lifestyle and the way that I eat food.  I have been skinny all of my life until the year 2000.  I weigh 301 pounds and I was taking a medication called Depakote.  I took that medicine for seizures and Schizophrenia.  I know that I have gained 85 pounds in one year.  I remember weighing 215 pounds when I first started taking this medication.  I lost a total of 110 pounds by swimming and eating more vegetables and fruit.  I had to consult with a psychiatrist on a monthly basis.  I also have to change my way of thinking.  This is because I wasn’t thinking clearly during the past 23 years.  My attitude about life changed for the better right now.  I have low Testosterone Levels right now.  This is the reason why I cannot lose weight like I want to.  My testosterone levels are 303 and that is considered as very low testosterone.  I really need a lot of support and prayers because I need to lose 158 pounds right now.  I have to eat more vegetables and take a laxative on a regular basis.  I need to go swimming at least three times per week.  Swimming is an excellent exercise for the human body.  I have to start moving like my former supervisor told me to do each day.  Even though I used to eat a lot of pizza and I didn’t care about myself.  If I can stop drinking beer and alcohol.  Then, I know that I can do all things through Christ Who Strengthens me.

Finally, I want to say that I have a lot to do within the next few months.  I have to give myself away.  I am ready to serve God.  I am ready to carry the Cross for Jesus Christ.  I am ready to help other people and to be willing and honest with myself and with God.  I have to allow the Holy Spirit to direct me and guide me for the rest of my life.  Thank you Lord for saving me and blessing me with my breath of life.  I need to get back to my normal weight.  Please help me everyone!!  I need all of you to help me.