Proverbs 1:24 says: Because I have called and you refused; I have stretched out my hand and no man regarded.  What this is saying that God has called; meaning that He has requested for us to fulfill His Divine obligation, due to our own reluctance, God remains available for everyone.  I recall being called by God to serve Him at an early age.  It is that I was very busy with other obligations that has messed me up.  I want to inform all of you that I was attending church with my relatives on a weekly basis.  It turned out that I had spent a great deal of time in the streets of Dayton, Ohio.  As a child, I had started drinking alcohol and smoking marijuana with my friends.

However, I was a very curious child   I guess I wanted to be a follower rather than a leader for my family and friends.  God had offered Hands to me, but I have made a choice to choose the world.  God has always been there for me to pick me up off of the ground.  I know that I am not perfect.  I guess I was not ready to serve Him like I was supposed to.  I know that I had waited until I was a grown man just to accept His Glorious Hands.  I also have tried to assist others who were in my in a different capacity.

Next, I want to say that I had to literally humble myself for Him.  I will admit that I have spent an excessive amount of time in the world.  I know that I became a member of the Boy Scouts at the age of 11.  It was an opportunity for me to learn a new form of discipline.  I had also gained structure in my life.  I also had connected with a group of other boys just to gain friendships.

Moreover, I was available for God serving Him in a form of public service.  Literally, I had to change my overall behavior.  I want to say that God has never refused me.  I am the one who had refused Him.  I have made some bad choices in my life.  I have learned how to give God more of my time and money.  I also will admit that I played basketball at an early age at the YMCA in their YBA Program.  I remember playing basketball on Saturday during the morning hours.  I played basketball in elementary school, but I sat on the bench.  I had scored two points in my career.  I knew that God was watching me.  I made myself available for a short time early on.

Finally, I want to inform everyone that I have made a decision to choose Him in my personal life.  I know that I have a mental illness called Schizoid Affective Disorder and Schizophrenia.  I was diagnosed as a 32 year old man living in Charlotte, NC.  I am very happy to accept Him in my life.  I read His Word each day particularly at night when I am more active.  Service Work is very important to me.  Although I had not served in any capacity over the past few years.  I have finally accepted His call to serve Him.  My life up to this point has been filled with ups and downs behaviorally.  I am very happy to be available for Him.  I really mean it this time around.

In Conclusion, I am very happy to become clean and sober for 23 years officially.  I will admit that taking a sip of wine had lead me to a relapse in my recovery.  I had only tasted wine itself.  God had always offered His Hands to pick me up off of the ground.  Thank You Lord Jesus for being my personal Savior.  I love you and accept you for who you are.  I no longer refused your hands to always pick me up.