Proverbs 6:19 says: One who sows discord among the brethren.  What this means that people who enjoys stirring up gossip and violence, God has to deal with this person accordingly.  This is also an abomination to the Lord.  As I recall, my mouth used to get me beaten up by my fair weather friends.  I am saying that I gotten myself into a lot of trouble.  My grandparents used to quote scripture from the book of Proverbs.  They used to constantly tell me that he who keeps his mouth and tongue shall save his soul from troubles.

Next, I have learned a valuable lesson in life by staying quiet whenever it is necessary.  I guess, my grandparents and Elders were keeping me out of trouble.  I always learned how to take a walk during times of trouble.  In the 21st Century, people are solving their own personal problems with violence.  I understand this because I used to carry a gun with me during a certain period of time.  My grandparents admonished me because I was living in the streets, pretending to be a gangster.  I also protected my nieces and nephews when they were young.  I tried to become a positive role model for all of my family members and friends.  Instead, I was an alcoholic and addict for 18 years of my life.  I will admit that peer pressure became Paramount in my life.

Further, I really didn’t know how to really defend myself very well.  Therefore, I carried weapons of all types just to protect myself.  Lord Jesus, You really knows all of our hearts
Even if we bear iniquity and sin in our hearts, you will not hear me or anyone else who have this problem.  Some would say that we are wearing a mask each day of our lives.  This is true because I felt angry and indignant.  I have felt this way for a very long time.  I was only concealing my true feelings from my family members and friends.  I will admit that I am a passive aggressive person.  I only acted out due to fear that was inside of my heart.  It appears to me that I was depressed all along.  Medication cannot cure a broken spirit.  Only God can heal you from the inside out.

In Addition, I have learned a lot from the past 14 years now.  I thought that my Holy Spirit was a woman.  Right Now, it is a Spirit that is inside of the body of believers of Jesus Christ.  God wants us to dwell inside of His Kingdom.  I really understand that the Holy Spirit is real.  I do not want to become an abomination to the Lord Jesus.  Lord Jesus, Thank You for keeping it real with me.

Finally, I would rather keep quiet and allow God’s Presence to enter inside of me.  If I have sown any form of discord towards the brethren, I am very sorry for doing this to anyone.  I ask you Lord Jesus to help me along the way. I am very sorry for all of my sins both past and present.  Lord Jesus, thank you for keeping me clean and sober since Wednesday May 2, 1990.  I know that I am not perfect but I thank you for being with me alongside with me in my journey called life.  My feet had almost stumbled, I thank you Lord Jesus for picking me up off the ground.  Thank you Lord Jesus for being my Savior and friend.