This is the very last prayer that King David said to his son Solomon.  David knew that he was transitioning from life to death.  God has prepared David in advance.  Frankly, I have the same thing that my grandparents had and this is Alzheimer’s.  I know that I have this dreaded disease because I am really losing my memory.  I am suffering from Diabetes Full Blown Type 2 and Schizoid Affective Disorder.  I am taking 38 pills per day just to stay alive. This is not a laughing matter.

Next, I want to inform all of you that I have been having memory problems since last year.  I have noticed a very sharp decline in my short term memory.  I know that I have had a lot to write about during the past 29 years now.  I know that I still have a very long way to go.  I want all of you to know I will not become a burden on anyone.  At least I have written my story.  I have published three books within a 23 year period.

Further, I want all of you to know that I love you and I always will.  This includes those people who despise me as a person.  God has made me aware of those who are my real friends from my adversaries.  As soon as you read God’s Word, it will make you aware of a whole lot of things.  This is the reason why I am not watching TV very much.  I have realized that I have one good friend.  God knows her and what she has done for me in 23 years now.  She has been my friend when I was running away from my problems.  My grandma told me to stop running away from those who really love you.

Moreover, I have been running away from myself.  Since my mother and sister died, I was devastated physically and emotionally.  I know that I have been feeling guilty about the things that I have done in the past.  My AA Sponsor told me that one of my friends that I have been doing favors for in the past and present need to go to N.A. by himself.  This is because I am dying for real.  You are losing memory every single day.  My Sponsor told me to learn how to do something for yourself.  I listened to my Sponsor when he told me that my friend is using me.  He also told me that you are losing your memory.  He also said that I am having memory lapses every single day.  My Sponsor told me that I have to take care of myself better than what I am doing right now.

In Addition, I need to have my family members to take care of me.  It is not very easy dealing with my own personal issues.  God talks to you while we are sleeping.  A lot of people do not know it.  It is inside of Job 33:14-16 verse.  It is very true that God and Satan talk to you.  I will admit that I am having too many health ailments right now. To be honest with you, many young people do not have respect for elders or their own parents.  It really hurts me as a person because I used to be the same way.  Right now, I have to allow the cows to eat and produce milk.

Finally, I want to inform you that I have been an Enabler for over a half of a century now.  I feel very bad because I have did things for other people when they know how to do it for themselves.  God is watching over all of us to see if we are worthy of His Kingdom.  This is the truth because many people choose to destroy their own Temple.  It is a shame because I am sharing all of this information to tell you that God loves you and so do I.  Please use your Temple to share the gospel.  Thank you for reading my essay.