Leviticus 17:16 says But if he does not wash his clothes or wash himself, then he shall bear his iniquity.  This is exactly what I have been going through for the past 29 years now.  I have neglected myself for a long time now.  This means I have only taken care of myself only once a week.  I have allowed Satan to have the victory over me.

Next, I have taken myself through a major depression.   This means I have forsaken myself and no one else.  When my oldest grandmother passed away, I have took her death harderthan anyone else.  I did not take A bath only one time weekly.

Further, I only brushed my teeth on a weekly basis.  Therefore, I deprived myself out of a lot of things.  I have to stop allowing Satan to reign over me.  Although I don’t drink alcohol and smoke marijuana anymore, but I still have a dope fiend mentality.  I have not been taking care of my apartment and ADLs.

Moreover, I didn’t do anything but hurt myself by bearing all of the guilt from my past. My family members are not like me.  I’m still living a fiend mentality and lifestyle.  Today is the first time I’ve taken a bath in over a week.  I am very sorry for hurting myself and others who are in my life.

In Addition, I am still suffering from clinical depression right now.  My treatment for Schizoid Affective Disorder and Schizophrenia is not working for me.  If this doesn’t improve, I will have to allow the Police to check me in to the hospital for personal reasons.  I am very sorry for letting people think that I am getting better but I am getting worse by the day.

Also, I am too depressed to do anything for myself right now.  The only thing I have been doing is staying clean and sober.  I have a positive attitude about life right now.  My family members are angry with me because I have been talking to computer hackers and scammers.  

Finally, I have to start reading God’s Word out loud and pray without ceasing.  I need to get involved in church activities and make weekly appointments with my Pastor all of the time and my therapist and psychiatrist all of the time.  Please keep me in your prayers and thoughts because I am suffering from Diabetes Full Blown Type 2 right now.  I am crying out loud for real help.  I have been bearing my guilt and transgressions for years now.  I’m very sick physically, mentally, psychologically, and spiritually sick.  I have to have someone to come over and tell me what to do inside of my apartment building right now.

In Conclusion, I have to have someone to please talk to me because I am actually acting like a child that needs God’s Help.  All of this is my fault alone.