The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.  This means that God is always close to those who have suffered loss and those who are going through a very difficult time in their life.  I know that I have lost my nephew, mother, and sister during a seven year period.

Next, I do suffer from Type 2 Diabetes Full Blown and Schizoid Affective Disorder.  I know that I have lost a lot of close relatives and friends.  I have been feeling depressed as of late.  God has been with me throughout this process.  I also know that I have been taking too much medicine for a large number of ailments.

Further, I have suffered a lot lately.  I actually have been suffering for over 30 years now.  I really know that God has been watching me very carefully.  I want to inform all of you that my life has been filled with ups and downs during that time.  I will admit that I am very hurt because my brothers and sisters are not speaking to me anymore.  My mother told me before she died that I will go through some difficult times with the family members and friends.  My mother told me that I will not receive any support from the family because I will have to take care of my own issues with God and Jesus Christ.

Moreover, I have been in a lot of pain both physically and mentally as well as emotionally.  I know that I have a mental illness and my siblings and I do not relate well with each other.  Frankly, I have a different father from my half brothers and sisters.  I suppose that I behave differently than my half brothers and sisters.  I don’t like drama from anyone.  I have been clean and sober for 33 years now.  Whenever my siblings start drinking and smoking marijuana, I will leave immediately.  I don’t relate well with people who drink alcohol and smoke marijuana and other drugs.

Finally, I do not be around people who indulge in the drug and alcohol scene.  I am very sick physically and mentally right now.  I would prefer to be all by myself rather than be around people who are addict’s and alcoholic’s.  I am in recovery for real and my family members do not like it.  This is because my family members do not want me around them whenever they are drinking and smoking.  I will admit that I start complaining when people start drinking and smoking around me.  I have taken things seriously for many years and my family members and friends do not speak to me.  God Bless You All.