What is the definition of the word envy?

          This is an essay that is based on the word envy.  Let’s start off by asking a question.  What is the definition of the word envy?  The word envy mean being discontent over someone else’s desires or possessions.  When it comes to the word envy, what really comes into mind for biblical sake is covetousness.  Envy also has a lot to do with the fixations of the things that we do not have personally. 

          Next, the word envy and jealousy have the same connotation.  Envy is a universal thing and it is very destructive.  Envy is also hidden.  It causes us to become distracted when it comes to God’s plan.  This is also a barrier to withholding God’s will in our lives.  It causes us to miss out on God’s plan for our lives.  An example of this for me personally is when I used to have problems with my family members.  The reason why this has happened in my life personally is because they were upset with me based on maintaining poor behavior. 

          Further, when it comes to envy, it denies our uniqueness in the eyes of the Lord.  Also, let me inform everyone that I had been disappointed for most of my life.  One reason or another, I will admit to having a fear of failure.  I usually get down on myself and I tend to refuse to communicate because of my guilt and shame.  Therefore, envy blinds you to your own self.  You get a divided allegiance when it comes to envy.  I can only be myself when it comes to living in a changing society. 

          Moreover, I want to indicate to everyone that I am not a perfect person.  There was a period of time when I used to exaggerate things because I have my own cross to bear.  I will admit that I am competitive when it comes to certain things.  For instance, when it comes to employment, I will admit to being a type of person that usually challenge others by gaining an advantage so that I can get a job.  I do have character defects that I really need to work on personally by giving it all to the Lord.

          Finally, I want to say that I cannot serve God and my possessions.  I have to choose between the two.  I will admit to becoming selfish and impatient with myself.  I also will admit to becoming a hoarder by collecting things that I do not need.  It I lose them, I tend to get angry.  I also will admit to acting like someone else.  I tend to talk proper and I also adapt to a set standard.  When you feel this way, you insult the Lord.  I will admit to placing too much emphasis on politics and the things of the world.  Romans 12:2 states; Do not conform to the patterns of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.  Envy also causes people to waste their time that God has deserved for you.  I cannot be like anyone else.  It is very important that we allow God to help us in our lives.  Thank you for reading my essay.