My year consisted of ups and downs

 

Good Morning Everyone!! How are all of you doing today? I hope and pray that everyone is doing fine.  I would like to inform all of you that my year consisted of ups and downs.  The reason why is because I lost my sister and my mother within 48 days.  My sister died on June 2, 2017.  My mother died on July 20, 2017.  During the first half of the year, I was working at Walgreens Pharmacy in Dayton, Ohio.  The job was not too bad.  I ended up getting fired because of a disability.  I ended up getting fired on July 9, 2017.

 

 I had laryngitis as well as an infection inside of my throat.  I also had a lot of other issues that I was dealing with that I had expressed it on my Facebook Page.  I want to inform all of you that I have been listening to music such as Steely Dan, Isley Brothers, The Jones Girls, and Zro.  I want to inform all of you that I have to listen to music just to drown out the voices that I have been hearing.  The voices have been minimized to the point that I do not allow them to get the best of me anymore.  I want to inform all of you that I have had an up and down year.  I also suffer from glaucoma and acute acid reflux disease.

 

 I want to inform all of you that I suffer from schizoid affective disorder and bipolar 1.  It is not very easy having a mental illness.  I know for me, I have to continue to take my medication for the rest of my life.  Even though I hear voices, I have to continue to do constructive things just to drown them out.  The voices have been listening to all sorts of music.  I also read the Bible every single day.  I pray and meditate all of the time. I want to tell everyone that I was not diagnosed with a mental illness until I was 32 years old.  This was during the time I was living in Charlotte, NC.  What people do not realize is that I do not like to argue with anyone.  I will say that I am not perfect.  I will say that I have a problem looking at porn because I have been lonely.  I have not been involved in a relationship in almost 9 years.

I want to inform all of you that I have been going through the blues when it comes to relationships.  I also have to make amends with my family members.  I want to inform all of you that I have been returning back to the vomit in a literal sense.  I want to inform all of you that the voices have been very agonizing.  I have been trying to keep it together.  I know that I am taking 22 prescription medications every day of the week.  I really do not need to take all of the medications that I am prescribed.

 

I know that it is a necessity for me to take all of my medications for mental illness as well as my seizure medications.  I want to inform everyone that I need all of you to please pray for me.  It is not very easy dealing with a mental illness and a substance abuse problem at the same time.  I have been clean and sober for 27 years now.  My clean date is May 2, 1990.  I gave up the dope and alcohol on Wednesday May 2, 1990.  This was exactly 2 days before my hernia operation.  I know that I am taking so much medication that I am having a very hard time trying to sleep at night.

 

 I want to inform all of you that my brothers and sisters do not talk to me because I have a mental illness.  My nieces and nephews love me a whole lot.  I do not know what is really wrong with my brothers and sisters.  My cousins and the rest of my family members love me a whole lot.  It is pitiful that I cannot make direct amends to one of my brothers that I have hardly spoken to him in over 23 years.  It is very sad because the voices know more about me than I know about myself.  These voices that I hear are not the Holy Spirit.

 

 These voices that I hear came into existence on Thursday November 8, 2009 at 11:30PM.  I was a patient at Broughton Hospital in Morganton, NC from November 5, 2009 until December 5, 2009.  I stayed in the psychiatric hospital for only 5 weeks.  During my release from the hospital, I was placed at a residence in Southeast Charlotte, NC.

 I was only at the residence for only 2 weeks.  Afterwards, I went back into the Center for Behavior Health in Charlotte, NC.  This took place because I had an issue with my medications as well as the voices.  I had to go to court on December 23, 2009 at 9:00AM in Charlotte, NC for inducing panic.  I was housed for another 2 weeks inside the hospital until January 5, 2010.

 

 I was released from the hospital at 4:00PM.  I was transported to the Greyhound Bus Station on West Trade ST in Uptown Charlotte by the hospital staff.  Therefore, I was sent back to Dayton, Ohio.  I arrived home at 9:50AM the next day.  As soon as I arrived home in Dayton, Ohio from Charlotte, NC; it was a snow blizzard.  There was 17 inches of snow on the ground.  I have been home ever since.  As of January 6, 2018 it will be 7 years since I left Charlotte, NC.

 

  This year has been dismal because I have been hearing voices throughout the entire time.  I am depressed at the moment because my mother and sister are not here with me.  I also lost a very close friend this year on March 27, 2017 name Eric.  He had a heart attack.  I went to his funeral and I also spoke at his funeral because he literally saved my life.  He saved me, even when I did not care about myself.  He told me to stay in school and make my parents proud.

 

 What he did not know is that I have not seen my own biological father in 47 years.  I have not seen my own biological father in 47 years. To conclude everything, I want to inform all of you that I have been feeling sad and depressed because my mother and sister are not here with me right now.  The Vitamin D is making my bones and muscles cramp and feel stiff.  My doctor prescribed me too much Vitamin D.

 

 

 I was taking 50,000Mg and 600mg.  Do you know that I can file a lawsuit against the hospital for prescribing me too much medication in the first place?  The year 2017 has been good and bad for me.  I love all of you very much.  I am very serious when I say that I love you.  I love you because God is love.  Please take care of yourselves.  God Bless You All!!

 

Faithfully Submitted,

 

Anthony Hopkins