How often do you walk or run?  I really walk at least 4 days per week.  The only time I would run, is when I need to catch the city bus.  Right now, I really need to improve in this because I will admit that I have gained a lot of weight.   During the past 7 years, I have gained too much weight from taking too much medication.   I used to weigh 323 pounds from taking a medication called Zyprexa.  This is a medication that is used to treat depression.  This is because I was Court ordered to take medication, attend my therapy sessions, and see a psychiatrist on a regular basis.   I have lost weight due to contracting COVID-19 from someone coughing in the hallway inside of my apartment building on December 15, 2020.  Less than one week later, I was diagnosed with Covid-19 on December 21, 2020.  I am improving right now because I am able to maintain a reasonable amount of weight and make sure that I am taking my medication as prescribed by each doctor who I am consulting with at all times.

Do you see yourself as a leader?  The answer to this question is yes.   I see myself as a leader because I have experience in working with the public.   I see myself as a leader because I have excellent communication skills.   I am the type of person, who is an active listener.  I am a Born Again Christian Man, who has a lot of common sense.  I am a person, who know how to forgive other people and myself.  I see myself as a leader because I have the middle name of Joseph.   Joseph was a leader of the Egyptian People.   Joseph was Jacob’s youngest son in the Bible.   What I have done in my life is really help other people with community resources and other personality needs.  I am named after my grandfather Joseph Perry Hopkins.  The name Anthony is a surname because it is British.   The name Joseph is the Father of Jesus Christ.  The name Joseph means leader.  God is merciful and gracious.  He is slow to get angry and He is forgiving.   God is watching all of us every day of our lives.  God knows exactly how long we are all going to live on Earth.   According to Psalm 139:16 which states that; Your eyes saw my substance, being yet informed.  And in Your book they all were written, the days fashioned for me, when as yet there were none of them.   This means that We are all called, but a few are chosen; Matthew 22:14.  Do you think you are a leader?   I view myself as a leader because I know how to get other people to do things for me.   I know that this is called Manipulation.   I tend to become very transparent and sincere in my speech.   I have been clean and sober for 34 years, 4 months, and 10 days now.   I am a person, who is an expert at getting things done.   My strengths and weaknesses are my Intelligence and intuitiveness.   My weaknesses are as follows:  Procrastination and slothfullness.  I tend to work at a pace that is feasible for me.   I do not know who is throwing rocks at my windows, but I am not a mammal that is supposed to responds to human stimulus.  I am a very great leader because I will admit that I do things my way.  I am not saying that I am a perfectionist, but I am just being honest and truthful with God, Jesus Christ, other people, and myself.  Do you think you are a leader?  Yes! I am what God wants me to become at the moment.  God knows exactly what He has for all of us to do, while we are on Planet Earth.  I am a leader of my apartment right now.   I am solely responsible for maintaining my own actions and personal needs.   Leadership is important for maintaining harmony and prosperity on earth.  God has brought me from a very long way because I was unorthodox and selfish.  I used to be a very sarcastic person, who was only thinking of only myself.   My AA Sponsor helped me to change my personal behavior by getting me to see things from another person’s perspective.   Thank you for reading my essay today.

What is your favorite word?   My favorite word is Grateful 🙏.  I am very grateful to be clean and sober for 34 years and 4 months and 8 days now.   It is through the Grace and Mercy that God has provided for all of us.   I am very excited to stop drinking alcohol and beer on a daily basis.   I also stopped smoking marijuana and Crack Cocaine as well.   My second word is Savior because Jesus Christ is my personal Savior right now 🙏 🙌.   I also stopped smoking cigarettes as of September 30, 1990.  It has taken me almost a year to stop smoking period.  My third favorite word is tranquility and peace.  Frankly, this is exactly what I am thinking about every single day of the week.   This is because I live alone.  The residents do not bother me anymore because I have something that will kill a dog.   What I am carrying with me is alcohol and Clorox Bleach.  I am getting tired of getting urinated on by the residents who are living inside of the attic on the sixth floor on a daily basis.   There are a total of 12 dogs that are inside of the attic that is located on each floor at the Wentworth HI Rise Apartments located on 2765 Wentworth Avenue Dayton Ohio 45406.  The dogs have went mischief because they are not eating the right foods that they are supposed to be eating every single day of the week.   There are a total of 5 women and 8 men, who are sleeping inside of the attic right now.   To be perfectly honest with all of you, I am responding to negative stimuli for the past 14 years now.  This means that I am hearing voices and I am having visions on a daily basis.  Some of the things that I have been observing while I am sleeping are gang graffiti and the gang alphabet.  I am hearing cellphone ringtone that are Mexican and Latinos Music.   Therefore, I am dealing with a very large street gangs who are located inside of the United States of America right now.   I want to inform all of you that my neighbors are people who are living outside of Wentworth HI Rise Apartments in the Dayton, Ohio Area.   Some of these groups of people were former convicts and those who are wanted for committing violent crimes from a previous state in the United States of America.  I have been observing pitch forks and triangles that these gangs use vulgarity and bad language everyday.   The women are wearing tattoos just like wearing a dress.  However, I used to be involved in street gangs myself for a total of 14 years.   Do you know that the people who scammed me out of $18,550 dollars in Western Union Funds are living inside of the United States of America right now.   My Cellphones are all Cloned, Copied, and Pasted onto another Street Gang Members Phone.  The fourth word that I use is Apprehension.  This word means a state of fear and trepidation.   If you want to know the truth, honestly, I ended up falsely accusing a specific group of men and women who had driven to the Charlotte NC Area on Tuesday October 13, 2009 from New York City to committ a drive by shooting on me because it happened at 9pm in the Charlotte Transportation Center a young lady got out of a car, and she started shooting me with a 45 SemiAutomatic Gun.  She said That Fat….know how to run.   I also turned my information in to the Charlotte Mecklenburg County Police Department to the Fraud Department.   I was not the only one who got scammed out of a large sum of money.   I was hospitalized for three months in Morgantown, NC.  I was hospitalized at Broughton State Psychiatric Hospital for an extended period of time.  I was released on Thursday December 8, 2019.  Less than 2 weeks later I was hospitalized again for getting evicted out of my apartment located on Sharon Amity Boulevard in Charlotte NC.   I was court ordered to move back to Dayton Ohio.   Therefore I moved back to Dayton Ohio on January 6, 2010.  I remembered that day because it was snowing outside and I caught a cab to my Sister’s House for a few weeks until I was hospitalized again for trying to kill myself because I have lost a lot of money to scammers and computer hackers.   They used me!  I stayed in the hospital for six days.  During that year, I was homeless for a year until I moved into my apartment at Wentworth High Rise Apartments in 2011 on January 5, 2011.  I have been here ever since.   I had worked three jobs in a six year period.   I have written three books in 23 years.   My first book was called The Best of Anthony Joseph Hopkins, my Second book was called My Grace is Sufficient for Me and Finally, my last book was called Essays.  Please keep me and my entire family members in your prayers and thoughts because we are going through trials and tribulations while living in an environment that is not conducive towards our needs.  Thank you for reading my essay today 🙏.

What are you doing this evening?   I was listening to the radio and writing essays tonight.  I was meditating to Jesus Christ and God Himself.   I written an essay about making amends with God and Jesus Christ His Son and Everyone Else on Planet Earth.

What does it mean to make amends with God and others?

            Hello Everyone!! I hope that everyone is having a good day today.  I would like to start this off by asking a very important question.  What does it mean to make amends with God and others?  An amends is when someone apologizes for a wrongdoing and change the behavior afterwards.  For instance, when a person commits a wrongdoing, a person is supposed to confer with God first and foremost.  Afterwards, repent for your sins and forgive yourself in the process.  Afterwards, you are supposed to apologize with anyone that you have done wrong to.  Saying I am sorry is really not enough.  You have to change your behavior for the better.

 An example of this is when I told my family members about my brother’s problems, without asking him first.  Some would say that I am a backbiter or a two faced person.  I did not have any business telling my brother’s problems to others.  This is because my brother is getting ready to have a total of 4 children.  I have told him that selling drugs will not pay the bills.  He will have to get a job and keep it for the rest of his life.

 To be honest, I do not have any children because I know that I can barely take care of myself.  Therefore, I would prefer not to have sex with any woman, until we get married.  I would prefer to have a friendship with everyone, man or woman.  This is what I am supposed to do for the rest of my life.  An amends is when you are supposed to admit to your mistake, ask for forgiveness, rectify the wrong, and eventually change the behavior.  It takes a very long time to modify a specific behavior, and change it for the better.  I know that in my case, my family members are not the forgiving type of people.

 I have to ask God to intervene in this matter.  There are a few of my friends, who would rather not have anything to do with you.  When that happens, that is it and it is final with some people.  Some people do not know how to make amends with anyone, or with God the Father.  I also want to inform everyone that I have a brother right now that I really have not spoken to in 24 years.  It hurts me because he does not want anything to do with me.  It is his fault for calling me a female dog at my Great Grandmother’s funeral on August 19, 1994.

 It hurts me because I have to be the better person by apologizing to my brother for fighting him.  He did not understand that my Great Grandmother raised me, while my mother was being treated for Post-Partum Depression.  It also hurt me when my own father died.  I was not notified about him or his death.  I asked my Aunt, where was I during the time my father died?

 I am hurt and devastated because I have not had a chance to resolve any of my active issues with anyone.  Currently, I am puzzled because I have not had a chance to resolve any of my active issues with everyone in my personal life.  I have a cousin who fought me for 9 years.  I am not at the liberty of mentioning his name because of confidentiality issues.  We fought each other as children and teenagers over petty issues.  My biological father is his father’s cousin.  My best friend is really my cousin because our fathers were brothers.  My family members do not really know it.  My own biological father was a light skin man.  I thought my father was fair skinned just like me.  It is going to take God to help me to resolve all of my active issues with each other.  For the moment, my brothers and sisters are not speaking to each other right now.  Please pray for me and my family members because we are not speaking to each other anymore.  Thank you for reading my blog.

Anthony Hopkins

What personality trait in people raises a red flag with you?  Whenever a person displays a great deal of aggression, anger, and wrath.   I will have to leave immediately.  If someone is making sarcastic remarks towards me or someone who is of another race, color, or creed, I will have to leave immediately.   This is because it is perceived as a threat.

Describe your ideal week.  My ideal week consists of attending church on Sunday morning.   Secondly, I usually go directly to the library on Hillcrest AVENUE AND PHILADELPHIA DRIVE IN DAYTONS NORTHWEST SIDE OF TOWN.   THIRDLY, I am solely responsible for attending church on Tuesday for Bible Study.  On Wednesday, I have a doctor appointment and Thursday as well.   Friday and Saturday of this week I will be going to the library and catch up with things that I forgot to do earlier in the week.   Otherwise, my objective is to get to know God

Name the professional athletes you respect the most and why.  The Los Angeles Lakers drafted Bronny James to their team.  This was his Father LeBron who was responsible for getting his son drafted to the Los Angeles Lakers.  The team itself will help develop Bronny James and help him to improve his basketball skills.

How do you relax?   I usually close my eyes and relax.  I want you to know that I meditate every single day of the week.  I also read my Bible every single day.  However, I have a water leak inside of my apartment right now.  I am feeling much better now.  It is very easy for me to relax and acquire peace.   I really love to listen to the radio at night for at least one hour and a half from 10:00pm through 11:30PM.   I actually listen to the Urban Alternative with Dr. Tony Evans second, Keylife with Steve Brown and third, I listen to the Daily Bread Show and finally, Night Sounds with Bill Pierce.   I watch the news from 11:35pm to 1:00am, I usually watch Perry Mason and The Twilight Zone.  Finally, I go directly to sleep at 1:00am until 7:00am.  Prior to that, I wake up at 5:00am just to take my medication each day.   Afterwards, I go straight to sleep from 5:30am until 7:00am.   I usually brainstorm and meditate for at least 3 additional hours.   I try my best to remove clutter from my brain.   I am more active during the evening hours until 1:00am.   I have been writing my essays  for over a year right now.   I have been writing essays and research papers for the past 27 years now.  I have written three books during a 23 year period.  I have written my first book called The Best of Anthony Hopkins.   My second book is called My Grace is Sufficient for Me and Finally, my last book is called Essays.   This is a book regarding my personal relationship with God.   Thank all of you for reading my essay today.  I also pray every single day by thanking God and Jesus Christ for their help in my life right now.   I thank my Earthly Angel’s for helping me with my daily tasks.   God is doing for me more than I am doing for myself.  This is one of the 9th Step Promises in Alcoholic Anonymous.   Thank you for reading my essay and praying for me.

If you had to give up one word that you use regularly, what would it be?  To be frank with everyone, I have been hearing other people use vulgarity and bad language inside of the attic that is above my apartment right now.  These individuals are trespassing by sleeping inside of the attic.  There are at least 10 people, who are sleeping inside of the attic right now.  What I am doing right now is praying for these people because they really don’t have a place to live right now.  I understand that God is watching all of us on a daily basis.  It really hurts me to say this; the people who are sleeping inside of the attic are my enemies from the past.  They refuse to reconcile with me right now.  Please keep these people in prayer because they are acting like little babies who cry all of the time.  These are adults who are acting like little children right now.  According to Sigmond Freud, they have unresolved issues.

Are you holding a grudge? About?   I will admit that I have held a grudge for more than 12 years.   It has taken me 12 years to forgive a specific female because she was cheating on me.   My AA Sponsor helped me along the way.   Otherwise, I have tried my best to allow Jesus Christ to forgive me first and Foremost.   Secondly, I have managed to pray for those who have hurt me in the past.  If the Lord’s Will, I will be 60 next year.  God and Jesus Christ are really holding my arms up and are walking with me.  There are other people who have hurt me, and likewise myself.   I have hurt myself as well as other people with my behavior.   Holding grudges will only mess up your relationship with God.   I am the type of person, who forgives others very quickly.  I remember when I attempted suicide for the very first time.   I have lost my money to scammers and computer hackers because I was careless and looking for love in all of the wrong places.  On Friday February 13, 2010, I have taken all of my medication just to drown out misery in my life.   For 3 years, I have given my money freely to other people that I did not know.  Sadly, I had to spend 6 days inside of Miami Valley Hospital for treatment. I really do not know exactly what I am going to do with the women who have scammed me out of money.   Lord Jesus, please, give me the wisdom to know the difference between a human relationship with the opposite sex, and a regular that is artificial in nature.   I will admit that I am gullible when it comes to the opposite sex.   This is the reason why I am all by myself right now. Pain is a monster to go through.   However, I am not bitter.   Mom told me before she died to keep my head high above the ground.   Therefore, looking down is misery and pain.  I know that I have failed when it comes to relationships with the women who were in my life.  I remember when I used to look at pornography everyday: as an escape from reality.   From March 13, 2008 through February 21, 2010, I didn’t set boundaries for myself and with other people.   If I would had boundaries during my online relationships that I have had with the women, who have scammed me out of a large sum of money.   I would not have tried to kill myself over foolishness.  My AA Recovery is my Responsibility.   I am responsible for listening first and then become slow to speak and slow to get angry.   James 1;19!  I have to give God more of my time than I have ever did before.   All of this has made me more mature and more as a real man.   People can take advantage of you; only if you let them.  There was a young lady, to whom I fell in love very quickly.   I am very sorry for going off on a tangent.   Currently, I am evaluating my life and the things that I have done for 59 years now.   Thank you Lord Jesus, for helping me to get to know myself a whole lot better.   Thank you for saving me, loving me, and accepting me as a member of the human race.  Although I have critics, and those who want to see me fail in life.  I have already forgiven the people who really want to see me collapse.  God Bless You, who are workers of iniquity.  Remember this, only God can judge me and you to.  My grudges are a thing of the past.   Never dwell on what has already happened because God is watching all of us.   If someone continues to dwell on the past throughout their entire life: You will miss God’s Blessings that He has already promised you.  THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN ME, IF I WOULD HAD CONTINUED TO DWELL ON THE PAST.  REMEMBER THIS, YOUR PAST IS YOUR HISTORY.   HISTORY IS A STUDY OF THE HUMAN PAST.  FOCUS ON WHAT IS RIGHT IN YOUR LIFE.   HARBORING RESENTMENTS AND GRUDGES IS A STUMBLING BLOCK THAT YOU HAVE PUT ON YOURSELF!!  THANK YOU FOR READING MY ESSAY.   MAY GOD CONTINUE TO BLESS YOU AND KEEP YOU INSIDE OF HIS HANDS.  DO YOU KNOW THAT HOLDING GRUDGES IS MISERY THAT YOU HAVE PUT ON YOURSELF ?