What is a time you ignored your gut – and paid for it?  Honestly the only few times when I didn’t listen to my gut and paid for it; is during the time that I was living inside of a Crack house for three years in Toledo Ohio.   I admit that I was homeless and I was living at the Toledo Rescue Mission located on the corner of  Jefferson Street & 21st Street in Toledo Ohio for an entire month.  This is also during the time that I got robbed inside of the Mission.   The staff members didn’t do anything about it.   I had to walk straight downtown in Toledo Ohio and file a police report.   This is also when I had taken matters to in my own hands.  I felt extremely angry!  This is also during the time that I said I am my own police.  I saw the person who robbed me and took my wallet.  Therefore I had to handle my own mess by myself.  Sometimes this is the truth because I got robbed twice during a 2 year period.  I had to stop dealing with dope addict and fiends women all together.   Otherwise I made a lot of poor decisions by dealing with the wrong people in Toledo Ohio. Yes; I certainly did live inside of an active dope house for 3 years inside of the Bloods gang neighborhood off of Cherry Street in North Toledo Ohio.  This was also during the time when I was attending college at the University of Toledo for 5 years.  I was a college student making dope fiend related decisions and literally living like a dope addict just to survive in the neighborhood. Frankly the women were active dope addicts staying there by choice.  I said the hell with this mess.  I started spending the night on school campus grounds for 75% of my life at the University of Toledo.  The college students and staff got pissed off with me because I couldn’t study for my exams in peace. Yes; I was spending the nights inside of my favorite place; which is University Hall on campus.  I also got tired of smelling cocaine and Marijuana all of the time.  There were times when I was having sex with the female prostitutes who were inside of the house.  I was traveling to and fro all over Lucas County Ohio all by myself.  The female college students were very angry with me for living there in the first place.   I noticed that as soon as I graduated from college at the University of Toledo everyone gave me a standing ovation because they said that I had to literally think and adjust to life living inside of gang infested neighborhoods throughout my entire 5 years in Toledo Ohio and still graduated from college twice within 5 consecutive years.  Yes I admit that I obtained a job working with the same Street Gang members inside of my neighborhood.  God was really involved in my life during that time and forevermore.  As soon as I officially told God and Jesus Christ that I am ready to give up the high cost of low living as of Wednesday evening May 2, 1990; God and Jesus Christ finally listened to me. At least; right now I lived like something that I was not:  A dope addict!  Yes; I transferred one addiction and picked up another addiction and it was women.  I had allowed dope addict women to cause me to collapse financially and spiritually.  I am still clean and sober through this very day-to-day because God is definitely not finished with me. I also got scammed by foreign people who I didn’t know personally.   Only through online transactions and money that I was sending overseas for 3 years from 2007 until 2010.  In my case, I affiliated with the wrong women and got scammed out of $16,977 dollars in Western Union funds.  This is also going from one extreme to the next by choice. Based on the choices that I made for myself for 18 years of active addiction to remaining clean and sober for 36.5 years now.  I do consider myself as a grateful recovering alcoholic and addict to a Work in Progress according to God and Jesus Christ 🙏 🙌.  Addiction is a disease as well as a chosen lifestyle 🙏.