What’s something you’ve forgiven but haven’t forgotten?

What is something you have forgiven but have not forgotten?  Honestly I have forgiven all of the Men and Women who severely devastated me in the past.  However I have not forgotten all of the money that I had invested into all of my personal relationships within a 40 year period.  I had lost over $100,000 dollars on spending excessive money foolishly on sex and pleasure in 40 years.  This is the reason why I am not involved in another relationship with women because I was only purchasing sex, pleasure, and happiness instead of investing money on myself.  I admit that I had to wait until later in life just to invest money on my financial pursuits and learn how to love and respect God and Jesus Christ as well as myself.  I am solely responsible for writing 3 books within a 23-year period.  My books are called Essays, My Grace is Sufficient for Me and The Best of Anthony Hopkins.  My book publisher is Authorhouse Publishing Company located in Bloomington Indiana.  God and Jesus Christ are solely responsible for changing my life for the better.  I have been clean and sober for 36.5 years now.  I had right eye surgery this morning and I was scared throughout the entire surgery because of my fear of needles and going to the hospital for any surgery whatsoever.  Therefore surgery and death petrifies me intensely.  I am scheduled for left eye surgery on February 1,2027 at 2:00pm at Grandview Hospital located in Dayton, Ohio. I really need all of your prayers because I am physically mentally emotionally and psychologically shaken right now.  God and Jesus Christ thank you for keeping me calm during my surgery today 🙏 🙌.  Please continue to pray for me because I am still nervous right now 🙏. Thank you for allowing me to answer this question to the best of my ability.  In Jesus Wonderful Name I Pray Amen and Amen 🙏 🙌 👏 ❤️.