What is making me nervous is a number of things.  First, I want to say is that my physical health has declined during the past 15 years.   This is because I am suffering from Diabetes.  I didn’t know that I had Diabetes in the first place.   Perhaps it was my weight that had increased throughout the years.   I know that my physical body is perishing because of my age.  I am only 58-year-old.  I am losing my hormone levels have decreased considerably since 2015.  During the past 10 years; I have been taking too much medication as well.   I will admit that I was taking Zyprexa for a considerable amount of time.   This is the reason why I am suffering from Glaucoma and Cataracts as well as memory problems

Next, I want to inform all of you that I am suffering from Schizoid Affective Disorder and Schizophrenia.  I have been suffering from the disease since Tuesday July 15 1997.  Therefore what is making me nervous is my physical and mental health issues have worsen since 1997.  I know that I have been eating vegetables and fruit a lot lately.   My life at this point of time is not getting better. Second,  I have been suffering from stomach ulcers since Wednesday November 26th 1996.  I will admit that I have been under a lot of stress for an extended period of time.  Positively I have been clean and sober for 33 years now. Another thing that is making me nervous is our young people have been committing violent crimes since 1980.  I am praying for everyone worldwide right now.   Lord Jesus I thank you for waking me up this morning.  I thank you for allowing me to spend time with my family members.  I thank you Lord Jesus for helping me to grow spiritually since 2015.  Thank you Lord Jesus for all that you have done for me throughout my life.   Lord Jesus I love you and I will always need you because I cannot do this by myself.  I will always need you before you need me.  I am still growing as a Christian Man.   Thank you for accepting me and loving me for the person that I am.  In Jesus Name I pray Amen.