Is It True That God Knows How long we will live?

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Is it True That God knows How Long We Will Live?

 

        This is an essay that will focus on the importance of how long man will live.  I would like to start things off by asking a question.  Is it true that God knows how long we will live?  The answer to this question is not very easy to respond.  However, according to Psalms 139:16 it says your eyes saw my substance being yet unformed. And in your book, they all were written, the days fashioned for me, when as yet there were none of them.

        Next, I did not know that God knows how long we are going to live according to His word.  This is very unusual because I thought that if we take care of ourselves and modify our lifestyle, we can live long on earth. Jeremiah 29:11 says for I know the plans that I have toward you. Plans to prosper and a purpose.  Some translations states that for I knows the thoughts that I have towards you, plans to prosper and a purpose.  I really did not take things seriously regarding my life until May 2, 1990.  I started praying to God for a complete change in my personal life.

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        Further, I want to inform all of you that it was not very easy for me growing up in Dayton, Ohio.  This is because I used to get beaten up by my sister, and other kids in school.  I know that I fought everyone for 28 years.  I even fought myself.  I just did not realize that the Bible has over 6,000 promises that are very true.  Anyway, I did not even know that God knows when we are going to see Him personally.

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Psalms 56:8 says; You number my wanderings, put my tears into Your bottle; are they not in your book?  This means that God knows exactly what we are doing at all times.  This also means that God knows where we are going and when we rise in the morning.  He even knows the people that we are going to be with today.  God even knows so much about us that we cannot even understand it.  Job 27:3 says; As long as my breath is in me, and the breath of God in my nostrils.  Honestly, the things that we have as far as possessions are concerned, are worldly.  The air that we breathe does not belong to us. God Bless You!!  Thank You for reading my essay.

God’s Instruction to Man While We Sleep!!

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God’s Instruction to Man While We Sleep!!

 

          This is a special essay concerning God’s instruction to man while we are sleeping.  The instructions for all of us regarding this matter are inside of the Bible.  The instructions on top of this essay are very true.  We must follow them.  According to Job 33:14-16 says for God may speak in one way or in another, yet man does not perceive it. Verse (15) in a dream in a vision of the night when deep sleep falls upon man while slumbering on their beds. Verse (16) then He opens the ears of men and seals their instruction.  This means that God gives us divine instructions even while we are sleeping.  God gives us things to do for Him in our personal lives.  It is that we do not even know it.  For example, in my case, I have been having dreams about the military, as well as during the time that I was in high school.  I was in NJROTC at Roth High School in Dayton, Ohio.

 

          I had dreamed this last night.  However, I did not know that God was communicating with me.  Even though, I have never heard God’s Voice in my entire life, I feel that God is giving me a message.  I did not know at the time when I heard Rick Warren’s Sermon on How to hear God’s Voice.  He was talking about Job, and I grasp the message, while I was at the Dayton Metro Library.  It let me know that God has many ways that He communicates to mankind. I have been hearing a voices for the past 8 years from some unknown source.

 

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          I will have to pay attention to where I am hearing these voices because if it is not from God, them it is a satanic forces.  I will have to say that I have been baffled for a while because I have been hearing voices and I have been trying to figure it out whether it is from God or Satan’s deceptive methods and strategies.  Another way that God speaks to man is through the Holy Spirit.

  In Romans 8:26 says; likewise the Spirit also helps in our weaknesses.  For we do not know what we should pray for as we ought, but the Spirit Himself makes intercession for us with groaning’s which cannot be uttered.  I did not know that God has another way of speaking to us, and it is through His Holy Spirit. 

          Moreover, I want all of you to know that God has many ways of letting us know that He is still in charge of things.  I know when it comes to my personal life, I had been disobedient by looking at porn and psychic related materials.  I guess you might as well say that I wanted a quick fix to my problems.  I am also guilty of receiving special readings from numerologist.  I had confessed all of this to God and I feel relieved because I am doing His work for now on.  God also has other ways of punishing us for our iniquities and transgressions.  I am still a Work in Progress.  I still have a long way to go!! 

 

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In addition, I am very happy because I can reveal all of this to everyone.  I am very happy to become a Child of God.  Psalms 103:8-14 says 8 The Lord is compassionate and gracious,  slow to anger, abounding in love.9 He will not always accuse,  nor will he harbor his anger forever;10 he does not treat us as our sins deserve or repay us according to our iniquities.11 For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his love for those who fear him;12 as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us.13 As a father has compassion on his children,  so the Lord has compassion on those who fear him;14 for he knows how we are formed,  he remembers that we are dust.  God knows that we are dust and spirit.  Therefore, I am very happy that I can do His work for Him.  Thank You for reading my essay.

What direction do you think everyone should go politically?

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What direction do you think everyone should go politically?

       This is a blog that has intentions to ask everyone questions regarding their political ideology and future.  I know that everyone is getting tired of dealing with the political commercials that are trying to sway voters to get connected with a certain political party.  I am beginning to realize that our President has done some things to benefit all tax payers.  For example, I ended up getting over $600.00 dollars back on my Federal Tax Refund.

 Even though, I thought wrong in my assumption of my money.  It made me feel very happy when I got my money in early February 2018.  To be perfectly honest, I was not going to vote for anyone because God is in charge of everything.  What direction I should go politically, the answer is I do not know.  I have been voting Democrat for the past 35 years.  I will not change my way of voting. 

I am asking everyone this because I am very concerned about the direction that our Country is going politically.  On that note, please pray for each and every person who lives in our Country.  I am literally nervous because these people that our President has been conversing with during the past 18 months have been changing their minds; particularly when it comes to denuclearization.  If North Korea gives up their nuclear weapons, so should the United States. I really feel that every Country should relinquish their weapons. 

The Holy Spirit vs Mankind

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The Holy Spirit vs Mankind

 

            The purpose of this blog is to try to help those who understand God, and who has the Holy Spirit inside of us.  Mankind believes in the things of man.  I know that it is not very easy for any of us to understand God.  I want to inform all of you that this is a battle between good vs evil.  I would like to tell everyone that Mankind only lives in the moment.  Romans 8:9 says you, however, are not in the realm of the flesh but are in the realm of the Spirit, if indeed the Spirit of God lives in you. And if anyone does not.  This means that God dwells inside of us.  There are those who do not believe that they have God inside of them.  Do you know that every time I type a blog, I usually start crying because it is God who is inside of me convicts me of all of my sins and forms of unrighteousness?

 

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Romans 12:2 says do not conform to the patterns of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. God is responsible for changing me for the better.  I still have a long way to go when it comes to my character.  I know that I have a problem with people who are sarcastic and rebellious.  The Lord has forgiven me.  It is Jesus who is doing for me, more than I am doing for myself.  The dove represents peace.  It also represents the Holy Spirit.  Mankind thinks of doves as just birds. 

 

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          The Holy Spirit is our Helper.  It guides us to the point where it gives us direction in advance.  Mankind perceives the Helper as something that does not exist.  I want to inform all of you that I am the type of person who loves God; a whole lot.  If anyone gets sarcastic with me, I am prone to retaliate.  The Lord is one who gives us grace and love in our personal lives.

 

 The Helper is located in the 14th Chapter in the 26th verse but the The Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, He will teach you all things, and bring to your remembrance all that I said to.  Glory means that you want your life to be like God. According to Mankind, man places more emphasis on holidays and other things rather than God.  Mankind always makes decisions that goes against God.  Mankind always does the things of the world for their own gratification.  Man goes against God Isaiah 59:2.

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 Man tends to make decisions to always stray away from God.  The Holy Spirit grieves while inside of man.  Romans 8:26 says we do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. New Living Translation and the Holy Spirit helps us in our weakness. For example, we don’t know what God wants us to pray for. But the Holy Spirit prays for us with groanings that cannot be expressed in words.  The Holy Spirit dwells inside of us for the rest of our lives.  However, God will let you live all by yourself in a reprobate mind when it comes to Romans 1:28-32.

Can we hide from God?

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Are we capable of hiding from God?

 

            The answer is no!! According to Job 34:21 says for His eyes are on the ways of man, and he sees all his steps.  When it comes to man himself, he is only dust and clay.  The air that man breathe does not belong to him.  It belongs to God.  God is a sovereign God.  He is the God of all humanity.  According to Job 33:14 says for God may speak in one way or in another, yet man does not perceive it  This means that man is totally unaware of the presence of God.  Whenever a man, woman, or child call themselves hiding from God; He knows exactly what you are doing at all times.  It is not very easy for someone to hide from a Power that is greater than yourself.

 

 

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Job 33:4 says the Spirit of God has made me and the breath of the Almighty gives me life.  The Lord has made man out of the dust of the ground, he breathed His breath into the nostrils of man, and man became a living soul.  Genesis 2:27.  The Lord God has made man and woman in His image Genesis 1:27.  Job 33:6 says truly I am as your spokesman before God: I also have been formed out of clay.  God knows the ways of all mankind.  Remember one thing, God’s ways and thoughts are not your own.  God is all in all.  Therefore, we cannot hide from God.  Job 34:11 says for He repays man according to all of his works, and he makes man to find a reward according to his way.  God is solely responsible for giving us life.  He is responsible for giving us the ability to do the things that we are currently doing right now.  This is so true that we shall be judged according to our works.  Faith without works is dead.  The only reason why we cannot hide from God is because He is inside of us.  Job 32:8 says but there is a Spirit in man and the breath of the Almighty gives him understanding.  To answer this question, God knows exactly where we are whether we are living or dead.  Thank you for reading my information!!

 

 

Faithfully Submitted,

 

Anthony Hopkins

What does it mean to feel out of place?

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What does it mean to feel out of place?

 

            I have a very important to ask everyone.  Have any of you ever felt out of place during your life?  I have because I went to an AA Meeting a couple of weeks ago, and everyone felt appreciative and understanding.  I was very happy during the AA Big Book Study.  Whereas, two hours later, I went to an NA Meeting and no one did not speak to me and show me love whatsoever.  I really felt out of place because not too many people from AA, which is Alcoholics Anonymous attend NA Meetings.

 Narcotics Anonymous is a very great Fellowship.  It is that, my AA Sponsor does not want me attending those type of meetings.  I do not understand why he would tell me not to attend NA Meetings in the first place.  I can identify with both support groups.  I will have to get another Sponsor because I really think he gave me some bad advice.  I understand that I have an addiction.  I am a grateful recovering alcoholic and addict.  I have been clean and sober for 27 years.

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  I want to inform everyone that I have been clean and sober since Wednesday May 2, 1990.  I really feel out of place because of attending a meeting that does not coincide with my personal beliefs.  Frankly, it is not my personal beliefs that I have to deal with, I have been coerced or easily influenced to listen to others.  There are sponsors who give bad advice.  I really feel that my sponsor gave me some bad advice when he should have examined the principles and traditions of NA, and compare it to AA.  In my case, I have to read information from both Fellowships in order to understand things.  Anonymity is the spiritual foundation of all our traditions, ever reminding us to place principles before personalities.  Job 33:14 says for God may speak in one way, or in another, yet man does not perceive it. In a dream, in a vision of the night.  When deep sleep falls upon men.

 

I have to remain prayerful and truthful at all times.  I know that I am in need of a new AA sponsor.  My old AA sponsor and I parted ways with each other over 3 months ago.  This is because he mentioned to me that I should not attend NA meetings.  I have not attended an NA meeting ever since.  I know that all of this sounds like a drama or a soap opera. I know that I am also dealing with issues other than AA, but I am hopeful for the present as well as the future.  I am a very nice person.

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 I am a person who learns from everyone.  I know that my behavior has not been the best as of late.  However, I am an analytical person.  I am a person who loves to study.  I am, a person who tells the truth at all times.  I do not have anything to hide from anyone.  I am also a person who is willing to give my last dollar to someone who is in need.  I am a person who has had a great deal of success during the past 30 years.  I have had a lot of success during the time I was working at the University of Toledo for 4 years.  I also has a great deal of success, while working at the University of North Carolina at Charlotte.  I am a person who loves to read, write, think freely, and study.  Please keep me in your prayers.  Thank you very much!!

 

 

 

Sincerely,

 

 

Anthony Hopkins

Can A Man Override God?

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Can Man Override God’s Authority?

          The answer to this question is yes.  This is by disobedience and not listening to God.  This is very easy for man to do in the first place.  This is because it was done by Adam and Eve by eating from the Garden of Good and Evil.  God told both of them to avoid eating from it in advance.  Man is solely responsible for following God’s orders and commands.  In order for man to survive on earth for a duration of 70 years or longer, Man must listen and pay attention to God. O LORD, I know that the way of man is not in himself: it is not in man that walked to direct his steps Jeremiah 10:23.

 

Next, man has a free will as well as a choice, when it comes to listening to God.  When it comes to listening to God, a man must be willing to listen to God for the rest of his life.  In order for mankind to heed the message of God, it takes an open mind and the willingness to listen to the Lord’s Precepts.  In my personal life, I have made a whole lot of personal mistakes.  I have sinned and done so much wrong that I do not have a choice but to listen to God. Man’s goings are of the LORD; how can a man then understand his own way?  Proverbs 20:24

 

 

          When it comes to the brain induced effects on the Holy Spirit, it is caused by injury or alcohol and drug abuse.  There are other diseases that would hinder us from hearing our Spirit.  The Holy Spirit itself is a part of the Trinity.  God, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit.  Acts 2:38 Peter replied, “Repent and be baptized, every one of you, in the name of Jesus Christ for the forgiveness of your sins. And you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit.  The Holy Spirit is intact, especially when it comes to some people.  However, the Spirit itself is derived from God.  I know that when it comes to myself, I am a work in progress.  I am a person who has come a very long way in my personal life. 

 

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I have managed to make changes in my life by attending AA Meetings, graduating from the University of Toledo in 1993 and 1995 respectively.  I have managed to work at various Colleges and Universities to gain some personal experience in Social Work, Counseling, and Library Sciences.  I have been clean and sober for 27 years now.  I am responsible for keeping myself away from recreational drugs, cigarettes, alcohol, and other mind altering drugs.  I will admit that I have a problem dealing with porn.  I have not looked at it in over a month right now.  If I were married to a Christian Woman, I would not have to worry about dealing with the issues of the world.  I am guilty of dealing with the issues of the world. Romans 12:2 says do not conform to the patterns of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. I will admit that I am praying for a woman to come into my life and transform me into the man that God wants me to.  I will admit another thing is that I am working on myself by changing the way I communicate.  I am not using bad words and staying away from people who use vulgarity.  I am praying every single day and reading the Bible.  I will admit that I am in need of an AA Sponsor.  I am looking for someone who has experience in working the 12 Steps and reading the AA Book.

 

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Building a United States Border Wall and the President’s Campaign Promises

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Building a United States Border Wall and The President’s Campaign Promises

 

            Prior to President Donald Trump became President, his campaign promises consists of building a border wall and a tax plan that would benefit everyone in the United States.  First, the Border Wall, President Trump kept emphasizing on building this wall in order to keep the illegal aliens from entering the United States illegally.  There are so many illegal aliens climbing over the Border Wall from Texas to California.  It is very hard to keep up with the people who are entering into this country illegally.  This is the reason why the President ordered National Guard Troops from Texas to California to prevent the illegal aliens from entering into this country in large masses.

 

            Next, The Governors of Texas has sent National Guard troops to the U.S. Border as well as Arizona and California last week.  President Trump sign an order sending at least 3,000 troops to the Mexican/United States Border and protecting the U.S. Border will take more than 3,000 troops.  It will also take over 8 years to build the Wall separating the two countries.  It will cost over a trillion dollars to build the Wall.  According to the General Accounting Office, it will cost more than a trillion dollars to build and to protect the Border Wall.

 

            Moreover, when it comes to taxes, President Trump has fulfilled to His campaign promises.  Frankly, it will cost more than 40 billion dollars to restore and maintain the U.S. Infrastructure.  The States will have to divide the money and use this money to build bridges and maintain the infrastructure in U. S. major cities.  It will cost much more than the President is suggesting to build bridges and street maintenance in communities Nationwide.

 

 

            Also, when it comes to other issues, the President has to do a better job of keeping a solid group of people that will stay in Office without any issues.  The Presidential Election was marred with controversy.  There are some staff members that have been fired for reasons that pertain to the Presidential Election.  There are at least 295 Members of the House of Representatives that are Republican.  Within the past 3 months, there has been Cabinet Members who has retired or resigned because of sexual allegations.  There

 

            In Addition, The President of the United States will have to tour every major city in order to do an assessment for himself.  He will also have to maintain a strong Military and make certain that he has enough money to fund military personnel and to build aircraft that is comparable to Russia, China, and Japan.  When it comes to the Military, Russia has an aircraft that is much better than the F-18 in the United States.  This aircraft cannot be detected by radar.  Funding these things in order to compete with the largest military in the world is China. 

 

            Further, when it comes to tariffs, the United States will have to make sure that it is maintaining a 50/50 System.  Meaning that the United States will have to make sure that it is not receiving more goods and resources than it sending to other countries.  When it comes to agricultural commodities, Japan, China, and Russia are receiving more pork from the United States than any other country worldwide.  Foods that are going overseas are soybean, corn, pork, and wheat.  When it comes to steel products, the United States have an issue with China because the Chinese steel products are entering into the country for a cheaper rate, until the President decided to raise tariffs.

 

 

 

 

            Finally, The President’s Approval Rating has increased since January.  The upper class are satisfied with what the President is doing.  However, the middle class and poor are discontent because there are not enough being done in the inner city communities.  There are cities that has more hardship than others.  There are States in the United States that are impoverished than others.  When it comes to funding all together, it is really up to the States to provide for their people.  During the past 8 years, the States were responsible for paying Social Security premiums for its citizens.

 

            On June 3, 2010, the States had to pay Social Security Premiums to its recipients.  There are over 50,000,000 people in the United States who are receiving Social Security Benefits.  During the Trump Administration, there has been at least 2 Government Shutdowns.  There has been at least 3 people from the Trump Cabinet that has fired because of the Presidential Election.  The Russians are responsible for hacking into the mainframe computer system in the United States.  President Trump’s Lawyer had to submit papers, emails, and information concerning the 2016 Presidential Election. 

A Flower inside of a desert

A flower inside of the desert

A flower inside of a desert is very rare. A flower period is a plant that grows inside of any climate and inside of any environment. Flowers that are usually inside of a desert that I have seen are sunflowers, cactus, and various grasses. I know because I am allergic to timothy grass. This is grass that is grown in the Western Part of the United States. A sunflower is very beautiful. This is a flower that flourishes inside of conditions that are hot and sticky. This is also a sweet young lady to whom I can call a sunflower. I am the type of person that call women beautiful names such as sunshine, shining star, sunflower, and a shooting star. These names are positive because it enlightens them as well as myself that women are beautiful and unique.

A flower inside of a desert is not a bad thing. At least there is water right under its own roots. A cactus has water inside of it. A cactus has its own water that comes from the ground. Whenever it rains inside of a desert, I can say one thing, at least all of the flowers inside of a desert receives it natural resource. The natural resource that I am talking about is water. Remember water is the element that sustains life. Without water, how would anything that is a living being survive on earth? The sunflowers are very large in size. They remind me of a sunshine that is directly on the ground. However, it is in plant form. I might sound as if I am a botanist. A botanist is a person who studies plants, vegetation, and the environment at large.

Natural Resources are the water, oil, and anything that is derived from the earth itself. Resources tend to vary according to the needs of mankind. Other natural resources such as coal and natural gas are extremely important. A flower can become a resource if a person is desperate and in need of food. Do you know that plants, fruits, and certain vegetables can be eaten at anytime? For instance, pokeweed, blackberries, apples, peaches, and certain weeds that is located outdoors. An example of this is ragweed. Ragweed is used as a treatment for constipation. There are other weeds and certain fruits and vegetables that are used to treat certain ailments in the human body.

A flower inside of a desert is really varies according to species and location of the desert itself. If I were at a location in the Sahara, then I would have a really hard time trying to find a natural resource. Natural resources would be very hard to find. I would have to look very hard and for a very long period of time. Let’s also find out what are the types of animals, insects, and reptiles that an average person would find inside of a desert. A person would see a coyote, fox, and snakes such as a sidewinder, sand flies, a hare, vultures, eagles, desert rats, scorpions, ground spiders, and many other living creatures. I also would like to add that it is very hot inside of desert regions and they have extremely humid conditions.

My flower inside of a place of this magnitude will stimulate my curiosity. By picking it up or directly looking at it, would allow me to ask specific questions. I would ask what kind of flower is it? How does it look to me? What color is it? How can a flower like this benefit mankind? These are the questions that I would ask if I were to observe a flower that is inside of a desert.
I have a strong desire for things that pertain to the environment as well as an interest in human relationships. The reason why I am a person who has this interest is because as a child, I have always wondered what things are like inside of my surroundings. The definition of the word environment is one own usual surroundings. The definition of matter is anything that takes up space. A human being is a beautiful creation from God. When God created woman he created a good thing. God created a woman to accompany man. Women are very intelligent human beings.

I am happy to have a great deal of respect for women and the issues that they support. Just like Breast Cancer, men can develop breast cancer and they wouldn’t know if you have this dangerous disease. I support all women’s issues no matter what they are. It is the woman who keeps families together. There are more women that are raising children all by themselves a whole lot more than ever before. My mother had taken care of all nine of us all by herself. She has done a magnificent job.

In spite of all of the obstacles that came between me and my siblings, we survived as a family unit. I can call myself a survivor still. I have learned a whole lot from my mother, grandmother, grandfathers, and other elders who have raised me. Just remember we all were ovum that was located inside of the ovaries of our mothers. The father is the one who had utilized his sperm and therefore, an ovum was fertilized and life itself came into existence. This process takes 48 hours. The entire maturation process when it pertains to life itself takes 236 to 270 gestation days. This is nine calendar months. Sometimes this process takes longer for some expecting mothers. This depends on the health of the fetus or embryo itself.

To be honest, any flower that is indigenous to the country itself can be grown inside of the desert. For instance, there are flowers that are from the Orient that are grown inside of deserts in the United States. There are flowers and cactus that are grown inside of residential areas in the Southeastern United States and in the Midwestern part of the United States. There are certain types of poison ivy plants that are grown all over the United States. For instance, there are certain types of poison ivy that has been growing in the Ohio River Valley that comes from Coastal Virginia.

There are also certain types of plants that exists in the Southeastern United States that have been planted in North Carolina, Ohio, Michigan, Indiana, South Carolina, and Missouri. I am referring to the Magnolia Plants. I have also seen plants such as cactus in the Carolinas and in coastal regions along the Southeastern United States. There is type of grass that is here in the United States called Japanese Blood Grass. This type of grass looks like a fern but it causes serious allergy problems. The stems themselves turn red during the fall season. Japanese Blood Grass is common in the Carolinas and in the Ohio River Valley. My favorite flower is called daisies. I also like perennials and annuals as well. It is that I have allergies so I have to be very careful when it comes to dealing with plants and certain foods.

What does it mean to make amends with God and others?

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What does it mean to make amends with God and others?

            Hello Everyone!! I hope that everyone is having a good day today.  I would like to start this off by asking a very important question.  What does it mean to make amends with God and others?  An amends is when someone apologizes for a wrongdoing and change the behavior afterwards.  For instance, when a person commits a wrongdoing, a person is supposed to confer with God first and foremost.  Afterwards, repent for your sins and forgive yourself in the process.  Afterwards, you are supposed to apologize with anyone that you have done wrong to.  Saying I am sorry is really not enough.  You have to change your behavior for the better.

 An example of this is when I told my family members about my brother’s problems, without asking him first.  Some would say that I am a backbiter or a two faced person.  I did not have any business telling my brother’s problems to others.  This is because my brother is getting ready to have a total of 4 children.  I have told him that selling drugs will not pay the bills.  He will have to get a job and keep it for the rest of his life.

 

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 To be honest, I do not have any children because I know that I can barely take care of myself.  Therefore, I would prefer not to have sex with any woman, until we get married.  I would prefer to have a friendship with everyone, man or woman.  This is what I am supposed to do for the rest of my life.  An amends is when you are supposed to admit to your mistake, ask for forgiveness, rectify the wrong, and eventually change the behavior.  It takes a very long time to modify a specific behavior, and change it for the better.  I know that in my case, my family members are not the forgiving type of people.

 I have to ask God to intervene in this matter.  There are a few of my friends, who would rather not have anything to do with you.  When that happens, that is it and it is final with some people.  Some people do not know how to make amends with anyone, or with God the Father.  I also want to inform everyone that I have a brother right now that I really have not spoken to in 24 years.  It hurts me because he does not want anything to do with me.  It is his fault for calling me a female dog at my Great Grandmother’s funeral on August 19, 1994.

 It hurts me because I have to be the better person by apologizing to my brother for fighting him.  He did not understand that my Great Grandmother raised me, while my mother was being treated for Post-Partum Depression.  It also hurt me when my own father died.  I was not notified about him or his death.  I asked my Aunt, where was I during the time my father died?

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 I am hurt and devastated because I have not had a chance to resolve any of my active issues with anyone.  Currently, I am puzzled because I have not had a chance to resolve any of my active issues with everyone in my personal life.  I have a cousin who fought me for 9 years.  I am not at the liberty of mentioning his name because of confidentiality issues.  We fought each other as children and teenagers over petty issues.  My biological father is his father’s cousin.  My best friend is really my cousin because our fathers were brothers.  My family members do not really know it.  My own biological father was a light skin man.  I thought my father was fair skinned just like me.  It is going to take God to help me to resolve all of my active issues with each other.  For the moment, my brothers and sisters are not speaking to each other right now.  Please pray for me and my family members because we are not speaking to each other anymore.  Thank you for reading my blog.

 

Anthony HopkinsAmends