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Good Evening Everyone!!  I love you very much 💓. I love you because you first loved me.  In Jeremiah 1:5 says: Before I formed you in the womb, I knew you, before you were born I sanctified you and I ordained you as a prophet to the Nation’s.  I love you Lord Jesus because I want you to know that you are a real man.  I wish you were here with me.  I know that you are here inside of me.  Grace stands for God’s Riches at Christ Expense.  This means that Jesus Christ died for the sins of all of us.  I know that Jesus Christ is the Savior.  The only thing I can say that I am truly grateful for Jesus Christ saving me.  I love you Lord Jesus because you have saved me from myself.  I know that you will love me while, I am here on earth.  You will love me even if I am in heaven with you.  Everytime I mentioned your love, I start crying because it has taken me 32 years to get to this point of my life.

God is love for real.  I know that I am only a shadow right now.  Psalms 144:4 says: Man is like a breath and his days are a passing shadow.  Frankly, Lord Jesus, my whole body is in constant pain.  Lord Jesus, I am literally scared to die.  I know that whenever I fall asleep, I get scared because I stop breathing when I’m asleep.  I am a person who has a lot to learn in life.  I know that people are talking about me.  I have heard people saying that I smell very bad. The people who talk about me really don’t love me.  I know that these people do not know me personally.  It is okay because I love them anyway.

I really like this Bible verse because it says: For God has not given us a Spirit of fear, but of love, power, and of a sound mind.  Lord Jesus, I ask that you please give me eternal life.  Lord Jesus please save me and allow me to join you in heaven.  Lord Jesus, I am gaining weight again.  Lord Jesus, my whole body is in pain right now.  I have a Spine that is full of bone spurs.  My brothers and sisters forsake me.  My mother told me in advance that I am going to have problems with my own family members.  I love you for you.  I understand you Lord Jesus Christ because you have given me my life back.  God loves you even when He is correcting me.  I accept you as my friend and God.  God loves me when he is correcting me because God is looking at me.  Lord, I need you in my life.

Lord, you love me for the person that I am.  I only wish that I can see you face to face and man to man.  God allows us get punished by Him.  I really need you as my friend and Savior.  I know that I still love you very much.  I am being purified by you Lord Jesus.  I love you for blessing me with my College Education Credits.  I have earned 235 Credit Hours within a five year period.  I love you because you will love me even if I am with you in heaven.  I am proud to be your son.  Lord, my back hurts very bad.  I love you very much.  

Everyone who loves has been born of God & knows God.  Lord, I need to consult with a massage therapist.  If I can spend $80.00 per hour for therapy. .Lord God I need you to please massage my back.  Please allow my back to be healed.  I need your touch Lord God.  God, you are holding my breath in your Hands.  God you really want me to be better than I am doing right now.  Please keep me in your Hands.  

Lord, please help me to be a leader and not a follower.  I am a Doer of the Word rather than a heater only.   Lord Jesus, I love you.  Please forgive me of all of my sins, iniquities, and transgressions.  I want to feel your compassion.  I do really feel your compassion and empathy in my life.  I will always love you for you.

Mark 12:30-31 Meaning and Interpretation of The Bible Verse.  The Bible verse says: Love the Lord with all of Mind, with all of your Soul, with all of your Strength and Love your Neighbor as Yourself.  There is no commandment greater than these.  I want to start things off by saying that I love The Lord God with all of my heart, mind, soul, and strength.  I also love my neighbor as myself.  I first must love God first and foremost.  Then I am supposed to love other people and then myself.

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We all must be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to get angry.  This is the truth according to James 1:19.  I am saying this because I need to work on my own behavior.  I am a person who is 57 years old.  I am a Writer and a Blogger who loves to write about everything.  I am a Writer who takes my time writing essays and blogs.  I remember when I was in high school, I used to love English Classes and History.  I love all of my classes except math.  The reason why I didn’t like math is because of the Word problems that it contains.  I did very well in Spelling and Military Science and Government Classes.  I am a person who loves structure.  I used to go to school with two black eyes from fist fighting with my stepfather.  I remember going to my homeroom class and everyone in class were shocked because my parents used to beat me up every single day of the week.  I remember when my stepfather put my head inside of a hot stove.  He did this because I ate a biscuit that was on top of the stove.  My stepfather became belligerent and sarcastic in nature.  Everytime I mentioned it people tend to ask me a lot of questions.  This is the reason why I fought my own stepfather; when I was 20 years old.  I had to save my little brother from harm and danger.  I guess you can say that I was the black sheep and the scapegoat at the same exact time.  I know that I have been physically, mentally, and emotionally abused by everyone whom I was in contact with.  You know something, I have learned to stay away from home because of the abuse.from.my stepfather and mother.  My mother used to beat me up with a closed fist.  My mother used to beat my stepfather up all of the time.  Everytime I write about my past, people were scared of my stepfather.  This is because he was a raging alcoholic.  My stepfather beat me up more than the other children.  I love my family members and friends more than they love me.  Anyone can see the anguish on my face because I was in a dysfunctional family household.

Good Afternoon Everyone!  How are you doing today?  Fine, I hope.  I would like to read Psalms 33:15.  It says: From His throne God observes all who live on the earth.  He Made THEIR HEARTS, SO HE UNDERSTANDS EVERYTHING THEY DO.  I BELIEVE GOD IS BLESSING ME TO BECOME A MINISTER OF SOME SORT.  I REALLY DON’T KNOW RIGHT NOW.  I am saying that I don’t know because my plans have changed over the years.  I know that I love to write and read the entire Bible.  To be honest with everyone, I hear women laughing at me all of the time.  Honestly, I have never heard God’s Voice before in my entire 57 years of existence.  I know that the Holy Spirit is inside of me.  I have done wrong for the past 45 years ago. I am a person who has the Holy Spirit.  I am listening to God’s Word through the mouth of an anointed person.  If I am listening to Dr. Creflo Dollar, Dr. Tony Evans and T.D. Jakes.  I am trying to get to God’s Perspective.  I know that I was Baptized on Sunday February 15, 2015.  I have been saved for 8 years now.

Next, I want to inform all of you that I have suffered from depression for the past 26 years now.  God is looking at me from heaven and God is saying that I need to give the anointing a chance.  I ask God to help me with my problem with doubt.  I am taking a total of 28 pills each day.  I have been clean and sober for 32 years now.  It is God, who is doing all of the work.  You see what I am telling you that I am a Work in Progress.  I am a person who is very nice, considerate, and honest.  I have been through a lot of adversity in my life.

Further, I need to shine God’s Light in my life.  You know something, I feel very tired a lot.  I really don’t have any energy to do certain things.  I really need God to fashion my heart individually.  I also need God to consider all of my works.  I admit that I have been hearing voices for 13 years now.  The voices that I hear each day are not the Holy Spirit.  At least I recognize the Holy Spirit from a demonic spirit.  The demonic spirit use vulgarity all of the time.  A demonic spirit talk with a flattering voice.  I know that God has been in my life for 57 years now.  I am a Born Again Christian.  I am very happy that God is watching me.  He is always protecting me Himself.  

Finally, I am a very good person.  I know God for myself.  I am very happy that God has consider me for Himself.  God knows that I am very humble and gifted.  I love the Lord God for myself.  I have to allow God to help me to lose weight very quickly.  I need to go see an endocrinologist because I suffer from diabetes type 2.  God is a loving God.  He accepted me and He has known me from my mother’s womb.  Before God formed me in the womb, God knew me, He sanctified me and ordained me as a prophet to the Nations.  God knows that I will struggle with life and with God. God still loves me for the person that I am.  I love you Lord Jesus.  I love all people.  I thank God for everyone else who are in my life.  

Proverbs 23:20 says: Be not winebibbers, among riotous eaters of flesh.  First of All, I want to say that I have been clean and sober for 32 years now.  I used to drink Wild Irish Rose Wine and Night train wine for a total of 18 years.  I really didn’t know that the Bible says that we cannot be among riotous eaters of flesh.  I know that we are not supposed to be gluttonous.  I will admit that I weigh 306 pounds right now.  I have been eating more at night than during the day.  At night, I have been hearing voices for a total of 13 years now.  The voices that I hear are females laughing at me all night long.  There are times when I hear voices of men.  I guess that Valentine Day coming up next month.  This is the reason why I hear voices during this time of year.  I want everyone to please pray for me and my family members.  I love all of my family members very much.  I love them; more than they love me.

Next, I want to say that I have changed my lifestyle and the way that I eat food.  I have been skinny all of my life until the year 2000.  I weigh 301 pounds and I was taking a medication called Depakote.  I took that medicine for seizures and Schizophrenia.  I know that I have gained 85 pounds in one year.  I remember weighing 215 pounds when I first started taking this medication.  I lost a total of 110 pounds by swimming and eating more vegetables and fruit.  I had to consult with a psychiatrist on a monthly basis.  I also have to change my way of thinking.  This is because I wasn’t thinking clearly during the past 23 years.  My attitude about life changed for the better right now.  I have low Testosterone Levels right now.  This is the reason why I cannot lose weight like I want to.  My testosterone levels are 303 and that is considered as very low testosterone.  I really need a lot of support and prayers because I need to lose 158 pounds right now.  I have to eat more vegetables and take a laxative on a regular basis.  I need to go swimming at least three times per week.  Swimming is an excellent exercise for the human body.  I have to start moving like my former supervisor told me to do each day.  Even though I used to eat a lot of pizza and I didn’t care about myself.  If I can stop drinking beer and alcohol.  Then, I know that I can do all things through Christ Who Strengthens me.

Finally, I want to say that I have a lot to do within the next few months.  I have to give myself away.  I am ready to serve God.  I am ready to carry the Cross for Jesus Christ.  I am ready to help other people and to be willing and honest with myself and with God.  I have to allow the Holy Spirit to direct me and guide me for the rest of my life.  Thank you Lord for saving me and blessing me with my breath of life.  I need to get back to my normal weight.  Please help me everyone!!  I need all of you to help me.

What does the Bible says about obesity?  I am a person who does not like to eat as a means of comfort.  I will admit to taking 28 prescription medications per day.  The medication that is causing me some problems is Zyprexa because it is an anti psychotic medication.  I take this medication because I hear voices that other people don’t hear.  I see things that other people do not see.  Therefore, I am having visual and auditory hallucinations.  The medication increases my appetite.  I have gained a total of 38 pounds within a three month period.  I will admit that I eat more at night than during the day.  The voices are more active at night than during the day.  I can control what goes inside of my mouth.  I will admit that I suffer from low testosterone levels.  My sluggishness is causing me to sleep a lot. I sleep over 12 hours per day.  It is better to take the medicine rather than hearing voices all night long.  This is the reason why I have everyone that I know to please pray for me.  I take 14 pills in the morning and another 14 pills at night.

I want to inform all of you that I am not giving to an appetite.  I do not put a knife on my throat every single day of the week.  My problem is medicine and nothing else.  If I feel like eating then I will eat.  Eating foods are not my motivation to become an obese man.  I have been hearing voices for 13 years now.  I have been clean and sober for 32 years now.  I have been suffering from Schizoid Affective Disorder for 27 years now.  I also suffer from Schizophrenia for 26 years now.  I have been hospitalized with a mental illness for 27 years now.  This is the reason why I am telling everyone to please pray for me.  Like they say prayer changes things.  Although I am still hearing voices, but it is not as bad as it used to be.  Thank you for keeping it real with me.  I want to say God Bless You All!!  I love you for you.  Please continue to pray for my family members and friends.  

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Based on your score, you have revolutionary ideas and a strong need for independence. You live life on your own terms, and you never hesitate to take a hard stand in the face of strong opposition. Your motto is: “Human progress has always been driven by a sense of adventure and unconventional thinking.”

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Greetings and Salutations Everyone!!  How are you doing today?  Fine, I hope.  I would like to start things off by informing all of you that I have a physical problem that only God can address.  I suffer from incontinence.  This is simply because I am taking water pills to release fluid that I have on my feet and legs.  I want to inform everyone that I weigh 303 pounds.  This is because I am taking a medication to deal with Schizoid Affective Disorder.

Next, I am taking Zyprexa right now, and this medication has caused me to gain 28 pounds within a two month period.  I understand that people take medicine to deal with all types of ailments.  Right Now, I am taking a total of 28 pills per day.  I know that this is something that should have been addressed a very long time ago.  It’s just that I am allowing God to heal me. This is because medication cannot address this issue.  I know that there are infomercials stating that a certain drug can resolve certain active issues.

In Addition, as far as my type of medical problem, medicine cannot help me.  If the Food and Drug Administration can approve a pill for Schizoid Affective Disorder, I will be glad to take it.  However, my medical issues has not been resolved.  This is the reason why I am relying on a Power that is greater than myself to help me with all of my medical problems.

Finally, I have viewed only two Bible verses that speaks about my physical problem.  I want to say that this will be a very good year for me because I know that God is with me.  If I can finish school with earning two college degrees, then I have accomplished my goals at that time.  Right now, I am optimistic about my future. Thank you for reading my essay.  God Bless You and Happy New Year!!

Do You Appreciate Yourself?

Do You Appreciate Yourself?  This is a very good question that I should ask myself each day.  Whenever I examine myself I ask God first, and then myself.  I want to say that I really appreciate myself every single day.  I am asking everyone this question.  For me personally, I really appreciate myself because I know that I am not in this world alone.  I appreciate myself for the better.  The very first thing that I do each day is have a conversation with God.  I use greetings and Salutations to Him.  I start things off by saying Good Morning Lord Jesus.  How are you doing today?  Fine, I hope.  I also tell God that I thank you for your precious breath of life.  I appreciate myself because I am fearfully and wonderfully made.  There was a period in my personal life that I didn’t appreciate myself.  What are some good things that you can say about yourself?  I can answer this question by saying that I love the Lord Jesus Christ.  He first loved me for accepting everything that other people do not understand.  I am a very nice person.  I am a person, who has a lot of common sense.  I am a person, who loves nature.  I am a person who loves people.  I am a person who is very proud to be alive.  On Saturday February 13, 2010, I tried to kill myself.  I did this by taking all of my medicine at one time.  I remember when I was having an online relationship with a woman who did not love me or understand me as a person.  I tried to kill myself because of my failed online relationship.  If it wasn’t for my sister calling the police on me, I would have perished.  My sister is no longer here with me, but I can say that she saved my life.  God told me that it was not my time to come to heaven.  Therefore, God and my sister saved my life.  Even though I had to stay a total of 6 days inside of Miami Valley Hospital.  God has given me a second chance at life.  I appreciate myself because I am very positive.  I am a person who enjoys writing essays and blogs.  I am a person who enjoy the comfort of having animals in my life.

Next, I am a person who loves to stay active.  If I am active in the community, I am very happy.  Do You Appreciate Yourself?  Yes, I love God, other people, and then myself.  Proverbs 19:8 says: He that getteth wisdom loveth his own soul: He that keepeth understanding shall find good.  The reason why I used this Bible verse is because I am a person who seeks and get wisdom and knowledge that comes from God.  God has put up with all of my mess for the past 57 years now.  God has sent His own Son to earth just to save the world and humanity itself.  Jesus Christ died for my sins, so that I can have a relationship with God Himself.  According to Isaiah 59:2 it says that our sins have separated us from God.  I really appreciate myself because it is the Holy Spirit that is inside of me that is doing all of the work.

Also, I am very happy to be a Child of the Most High God.  I know that I have made a lot of mistakes in my 57 year journey.  I have been fired from jobs because of my personal behavior.  I still love myself because I have had numerous of chances to get it right.  I will admit that I suffer from Schizoid Affective Disorder and Schizophrenia. I know that many people have decided to terminate my friendship with them because of my negative behavior.  I know that I have a lot of physical, mental, and emotional challenges that I am dealing with right now.  I really appreciate myself because I am a very honest person.  During my previous relationship, I will admit that I was hiding my mental illness from other people.  I will admit that there were periods of time when I was a very dishonest person.  It has taken a relationship departure to change me for the better.  God told me that I have thrown my blessings out of the window.  When you throw your blessings out the window, you give up on life all together.  I have not tossed anything out of the window ever since 2007.  For the past few years, I have written two books.  The first book is called My Grace is Sufficient for Me.  The second one is called Essays by Anthony Joseph Hopkins.  My purpose of writing my books and essays is to cope with Schizoid Affective Disorder.  I have written over 1500 essays and blogs for the past 15 years now.  I have a total of 16 Copyright Manuscripts at the Library of Congress Copyright Office located in Downtown Washington DC.  

Finally, I have a profound appreciation for life right now.  I love God, other people, and then myself.  Do You Appreciate Yourself? Yes, I appreciate myself a lot.  I have a wonderful relationship with God.  I have repaired my fractured relationship with my family members.  I have made peace with my family.  I am more responsible right now than I have been in the year 2008.  The very first thing that I do is pay my rent and bills before I can do anything else.  I have been clean and sober for 32 years now.  My attitude about life has really changed for the better.  God loved me before I was even born.  God loves you and so do I.  Thank you for reading my essay.