This Month of August 2022 is Half Way Gone!!  By Anthony Joseph Hopkins August 18, 2022

     This month is almost over.  It is August 18, 2022.  I have spent most of this month inside of the hospital.  I had a Breakthrough Seizure.  I will admit that a Breakthrough Seizure is not very easy to deal with.  I have been taking my medications as prescribed by the doctor.

     Next, I want to inform all of you that I am out of shape at the moment.  I know that it has not been easy dealing with seizures in general.  This means that I have electricity inside of my brain.  I have gained 13 pounds in 4 weeks.  I also will admit that I am taking 28 prescription medications.  I know that one thing is that these medications are causing me to sleep entirely too much.

     Further, I want to inform all of you that it is not easy dealing with sicknesses.  I have to start getting back into shape.  I want to inform all of you that I am gaining too much weight.  The weight gain is causing me to slow down tremendously.

     Moreover, I have a brother and a cousin that birthdays are coming up next week.  I wish my brother and cousin the best of days.  I really love spending so much time with my family.  My family is very important to me.  I have been hanging in there at the present time.

     In Addition, I have to go back to the hospital next week.  I have been trying to put things into a better perspective in my life.  I am doing this by spending time with God in prayer.  I have been sleeping entirely too much.  I have been going to bed before 8:00PM.  I wake up around 5:00AM to take my morning medications.

     Frankly, I have been sad and depressed as of late.  I know that my life has not been easy to deal with.  The sun might be outside right now, but I have been feeling dismal at the moment.  I have been happy inside, and sad on the outside.  This means that I am feeling borderline depressed.  As long as God is with me, I should not feel this way. 

     Finally, I want to inform all of you that I am feeling much better than I felt last week.  Do you know that for the first few days inside of the hospital, I had to use a walker to walk with?  It seems like whenever I have a seizure or a stroke, I lose my ability to walk.  I want to also say that this month has came by so quickly that time waits on anyone.

     In Conclusion, I want to allow everyone to please keep me in your prayers.   I have been trying to take care of myself as best that I know how.  This month has come and gone so quickly.  Sooner or later, it will get cold again.  This means that I will be spending most of my time inside of the house.  I have to wear a coat again very soon.  My family members and friends are concerned about me right now. 

     Subsequently, I have to purchase a brand-new wardrobe.  I also need shoes and a very decent coat to wear.  I know that I am a 57-year-old man, who is intelligent, bright, gifted, and honest.  I am a person who has a lot of common sense.  I am a person who has come a very long way academically.  

 I used to attend school and there were times when I did not go to school at all.  I have to take my time with every single task.  I have to start walking inside of my neighborhood.  I know that my neighborhood is rough at the moment.  I love all of you.  I love Jesus Christ.  I love God the Father.  I love people as a whole.  I would like to start praying in the morning, and read my Bible every single day of the week.  I have been reading inside of the Book of Job, Psalms, Proverbs, and Lamentations.  It is a start!!  I read the Books of John and Romans as well.I love all of God’s Creation.  I love people very much.  I love animals very much.  I love everything that God has created.  I know that this month of August is almost over.  I have to literally prepare myself for another winter.  God has been blessing me each day of the week.  God Bless All of You!!

John 14:1 And What It Means to All People?
By: Anthony Joseph Hopkins February 27, 2021

John 14:1 is a very interesting Bible verse. It says Let not your heart be troubled: ye believe in God, believe also in me. When I think of this Bible verse, it comforts me. This is simply because God does not want any of us to be in trouble. The word troubled means mildly disturbed or distracted.

Next, I want to say to everyone that God loves you. God will not put anything on you that you cannot bear. It reminds me of the Bible verse that pertains to temptation. I know that my life has consisted of ups and downs. I have made my bed, and I have lain on top of it. Let’s look at this Bible verse for a moment. The first sentence says let not your heart be troubled. What does this mean to you? For me personally, God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of love, power, and of a sound mind. This is 2nd Timothy 1:7; When we fear, we sin against God.
Further, I want to inform all of you that I used to fear all people. When I was a child, I used to get beat up all of the time by the boy that stayed across the alley from me. I cannot mention his name because it would become a conflict of interest, and I can get into trouble. However, I used to fight my own family members as well. I have always lost all of my fights.
Moreover, I want to say that I have lost all of my fights because I was scared of everyone. I used to be scared of my own sister. I do recall winning some of my fights. Its that I suffered from stage fright. The definition of stage fright is: nervousness felt at appearing before an audience. The word fright means 1: fear excited by sudden danger: alarm gave me quite a fright. 2: something strange, ugly, or shocking. fright. verb. frighted; frighting; frights.

Currently, I do not have nothing to lose right now. I would prefer walking away from all of my confrontations. I am too emotional to do anything right now. I know that God is watching all of us.In Conclusion, I want to inform everyone that I am a God-Fearing Man. I know that I am powerless over people, places, and things. This is the truth!! The only person that I have power over is no one but myself. At least, I am able to control my emotions. My life at this time is very intriguing. For instance, I attend Church every week. I go to the library at least once per week. I write essays about the Lord. I write essays about what the Lord has done for me in my life. I really love people, animals, anl Please take care of yourselves, and stay safe!!

Another word for stage fright is Find another word for stage-fright. In this page you can discover 14 synonyms, antonyms, idiomatic expressions, and related words for stage-fright, like: freeze, spastic aphonia, aphonia, aphonia clericorum, aphonia paralytica, aphonia paranoica, bashfulness, buck-fever, butterflies, flop sweat and hysterical aphonia. To be honest, I used to be afraid of doing things in front of other people. I even got scared during my first amateur boxing match. I also will admit that I was scared when I was in jail on June 21, 1985.
In Addition, I was so scared of women as well as men. I do understand when a person defends themselves during a confrontation. In my case, I am a type of person who does not like to fight anyone. It will have to be in some extreme cases if I get into a fist fight with anyone. Therefore, my heart has been troubled numerous of times in my 55 years of existence. Naturally, I will not fight anyone. I would rather walk away.
Finally, when it comes to the sentence Let not your heart be troubled, to me it means that I have to allow God to fight all of my battles. This is because I actually cannot fight, but I will defend myself if necessary. I know how to box, but I would rather allow God to fight all of my battles. I will admit that I am literally scared of women. In a way, I guess, I am a big softie!! There are times when I will defend myself. As long as it is absolutely necessary.

The Holy Spirit vs Mankind

            The purpose of this blog is to try to help those who understand God, and who has the Holy Spirit inside of us.  Mankind believes in the things of man.  I know that it is not very easy for any of us to understand God.  I want to inform all of you that this is a battle between good vs evil.  I would like to tell everyone that Mankind only lives in the moment.  Romans 8:9 says you, however, are not in the realm of the flesh but are in the realm of the Spirit, if indeed the Spirit of God lives in you. And if anyone does not.  This means that God dwells inside of us.  There are those who do not believe that they have God inside of them.  Do you know that every time I type a blog, I usually start crying because it is God who is inside of me convicts me of all of my sins and forms of unrighteousness?

Romans 12:2 says do not conform to the patterns of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. God is responsible for changing me for the better.  I still have a long way to go when it comes to my character.  I know that I have a problem with people who are sarcastic and rebellious.  The Lord has forgiven me.  It is Jesus who is doing for me, more than I am doing for myself.  The dove represents peace.  It also represents the Holy Spirit.  Mankind thinks of doves as just birds. 

          The Holy Spirit is our Helper.  It guides us to the point where it gives us direction in advance.  Mankind perceives the Helper as something that does not exist.  I want to inform all of you that I am the type of person who loves God; a whole lot.  If anyone gets sarcastic with me, I am prone to retaliate.  The Lord is one who gives us grace and love in our personal lives.

 The Helper is located in the 14^th Chapter in the 26^th verse but theThe Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, He will teach you all things, and bring to your remembrance all that I said to.  Glory means that you want your life to be like God. According to Mankind, man places more emphasis on holidays and other things rather than God.  Mankind always makes decisions that goes against God.  Mankind always does the things of the world for their own gratification.  Man goes against God Isaiah 59:2.

 Man tends to make decisions to always stray away from God.  The Holy Spirit grieves while inside of man.  Romans 8:26 says we do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. New Living Translation and the Holy Spirit helps us in our weakness. For example, we don’t know what God wants us to pray for. But the Holy Spirit prays for us with groanings that cannot be expressed in words.  The Holy Spirit dwells inside of us for the rest of our lives.  However, God will let you live all by yourself in a reprobate mind when it comes to Romans 1:28-32.

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Romans 11:27: And What it Means to all people.  By Anthony Joseph Hopkins June 25, 2021

        Romans 11:27 says; For this is my covenant unto them, when I shall take away their sins.  This means that we are operating under a brand-new covenant.  A covenant is an agreement between God and mankind.  He shall take away their sins.  Only God and Jesus Christ, the son who died for the sins of all mankind.  Only God shall forgive all of our sins.  I thank God for allowing me to see my 56^th Birthday yesterday. 

Although I was sick earlier in this week, I thank God for allowing me to feel better from constipation.  I also want to thank God for allowing my baby brother to live after suffering from a heart attack yesterday as well.  I thank you Lord Jesus for saying the serenity prayer to a young lady, who was grieving over the death of her Uncle as well.  I thank you Lord Jesus for allowing me to type this essay today. 

Next, I want to thank you Lord Jesus and the Father God for being with me throughout my journey.  I want to say that Jesus is the Mediator between God and man.  I know that I pray every single day.  I also attend Church as well.  Lord Jesus, I need a miracle in my life right now.  I am still sick from being constipated for the past 4 days.  I am happy that you have saved me from my sickness.  I also thank you for saving my little brother. 

Moreover, to all of the stress that I had to deal with in my own family.  I thank you for allowing me to cover my sins.  Lord Jesus, when it comes to sin, only you are able to save the entire world.  Lord Jesus, I love you very much.  I thank you for loving me all of my entire life.  I thank you Lord for being there for all of my family members, friends, and for those that I do not know.  I want to thank you for saving me from myself, and protecting me from all harm.  Dear Lord Jesus, please save the Cab Driver’s father right now.  He is in a coma at Grandview Hospital in Dayton, Ohio.

 Lord, please heal her and her family members.  Lord Jesus, please save all of the residents of the Miami Florida Condominium.  So far at least 4 people died yesterday into today after rescue efforts for the missing people.

Finally, I want to thank you Lord Jesus for saving me.  I thank you for saving my brother yesterday from his heart attack.  Lord Jesus, I thank you for allowing me to live 56 years on earth.  I might not now who my father is right now, but I have a loving family and friends who love me for me.  Lord Jesus, I want to thank you for saving all of us out of our slumber.

  Lord Jesus, you are the mediator between God and mankind.  I love you very much.  I will not forget what you have done for me in my entire life.  You also saved me from all of my enemies and from my own health problems.  Thank you for keeping it real with me for 55 years of living. 

A New Spirit vs The World

        A New Spirit vs The World is a comparison and contrast paper consisting of things from a Biblical perspective.  First, I would like to say that I am a Born- Again Christian, who is 7 years old.  My Chronological age is 57.  This means that I have been living in the world for a half century.  I have emphasized the Bible verse in Ezekiel 36:25-27 simply because God has given me a new heart, and He has cleansed me from all forms of unrighteousness.  I also asked the Lord to give me a brand- new heart, and remove my heart of stone that I have possessed for 50 years.

        Second, I want to say that the world does not have anything to offer, but more immorality.  I want to mention that I have done things that were very bad.  I will admit that I have broken promises and did things that were bad inside of the eyes of God.  For Instance, I have taken drugs for a period of my life.  I will tell you that Satan is the Prince of the Powers of the air.

        Third, I want to say that Romans 12:2 has been emphasized because I was responsible for conforming to the patterns of the world.  I will admit that I used to go inside of the streets in my hometown of Dayton, Ohio and glorified the women who were inside of nightclubs.  To put all of this together, I would like to say that the world belongs to Satan and his demonic spirits who were kicked out of heaven.

       Fourth, I would like to say that I have been confused at one point in my life and perhaps blind inside of my eyes and mind by Satan for 50 years.  I walked around lost and I will admit to be spiritually blind as well.  I am happy that God has saved me from myself and others.  The Lord has been good to me for over 7 years now. 

I know that this world will mess you up completely, and it will cause you to run directly to God.  I am very happy to be saved by the Blood of Jesus Christ.  Jesus Christ has shed His Blood for me and my fellow believers.  I am the type of person who used to rationalize, and try my very best to justify why I did and did not do things wrong.  Therefore, I used to lie, cheat, deceive others, and steal if necessary.  Those are some of the things that I have done in my personal past.  Right now, I tell the truth about everything.

        Fifth, I want to say that I believe in the Biblical and the Post- Modern Jesus at the same exact time.  I am still learning things about myself that God is giving me understanding, wisdom, knowledge, and common sense.  I am very happy that I am attending Church on a regular basis.  The world does not have anything to offer me, but more sin.  I have to make the proper adjustments in my -overall behavior through the help of my personal Savior Jesus Christ.

        The World only have karma, many other Gods, and plenty of money to try to persuade you to join.  The world will make you think that life is good without Jesus Christ.  I want to inform everyone that when I was living inside of the world, I was easing God out of my life.  I know that I still have a very long way to go when it comes to my journey in Christ Jesus.  I love all of God’s creation.  I want to say to everyone to please come to Jesus Christ because He is the way, truth, and the life. 

        Jesus Christ is the only way.  I will always believe in things that are pleasing to God.  I think Godly and forgive others whenever they hurt me.  I also do things that are pleasing to God.  I do my very best to change my overall behavior. 

        Finally, I want to say to everyone please pray for me because I suffer from multiple health problems.  The reason why I suffer from all of these problems because I was running to the hospital all of the time; when things got difficult.  I was running away from all of my problems; even if it is all of my fault.  I ran away from all of my problems until it was time for me to redeem myself.  I would like for everyone to please pray for my hometown of Dayton, Ohio because a total of 15 tornadoes came through and done a lot of damage to certain parts of my hometown.  This took place on Memorial Day of 2019.  I love all of you!!

Anthony Hopkins

July 5, 2022

During the Past Four Weeks!!  By Anthony Joseph Hopkins August 17, 2022

     During the past four weeks, I have been inside of the hospital.  I suffer from Breakthrough Seizures.  I was hospitalized at Grandview Hospital.  I had a seizure on August 3, 2022.  It was on a Wednesday morning.  I want to inform everyone that I just got finished taking a bath and all of a sudden, I ended up having a seizure inside of the bathroom.

     Next, I want to inform all of you that I have to be very careful at the moment.  I want to also mention that I have been taking 28 prescription medications for the past 5 years.  I have suffered a total of 9 seizures during the past 5 years.  I know that some of the medications are too strong for me right now.

     Further, I have been taking a medication called Aptiom.  It is a 400mg Medication that is supposed to help with seizures.  It is in the same family of medications as Tegretol.  This medication helps me to relax and sleep.  I know that my family members and friends are very concerned because I am taking too much medication during the day.

     In Addition, I want to let everyone know that I was hospitalized in Cincinnati, Ohio for at least a week and a half.  I know that this place was a new hospital in the Cincinnati Area.  It is different compared to other places that I was hospitalized during a 12-year period.  I will admit that I suffer from Schizoid Affective Disorder.

     Moreover, I have been taking it easy as of late.  I know that I suffer from Type 2 Diabetes.  It is simply because I weigh 277 pounds right now.  The medication Zyprexa has caused me to gain 10 pounds in 4 weeks.  Some of the medications that people take for depression can cause a person to gain a lot of weight within a short period of time.

     I remember taking a medication called Depakote from 1997-2001.  I gained a total of 86 pounds in almost 4 years.  I was taking Depakote for seizures and depression together.  I was responsible for taking 3600 mg per day.  My Neurologist at the time discontinued the medication because I ended up suffering from fatty liver disease.

     Also, I was taking a medication called Risperdal as well.  I want to inform all of you that I ended up weighing over 300 pounds from Tuesday July 15, 1997 to Friday January 21, 2001.

 The doctor stopped me from taking the medication because I ended up with Hepatitis B.  I could not believe it.  I had a very serious liver problem.  I did not know that I had Hepatitis B.  I also had Tuberculosis as well.  I have had a lot of health problems.  There are diseases that you can contract from sex.  I had to be very careful.  I could not have sex for at least one year.

Subsequently, I had to lose 115 pounds by going on a strict diet.  I had to walk every single day of the week.  I had to drink plenty of water just to stay hydrated.  I had to eat salads and stay away from fast foods for at least 2 years.

 I worked at the United Parcel Service in Charlotte, NC.  I went to work from 5:00PM-10:00PM Monday through Friday.  I worked at the job for almost 6 months.  I also worked at a Bank Called First Citizens Bank in Charlotte, NC for 9 months.  I also worked at the United States Census Bureau in Charlotte, NC.  I worked at the Census Bureau as an Enumerator.  I was earning $13,26 per hour.  I worked 36 hours per week.

Frankly, I really loved working as an Enumerator because I was getting paid $510 dollars every Wednesday Afternoon.  I really love earning that much money.  However, the past four weeks was very stressful because my blood pressure was 220/110/140.  I almost had another stroke.  My medication did not work for me because I have two cysts inside of my Frontal Lobe of my brain.  One of them is a mucous cyst and the other cyst was caused by a foreign object that is lodged inside of my brain.

My Frontal Lobe inside of my brain has shrunk considerably since 2001.  This is the reason why I am having problems with my Short-Term Memory inside of my brain.  I still continue to have seizures.  My medication was not working for me during that time.  Currently, I am taking so much medication that my doctor stated that I am a High Medication Risk.  This means that I am apt to suffer from a stroke or a massive heart attack.  I know that my weight has been up and down during the past 20 years.

 I have to monitor my blood sugar as well.  I want all of you to please keep me in your prayers.  I have to have surgery on my eyes on Tuesday September 6, 2022 at Grandview Hospital in Dayton, Ohio.  My surgery will begin at 3:00PM-6:30PM.  I am having surgery for Glaucoma.  I have really high eye pressure.  This is the reason for the surgery.  At this time, I have to continue to take my medication at all times.

Finally, I am taking it easy because my medication is not working because my eye pressures are too high right now.  I do have to make sure that I am eating healthy right now.  I have to avoid coffee and caffeine drinks as well.  I know that I still have to take frequent walks during the week.  I have to really get myself back in shape physically and mentally.  I know that I still have to throw away my belongings due to bedbugs that are inside of the Apartment Complex.  I have to keep reading my Bible each day of the week.  I have to keep attending church on a weekly basis.

In Conclusion, I have to do a whole lot better than I have been doing because I am out of shape physically and mentally. I need to monitor all of my physical activities.  I need to watch my stress levels as well.  I have entirely too much fluid inside of my eyes and heart right now.  This is the reason why I have been taking Lasik Water Pills.  I lost over 30 pounds in three months.  The water pills send me to the restroom every 15 minutes.

In Summary, I want all of you to know that I have to really get my life back in gear.  I know that I am only 5’ 11” and I weigh almost 280 pounds.  I have to do something fast.  I have to slow my life completely down.  I am getting older by the year.  I really feel it.  My bones are getting fragile.  I am not as strong as I used to be.  God Bless All of You!!  God Loves You and So Do I!!

Dear God, my heart’s desire is to live out the example you set for us, in the form of your Son, Jesus Christ. I desire to love my neighbors, my family, and even strangers the same way Christ loved all men and women without expecting anything in return. I desire to not be interested in what I get in return, but in what I was able to give. Lord, I ask that you help me enact this love in my everyday life. In Jesus’ name, I pray. Amen.

During the Past Four Weeks!!  By Anthony Joseph Hopkins August 17, 2022

     During the past four weeks, I have been inside of the hospital.  I suffer from Breakthrough Seizures.  I was hospitalized at Grandview Hospital.  I had a seizure on August 3, 2022.  It was on a Wednesday morning.  I want to inform everyone that I just got finished taking a bath and all of a sudden, I ended up having a seizure inside of the bathroom.

     Next, I want to inform all of you that I have to be very careful at the moment.  I want to also mention that I have been taking 28 prescription medications for the past 5 years.  I have suffered a total of 9 seizures during the past 5 years.  I know that some of the medications are too strong for me right now.

     Further, I have been taking a medication called Aptiom.  It is a 400mg Medication that is supposed to help with seizures.  It is in the same family of medications as Tegretol.  This medication helps me to relax and sleep.  I know that my family members and friends are very concerned because I am taking too much medication during the day.

     In Addition, I want to let everyone know that I was hospitalized in Cincinnati, Ohio for at least a week and a half.  I know that this place was a new hospital in the Cincinnati Area.  It is different compared to other places that I was hospitalized during a 12-year period.  I will admit that I suffer from Schizoid Affective Disorder.

    Moreover, I have been taking it easy as of late.  I know that I suffer from Type 2 Diabetes.  It is simply because I weigh 277 pounds right now.  The medication Zyprexa has caused me to gain 10 pounds in 4 weeks.  Some of the medications that people take for depression can cause a person to gain a lot of weight within a short period of time.

      I remember taking a medication called Depakote from 1997-2001.  I gained a total of 86 pounds in almost 4 years.  I was taking Depakote for seizures and depression together.  I was responsible for taking 3600 mg per day.  My Neurologist at the time discontinued the medication because I ended up suffering from fatty liver disease.

     Also, I was taking a medication called Risperdal as well.  I want to inform all of you that I ended up weighing over 300 pounds from Tuesday July 15, 1997 to Friday January 21, 2001.

 The doctor stopped me from taking the medication because I ended up with Hepatitis B.  I could not believe it.  I had a very serious liver problem.  I did not know that I had Hepatitis B.  I also had Tuberculosis as well.  I have had a lot of health problems.  There are diseases that you can contract from sex.  I had to be very careful.  I could not have sex for at least one year.

Subsequently, I had to lose 115 pounds by going on a strict diet.  I had to walk every single day of the week.  I had to drink plenty of water just to stay hydrated.  I had to eat salads and stay away from fast foods for at least 2 years.

 I worked at the United Parcel Service in Charlotte, NC.  I went to work from 5:00PM-10:00PM Monday through Friday.  I worked at the job for almost 6 months.  I also worked at a Bank Called First Citizens Bank in Charlotte, NC for 9 months.  I also worked at the United States Census Bureau in Charlotte, NC.  I worked at the Census Bureau as an Enumerator.  I was earning $13,26 per hour.  I worked 36 hours per week.

Frankly, I really loved working as an Enumerator because I was getting paid $510 dollars every Wednesday Afternoon.  I really love earning that much money.  However, the past four weeks was very stressful because my blood pressure was 220/110/140.  I almost had another stroke.  My medication did not work for me because I have two cysts inside of my Frontal Lobe of my brain.  One of them is a mucous cyst and the other cyst was caused by a foreign object that is lodged inside of my brain.

My Frontal Lobe inside of my brain has shrunk considerably since 2001.  This is the reason why I am having problems with my Short-Term Memory inside of my brain.  I still continue to have seizures.  My medication was not working for me during that time.  Currently, I am taking so much medication that my doctor stated that I am a High Medication Risk.  This means that I am apt to suffer from a stroke or a massive heart attack.  I know that my weight has been up and down during the past 20 years.

 I have to monitor my blood sugar as well.  I want all of you to please keep me in your prayers.  I have to have surgery on my eyes on Tuesday September 6, 2022 at Grandview Hospital in Dayton, Ohio.  My surgery will begin at 3:00PM-6:30PM.  I am having surgery for Glaucoma.  I have really high eye pressure.  This is the reason for the surgery.  At this time, I have to continue to take my medication at all times.

Finally, I am taking it easy because my medication is not working because my eye pressures are too high right now.  I do have to make sure that I am eating healthy right now.  I have to avoid coffee and caffeine drinks as well.  I know that I still have to take frequent walks during the week.  I have to really get myself back in shape physically and mentally.  I know that I still have to throw away my belongings due to bedbugs that are inside of the Apartment Complex.  I have to keep reading my Bible each day of the week.  I have to keep attending church on a weekly basis.

In Conclusion, I have to do a whole lot better than I have been doing because I am out of shape physically and mentally. I need to monitor all of my physical activities.  I need to watch my stress levels as well.  I have entirely too much fluid inside of my eyes and heart right now.  This is the reason why I have been taking Lasik Water Pills.  I lost over 30 pounds in three months.  The water pills send me to the restroom every 15 minutes.

 In Summary, I want all of you to know that I have to really get my life back in gear.  I know that I am only 5’ 11” and I weigh almost 280 pounds.  I have to do something fast.  I have to slow my life completely down.  I am getting older by the year.  I really feel it.  My bones are getting fragile.  I am not as strong as I used to be.  God Bless All of You!!  God Loves You and So Do I!!