How do you relax?   I usually close my eyes and relax.  I want you to know that I meditate every single day of the week.  I also read my Bible every single day.  However, I have a water leak inside of my apartment right now.  I am feeling much better now.  It is very easy for me to relax and acquire peace.   I really love to listen to the radio at night for at least one hour and a half from 10:00pm through 11:30PM.   I actually listen to the Urban Alternative with Dr. Tony Evans second, Keylife with Steve Brown and third, I listen to the Daily Bread Show and finally, Night Sounds with Bill Pierce.   I watch the news from 11:35pm to 1:00am, I usually watch Perry Mason and The Twilight Zone.  Finally, I go directly to sleep at 1:00am until 7:00am.  Prior to that, I wake up at 5:00am just to take my medication each day.   Afterwards, I go straight to sleep from 5:30am until 7:00am.   I usually brainstorm and meditate for at least 3 additional hours.   I try my best to remove clutter from my brain.   I am more active during the evening hours until 1:00am.   I have been writing my essays  for over a year right now.   I have been writing essays and research papers for the past 27 years now.  I have written three books during a 23 year period.  I have written my first book called The Best of Anthony Hopkins.   My second book is called My Grace is Sufficient for Me and Finally, my last book is called Essays.   This is a book regarding my personal relationship with God.   Thank all of you for reading my essay today.  I also pray every single day by thanking God and Jesus Christ for their help in my life right now.   I thank my Earthly Angel’s for helping me with my daily tasks.   God is doing for me more than I am doing for myself.  This is one of the 9th Step Promises in Alcoholic Anonymous.   Thank you for reading my essay and praying for me.

If you had to give up one word that you use regularly, what would it be?  To be frank with everyone, I have been hearing other people use vulgarity and bad language inside of the attic that is above my apartment right now.  These individuals are trespassing by sleeping inside of the attic.  There are at least 10 people, who are sleeping inside of the attic right now.  What I am doing right now is praying for these people because they really don’t have a place to live right now.  I understand that God is watching all of us on a daily basis.  It really hurts me to say this; the people who are sleeping inside of the attic are my enemies from the past.  They refuse to reconcile with me right now.  Please keep these people in prayer because they are acting like little babies who cry all of the time.  These are adults who are acting like little children right now.  According to Sigmond Freud, they have unresolved issues.

Are you holding a grudge? About?   I will admit that I have held a grudge for more than 12 years.   It has taken me 12 years to forgive a specific female because she was cheating on me.   My AA Sponsor helped me along the way.   Otherwise, I have tried my best to allow Jesus Christ to forgive me first and Foremost.   Secondly, I have managed to pray for those who have hurt me in the past.  If the Lord’s Will, I will be 60 next year.  God and Jesus Christ are really holding my arms up and are walking with me.  There are other people who have hurt me, and likewise myself.   I have hurt myself as well as other people with my behavior.   Holding grudges will only mess up your relationship with God.   I am the type of person, who forgives others very quickly.  I remember when I attempted suicide for the very first time.   I have lost my money to scammers and computer hackers because I was careless and looking for love in all of the wrong places.  On Friday February 13, 2010, I have taken all of my medication just to drown out misery in my life.   For 3 years, I have given my money freely to other people that I did not know.  Sadly, I had to spend 6 days inside of Miami Valley Hospital for treatment. I really do not know exactly what I am going to do with the women who have scammed me out of money.   Lord Jesus, please, give me the wisdom to know the difference between a human relationship with the opposite sex, and a regular that is artificial in nature.   I will admit that I am gullible when it comes to the opposite sex.   This is the reason why I am all by myself right now. Pain is a monster to go through.   However, I am not bitter.   Mom told me before she died to keep my head high above the ground.   Therefore, looking down is misery and pain.  I know that I have failed when it comes to relationships with the women who were in my life.  I remember when I used to look at pornography everyday: as an escape from reality.   From March 13, 2008 through February 21, 2010, I didn’t set boundaries for myself and with other people.   If I would had boundaries during my online relationships that I have had with the women, who have scammed me out of a large sum of money.   I would not have tried to kill myself over foolishness.  My AA Recovery is my Responsibility.   I am responsible for listening first and then become slow to speak and slow to get angry.   James 1;19!  I have to give God more of my time than I have ever did before.   All of this has made me more mature and more as a real man.   People can take advantage of you; only if you let them.  There was a young lady, to whom I fell in love very quickly.   I am very sorry for going off on a tangent.   Currently, I am evaluating my life and the things that I have done for 59 years now.   Thank you Lord Jesus, for helping me to get to know myself a whole lot better.   Thank you for saving me, loving me, and accepting me as a member of the human race.  Although I have critics, and those who want to see me fail in life.  I have already forgiven the people who really want to see me collapse.  God Bless You, who are workers of iniquity.  Remember this, only God can judge me and you to.  My grudges are a thing of the past.   Never dwell on what has already happened because God is watching all of us.   If someone continues to dwell on the past throughout their entire life: You will miss God’s Blessings that He has already promised you.  THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN ME, IF I WOULD HAD CONTINUED TO DWELL ON THE PAST.  REMEMBER THIS, YOUR PAST IS YOUR HISTORY.   HISTORY IS A STUDY OF THE HUMAN PAST.  FOCUS ON WHAT IS RIGHT IN YOUR LIFE.   HARBORING RESENTMENTS AND GRUDGES IS A STUMBLING BLOCK THAT YOU HAVE PUT ON YOURSELF!!  THANK YOU FOR READING MY ESSAY.   MAY GOD CONTINUE TO BLESS YOU AND KEEP YOU INSIDE OF HIS HANDS.  DO YOU KNOW THAT HOLDING GRUDGES IS MISERY THAT YOU HAVE PUT ON YOURSELF ?

Share a story about the furthest you have traveled from home.   On November 11, 1994, I have traveled to New York City to assist a close friend to help him and his family member move from Brooklyn, NY to Chattanooga, Tennessee.  Although I had traveled to Chattanooga, Tennessee for a funeral in 1995.  I had a lot of fun in New York City, I had traveled to and from Brooklyn, NY to Manhattan to assist with transporting my friends family members to put their things into a storage facility.   I also stayed in New York City for a total of 3 days.   A few months later, I had traveled from Toledo, Ohio to Buffalo, NY for a weekend excursion.   I had went by myself to the University of Buffalo for a tour of the College.   I remember that it was on Flint, Rd in Buffalo, NY.  I had considered attending the College, but it was too expensive for me.   While on the way back to Toledo, Ohio: I had stopped in Cleveland, Ohio for a hour and a half layover.   My friend picked me up from the Greyhound Bus Station located on Chester Avenue.  My friend had driven me around the city to give me a tour.   I had a lot of fun traveling all by myself.   On April 19, 1995, I went on my trip.  From Toledo, Ohio to Brooklyn, NY is 698 miles in distance between the 2 cities.   Another Example is the distance between Toledo, Ohio to Chattanooga, Tennessee is 565 miles.  I have spent a couple of days in Chattanooga,Tennessee just to visit my friends family members and attend a funeral.   Otherwise, I have spent 2 weeks in Detroit, Michigan searching for another friend, who used to live in Dayton, Ohio, but he was incarcerated during that time.   The distance between Toledo, Ohio to Detroit, Michigan is only 58 miles from each other.   Finally, I used to travel from Toledo, Ohio to Dayton, Ohio just to spend time with my family.   The distance between the two cities is 150 miles.   Thank you for reading my essay!

What Does Your Ideal Home Look Like?  It would remind me of Heaven.   I would thank God for accepting me into the Lambs Book of Life.   I would like to Join other Believers in Paradise.