What is your favorite word?   My favorite word is Grateful 🙏.  I am very grateful to be clean and sober for 34 years and 4 months and 8 days now.   It is through the Grace and Mercy that God has provided for all of us.   I am very excited to stop drinking alcohol and beer on a daily basis.   I also stopped smoking marijuana and Crack Cocaine as well.   My second word is Savior because Jesus Christ is my personal Savior right now 🙏 🙌.   I also stopped smoking cigarettes as of September 30, 1990.  It has taken me almost a year to stop smoking period.  My third favorite word is tranquility and peace.  Frankly, this is exactly what I am thinking about every single day of the week.   This is because I live alone.  The residents do not bother me anymore because I have something that will kill a dog.   What I am carrying with me is alcohol and Clorox Bleach.  I am getting tired of getting urinated on by the residents who are living inside of the attic on the sixth floor on a daily basis.   There are a total of 12 dogs that are inside of the attic that is located on each floor at the Wentworth HI Rise Apartments located on 2765 Wentworth Avenue Dayton Ohio 45406.  The dogs have went mischief because they are not eating the right foods that they are supposed to be eating every single day of the week.   There are a total of 5 women and 8 men, who are sleeping inside of the attic right now.   To be perfectly honest with all of you, I am responding to negative stimuli for the past 14 years now.  This means that I am hearing voices and I am having visions on a daily basis.  Some of the things that I have been observing while I am sleeping are gang graffiti and the gang alphabet.  I am hearing cellphone ringtone that are Mexican and Latinos Music.   Therefore, I am dealing with a very large street gangs who are located inside of the United States of America right now.   I want to inform all of you that my neighbors are people who are living outside of Wentworth HI Rise Apartments in the Dayton, Ohio Area.   Some of these groups of people were former convicts and those who are wanted for committing violent crimes from a previous state in the United States of America.  I have been observing pitch forks and triangles that these gangs use vulgarity and bad language everyday.   The women are wearing tattoos just like wearing a dress.  However, I used to be involved in street gangs myself for a total of 14 years.   Do you know that the people who scammed me out of $18,550 dollars in Western Union Funds are living inside of the United States of America right now.   My Cellphones are all Cloned, Copied, and Pasted onto another Street Gang Members Phone.  The fourth word that I use is Apprehension.  This word means a state of fear and trepidation.   If you want to know the truth, honestly, I ended up falsely accusing a specific group of men and women who had driven to the Charlotte NC Area on Tuesday October 13, 2009 from New York City to committ a drive by shooting on me because it happened at 9pm in the Charlotte Transportation Center a young lady got out of a car, and she started shooting me with a 45 SemiAutomatic Gun.  She said That Fat….know how to run.   I also turned my information in to the Charlotte Mecklenburg County Police Department to the Fraud Department.   I was not the only one who got scammed out of a large sum of money.   I was hospitalized for three months in Morgantown, NC.  I was hospitalized at Broughton State Psychiatric Hospital for an extended period of time.  I was released on Thursday December 8, 2019.  Less than 2 weeks later I was hospitalized again for getting evicted out of my apartment located on Sharon Amity Boulevard in Charlotte NC.   I was court ordered to move back to Dayton Ohio.   Therefore I moved back to Dayton Ohio on January 6, 2010.  I remembered that day because it was snowing outside and I caught a cab to my Sister’s House for a few weeks until I was hospitalized again for trying to kill myself because I have lost a lot of money to scammers and computer hackers.   They used me!  I stayed in the hospital for six days.  During that year, I was homeless for a year until I moved into my apartment at Wentworth High Rise Apartments in 2011 on January 5, 2011.  I have been here ever since.   I had worked three jobs in a six year period.   I have written three books in 23 years.   My first book was called The Best of Anthony Joseph Hopkins, my Second book was called My Grace is Sufficient for Me and Finally, my last book was called Essays.  Please keep me and my entire family members in your prayers and thoughts because we are going through trials and tribulations while living in an environment that is not conducive towards our needs.  Thank you for reading my essay today 🙏.

What are you doing this evening?   I was listening to the radio and writing essays tonight.  I was meditating to Jesus Christ and God Himself.   I written an essay about making amends with God and Jesus Christ His Son and Everyone Else on Planet Earth.

What does it mean to make amends with God and others?

            Hello Everyone!! I hope that everyone is having a good day today.  I would like to start this off by asking a very important question.  What does it mean to make amends with God and others?  An amends is when someone apologizes for a wrongdoing and change the behavior afterwards.  For instance, when a person commits a wrongdoing, a person is supposed to confer with God first and foremost.  Afterwards, repent for your sins and forgive yourself in the process.  Afterwards, you are supposed to apologize with anyone that you have done wrong to.  Saying I am sorry is really not enough.  You have to change your behavior for the better.

 An example of this is when I told my family members about my brother’s problems, without asking him first.  Some would say that I am a backbiter or a two faced person.  I did not have any business telling my brother’s problems to others.  This is because my brother is getting ready to have a total of 4 children.  I have told him that selling drugs will not pay the bills.  He will have to get a job and keep it for the rest of his life.

 To be honest, I do not have any children because I know that I can barely take care of myself.  Therefore, I would prefer not to have sex with any woman, until we get married.  I would prefer to have a friendship with everyone, man or woman.  This is what I am supposed to do for the rest of my life.  An amends is when you are supposed to admit to your mistake, ask for forgiveness, rectify the wrong, and eventually change the behavior.  It takes a very long time to modify a specific behavior, and change it for the better.  I know that in my case, my family members are not the forgiving type of people.

 I have to ask God to intervene in this matter.  There are a few of my friends, who would rather not have anything to do with you.  When that happens, that is it and it is final with some people.  Some people do not know how to make amends with anyone, or with God the Father.  I also want to inform everyone that I have a brother right now that I really have not spoken to in 24 years.  It hurts me because he does not want anything to do with me.  It is his fault for calling me a female dog at my Great Grandmother’s funeral on August 19, 1994.

 It hurts me because I have to be the better person by apologizing to my brother for fighting him.  He did not understand that my Great Grandmother raised me, while my mother was being treated for Post-Partum Depression.  It also hurt me when my own father died.  I was not notified about him or his death.  I asked my Aunt, where was I during the time my father died?

 I am hurt and devastated because I have not had a chance to resolve any of my active issues with anyone.  Currently, I am puzzled because I have not had a chance to resolve any of my active issues with everyone in my personal life.  I have a cousin who fought me for 9 years.  I am not at the liberty of mentioning his name because of confidentiality issues.  We fought each other as children and teenagers over petty issues.  My biological father is his father’s cousin.  My best friend is really my cousin because our fathers were brothers.  My family members do not really know it.  My own biological father was a light skin man.  I thought my father was fair skinned just like me.  It is going to take God to help me to resolve all of my active issues with each other.  For the moment, my brothers and sisters are not speaking to each other right now.  Please pray for me and my family members because we are not speaking to each other anymore.  Thank you for reading my blog.

Anthony Hopkins

What personality trait in people raises a red flag with you?  Whenever a person displays a great deal of aggression, anger, and wrath.   I will have to leave immediately.  If someone is making sarcastic remarks towards me or someone who is of another race, color, or creed, I will have to leave immediately.   This is because it is perceived as a threat.

Describe your ideal week.  My ideal week consists of attending church on Sunday morning.   Secondly, I usually go directly to the library on Hillcrest AVENUE AND PHILADELPHIA DRIVE IN DAYTONS NORTHWEST SIDE OF TOWN.   THIRDLY, I am solely responsible for attending church on Tuesday for Bible Study.  On Wednesday, I have a doctor appointment and Thursday as well.   Friday and Saturday of this week I will be going to the library and catch up with things that I forgot to do earlier in the week.   Otherwise, my objective is to get to know God

Name the professional athletes you respect the most and why.  The Los Angeles Lakers drafted Bronny James to their team.  This was his Father LeBron who was responsible for getting his son drafted to the Los Angeles Lakers.  The team itself will help develop Bronny James and help him to improve his basketball skills.

How do you relax?   I usually close my eyes and relax.  I want you to know that I meditate every single day of the week.  I also read my Bible every single day.  However, I have a water leak inside of my apartment right now.  I am feeling much better now.  It is very easy for me to relax and acquire peace.   I really love to listen to the radio at night for at least one hour and a half from 10:00pm through 11:30PM.   I actually listen to the Urban Alternative with Dr. Tony Evans second, Keylife with Steve Brown and third, I listen to the Daily Bread Show and finally, Night Sounds with Bill Pierce.   I watch the news from 11:35pm to 1:00am, I usually watch Perry Mason and The Twilight Zone.  Finally, I go directly to sleep at 1:00am until 7:00am.  Prior to that, I wake up at 5:00am just to take my medication each day.   Afterwards, I go straight to sleep from 5:30am until 7:00am.   I usually brainstorm and meditate for at least 3 additional hours.   I try my best to remove clutter from my brain.   I am more active during the evening hours until 1:00am.   I have been writing my essays  for over a year right now.   I have been writing essays and research papers for the past 27 years now.  I have written three books during a 23 year period.  I have written my first book called The Best of Anthony Hopkins.   My second book is called My Grace is Sufficient for Me and Finally, my last book is called Essays.   This is a book regarding my personal relationship with God.   Thank all of you for reading my essay today.  I also pray every single day by thanking God and Jesus Christ for their help in my life right now.   I thank my Earthly Angel’s for helping me with my daily tasks.   God is doing for me more than I am doing for myself.  This is one of the 9th Step Promises in Alcoholic Anonymous.   Thank you for reading my essay and praying for me.