Numbers 14:9 says: Only don’t rebel against Yahweh, neither fear the people of the land; for they are bread for us: Their defense is removed from over them, and Yahweh is with us, don’t fear them.  The Lord God is protecting all of us, who enters the Land, which the Lord has bless us.  Always be careful and strong because God will protect us wherever we go.  I am not supposed to fear the people of the Land.  This is because their defenses have been removed from them.  Of I go somewhere, I am supposed to stand my ground against anything that is in my way.  I really understand that God has blessed us with a land that is filled with milk and honey �.  I really recite the Bible verse from 2nd Timothy 1:7, and it says that for God has not given us a Spirit of fear, but of love, power, and of a sound mind.  This is very serious because God is protecting all of us wherever we go.  God is real!!  He is always available anytime we need Him.  When I think of the Word of God, I know that it is my Sword of The Spirit.  I am supposed to protect myself against the devil’s schemes.  I will never disrespect God or other people in my life.  Lord God, please give me strength.

Micah 4:12 says: But they know not the thoughts of the Lord, neither understand His Counsel: For He shall gather them as sheaves into the floor.  I am going to say that I don’t know the Thoughts of the Lord.  I am only a vapor and a shadow that only last for a short period of time.  Psalm 144:4 says: Man is like a breath, and his days are a passing shadow.  I have to remember that God created us for a reason.  We might not know what our true purpose is in life, but God has the answer and plan for all of us.  I will admit that I didn’t know what my plan that God had for me.  This is because I didn’t ask Him.  Right now, I know what my purpose is right now for me.  God would like for me to repent of all of my sins, iniquities, and transgressions.  He wants me to share the Gospel of Peace with everyone.  God also want me to be a leader and not a follower.  I might not know what God is thinking about.  I might not understand His ways.  I have to be honest and truthful with everyone right now, by saying that I need help in this area of my life.  God wants me to serve others and Him.  I am serving Him by sharing my story with everyone who ask me.

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My Soul Pants for the Lord!!

        This is an essay that I really love the most.  Psalms 42:1 states as the deer pants after the water brook, so panteth my soul after thee, O God.  My soul at this times will always crave for you Lord.  There was a period of time when I used to crave for marijuana and other mind altering substances from 1972-1990.  I prayed to God on May 2, 1990 at 7:00PM to remove my desire to smoke marijuana, crack, and alcohol.  I was sincere in my prayers to God because I was tired of being sick and tired of the high cost of low living.

        Next, I want to inform everyone that I no longer have a desire to smoke marijuana and drink alcohol.  I really feel good about myself because I do not connect with people from my past anymore.  I want to inform everyone that a hart is a deer.  My soul desires to hear the voice of God every day of my life.  I want to inform everyone that I am praying to God every single day in order my nieces and nephews could stop drinking alcohol. 

        Also, I want to say that my soul pants for the Lord because I want better things for myself.  I want to say that this Bible verse really enables me to get things together.  I want to inform everyone that my life has changed for the better.  I have a real job right now.  My soul thirst for the Almighty God.  My soul craves the Lord every single day because I have new objectives for my life.

        Further, I want to say that my soul craves the Lord because I belong to Him.  My destination is heaven because I have made the right amends for the Lord.  I pray every single day of the week.  I write inside of my journal all of the time.  I also apologize to people that I have hurt in my past.  There are some of my family members who have not made amends to me personally.  I have to forgive others when they continue to wrong me.  I will admit that I had done wrong for over 35 years.  I have been clean and sober since May 2, 1990.  I am very proud of myself for remaining clean and sober in spite of all of my personal problems.

        Moreover, I want to say that my soul still desires for the Lord each and every single day of my life.  My Spirit is clean right now.  I am still powerless over people, places, and things.  At least according to Alcoholics Anonymous on page 417 Acceptance A.A. Big Book – Acceptance is the answer to ALL of my problems today. When I am disturbed, it is because I find some person, place, thing or situation- some fact of my life- unacceptable to me, and I can find no serenity until I accept that person, place, thing, or situation as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment. Nothing, absolutely nothing, happens in God’s world by mistake. Until I could accept my alcoholism, I could not stay sober; unless I accept my life completely on life’s terms, I cannot be happy. I need to concentrate not so much on what needs to be changed in the world as on what needs to be changed in me and in my attitudes.

          Also, I want to say that when it comes to dealing other people, I have to make direct amends and pray for them as well as be there for them in all ways possible.  I really have changed a whole lot since 1990.  I will admit that I might have a mental illness, but God loves me.

God got my back.  My soul pants for the Living God every single day because He is willing to help me out of any situation. I want to say that everyone should have their soul thirst after Him for the rest of their life.  My soul craves for the Holy Spirit that is inside of me to help me to do the right things every day of my life.  I have to try to still resolve all of my issues with other people that I have not seen in a great number of years.  I love the Lord God so much that it is He who gives me His breath of life.  My soul thirst for the Lord God because this world is changing so fast.  I will always need His help for as long as I live.

Finally, I want to say that I am a changed man.  My soul thirst for more knowledge and wisdom from the Living God.  I love Him so much that I am willing to do the right things in my personal life.  I will say that I strive for spiritual progress rather than spiritual perfection.  Only one person was perfect and that is Jesus Christ.  My job is to share the Gospel with others who are not saved.  I am living the Great Commission.  I love everyone!! I know that I am a mortal man, who have a lot of common sense.  I am a man who has a lot of knowledge and experience from living life.

        In Conclusion, I want to say that I love everyone who I am in contact with.  I am willing to do without money just to help out other people.  I know that my mother, grandmothers, aunts, and uncles taught me how to become a person who shows unconditional love towards others.  I will admit that there was a time when I was very angry at those who hurt me in the past.  Right now, I pray for the same people who have hurt me, and forgive everyone who injure me in any way.  I am a person who easily forgive others all of the time.  I really do not argue with anyone.  I want to say that I know that I still have a long way to go in my journey for peace everlasting.  Please continue to pray for me and all of my family members and friends.  Please also pray for those that I know and those I do not know.  I love you very much.

        My name is Anthony Joseph Hopkins and I am from Dayton, Ohio.  I have been writing for a total of 30 years.  I have a total of 6000 Blogs that I have written on my own.  I love to write because it helps me to cope with a mental illness.  I love to read, write, travel, and use the computer. Please stay strong everyone!! I love all of you.

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